i might just go back to bed

well here we are, Sunday. it seems most of us are sick with this horrible whatever. i hope all your sicknesses do not progress as much as mine. i went to the clinic yesterday to get checked out. i was telling tim how i currently have to sleep sitting up because i start violently coughing if don't. and he got me all freaked out that i could be getting phnemonia... which would suck big salty balls. went to the clinic waited like an hr and a 1/2, saw a doctor. he didn't tell me anything.. just prescribed me some antibiotics and sent me on my way.. i suppose it doesn't matter as long as i get better. and don't have to bloody sleep sitting up grr

i kinda wish it would rain today. right now it is sunnyish... i don;t plan on going out much today. i want to relax in this time i have and feel better. rain would just make inside more cozy, that and i like to hear the sound of rain. there is something about it that makes me happy. maybe thats why i haven't been happy too much snow , not enough rain. heh. yea right.

I wonder if i have done something wrong.you never mentioned anything. i never asked for anything except the money i was owed. thought. i cooked, i cleaned. i actually scrub the bathroom and junk. i always take out the garbages and recycling. is 5 dishes too much to do? it;s been two weeks and i am tired of looking at them so you win, i'll do them like i generally do when you arn't around. i'm tired of being alone, suppose i kinda feel abandoned,i thought i was there for you whenever you where down. i suppose it doesn;t really matter now. you took all your clothes and some other things. i guess i'm just waiting for when you take everything, for the day you tell me that your gone for good. if that day comes i wonder what i will do. i can;t leave, i'm stuck here.

i'm so tired right now. though i am in an ok enough mood. i guess i can;t expect to be too productive or energetic being sick and junk. i have been busy.... not that it;s anything new more me. yesterday was alright... kinda crazy. More work than it should have been in cases. it's a good thing tim showed up haha cuz i probably would have had to call him anyways. after the show, and cleaning up:P tasia and i stopped to get some wine( since two people in my family told me to drink it to get better.. isn;t that funny hehe i think so ) we just chilled listened to some music and had a merry ol' time. it was nice just to talk with someone bout what your thinkin. i'm sad the rest of you are all sick to. maybe i should make some home made chicken noodle soup. hehe
i need to go grocery shopping anyways... we will see we will see.

i hope i have the energy to paint today.. i have a cool idea .. i think. thought... i might just go back to bed for now. if anyone wants to visit feel free. i like the company