Looks like somebody's got a case of the mondays...

name that movie.. dudud nice... good job..
soo it;s monday. i worked at 7 like always... but not forever.. to be ... always... 2 more days of early and then i just work every sunday. awesome eh i think so. so yea i am just taking the afternoon off, read some of by book now i am sitting in my pj's. might go to a party later, more people are leaving.*tears* but i might just relax and go to bed early.

mayhaps i will have the energy/inspiration to paint something. The other day josh gave me a wonderful gift. one of the most thoughtful i have ever recieved and well i guess it just made me feel that my art is actaull ypretty good. like i generally like the work i do. at least for a short time. however i means somethign to me if Other people sincerly enjoy my art. and not just on a yea wow thats pretty neat , but like a " i've been effected or changed in some way becuase of amazing bueaty before me..." or something like that.. hmmm i think i just might..
i might go get soem more paints .. cuz you can always use more paint.. oh... and brushed .. cuz mine all all fucked.. and it shall be in the theme of wonderland. ( by the way josh's gift was the complete worksof lewis carroll, who wrote alice in wonderland and alice through the looking glass, as well as a rather thoughtful sentiment.)
i love alice in wonderland... because everone is mad... it;s just aweosme.. love it..

i home i get around to it... haha ... i'm so tired and lazy curretly..

dudud hmmm i guess i gotta go and get my books and stuff ready. i wonder if i will really have and book... OH i hget art supplies.. i am taking 3 art classes this year. which means art suplies that i don;t have to pay for.. yay.


anyways i supose that enough rather useless drabble. i'll inform you if i get around to doin gthat painting.. as well as putting a link on which you may view it.

today, it;s been a long day started out good with sleeping in.. but then i felt sick for most of the day with an ugly headache.. the loads of stuff i had to do at work did not help. so i am not in the most upbeat and energetic mood. which really sucks cuz there are two gatherings that i was suposed to go to.. one for my brother who is leaving on monday. He is movie to nova scotia. And the second is for josh who is leave on sunday to go to victora. so what do i do ... end up going to neither because i am tired and ichyish... how lame is that. i was going to watch a movie and have popcorn with extra butter, but i dunno if i could last through a whole movie. Do you ever notice how your movie attention span goes down if you are watching it alone.., i always change what movie i wanna watch like 10 min in.. especialy if it;a a disney and i see adds for other disney movies thati have ... and i'm like " ooo i'd rather watch that one"anyways

have you ever done something nice, something you knew you had to do cuz i's just the right thing to do , dispite what you really want or if it makes you sad or somthing. I hate that. sometimes i can;t stand my niceness. o well.

i don;t even think i wanna watch a movie anymore... but i need somethign to do that allows extra butter popcorn to be consumed.... how about a bath.. its it weird to eat extra butter popcorn in the bath? maybe i;ll do that.. i don;t care what you think .. you can't judge me.
*cough cough* i apologize..

more better interesting updates to come....

.. i'm sorry i lied... there isn;t any coming .. they got lost in the mail and could take 6-8 weeks. thank you

chocolate and flowers are nice, but forplay makes you go mmmmm

so the tool concert was awesome. i ended up going with spencer rick and chris. met a bunch of my old friends on the ferry took the bus with them , walked around got drunk saw the concert it was good. the next day was less good because of tiredness, getting lost looking for a dumb building while caring my backpack with sore feet.. i was a bit grumpy to say the least. anyways
sleeping in today was good. went and visited josh , saw some more kyle

just ate some peanut butter sandwiches... yumm.. augh going to work....

i will update better later.. i just need a new post... just because,, aug work.... lame... good bye
*heart*

Call me a bitch but it;s me or you. and this time i'm thinking of me ...

today suvked so much and crying just isn't making me feel any better. so to start off i just spilled a bunch of stuff on the floor in front of me, which i will get to clean up. whoopie. so yesterday was the fireworks, not that big of a show, but for some reason i feel like compleat shit. so 1/2 of yesterday and all of today i am tired and sore. not just sore i'm weak, i can;t even lift stuff .. i was struggleing with 7kg things of litter. that not heavy. i cna;teven beguinn to exlain how depressing that was. having trouble with 15 pounds. i almost lost it.. i mean i have cried becuase of work before.. the stress or whatever, but never at work and i almost lost it. cuz you knwo what i had somethign to look forward to, key word in that sentance is HAD... beucase i no longer have that. i was suposed to hang out with spencer and he was gonna give me a massage and we where just gonna hang out.. and that probably would have made my day mostly , if not compleatly all better. but no,. much like i should have guess he got called into work and won;t be done until i am in bed, beucase i get to get up at 630 tomororw to go to work. sweet. and spencer will probably have to work tomorrow to so i , if at all ,. will only get to see him for a very short time. and i if i don; get my massage, i probably won;t get it. . cuz we will forget , and all i want is to feel better. i'm just so sore and tired. FUck i just wann skip ahead a week. i don;t wanna go though tomorrow , or the next day ... or the next 5-6 s days. i don;t even care about the tool concert right now.. the concert i payed 80$ for and will surly pay alot more for , i don;t even fucking care. as of right now i don;t even wanna fucking go .. i don;t wanna go over tomorrow night.. or walk arounf vancouver. or wait in line. listen to band i love and then spend another night. i don;t wann get home 1/2 way through the day. and be so tired that i am probaly just going to sit on my ass and do nothing. i just wanna skip it all .. but you know what i have to do it.. becuase the plans are made, the tickets payed for and what eles am i going to do ... what am i going to do .. not go waste my money. kick myself for it later.. foget about the ticket i didn;t even want kylan to buy me becuase i was supoed to go to the convert with spencer. i don;t even care what you think about it. i don;t are about alot of things right now.. all i wanna be is happy and i can;t be that until i get this stupid trip over with, and i know right now that i seem like a total bitch but did you ask me waht i wanted .. no you assumed.. and i was just stupid and was to fucking to polite to correct you cuz i didn;t want you to get all whiney and bitchy at me.. well it;s my turn .. not everythign is about you. maybe if you wheren;t thinking about yourself all the time you could see what others want or how they feel. btw i don;t feel the same way , so yo ucan just forget it. i don;t wanna cuddle.. or give you kisses , don;t leave stuff on my car .. i don;t want it. i makes me uncomfotable.. you've had your chance and you fucked that up. i just don;t care enough to keep it in anymore... i'm so tired of making eveything seem like it;s ok .. this has honestly beenthe worst summer ever, i can;t wait for it to be over. two more weeks left.. hopefully things will improve. but ytouknow hat even looking a head won;t save me from tomrorow or the next day. i'm just going to go cry myself to sleep and hope i feel like i can bear it tomorrow.
don;t feel you need to comment or tell me it;s ok and that everyone has a bad day. . i know that.. i just needed to get shit off my chest and i can never put it verbaly into words.
you... don;t get upset don;t whine.. listen to what i have said and deal with it.. get over it. move on. cuz i dont wanna listen anymore.

So i lied

... i said i would post the day after and it;s like 5 days later... so shoot me. AnyWAYS.
done with 5 days of work. DAY OFF TOMORROW! and pay day .. double wamie...
the past weekish i guess hasn;t been filled with alot... except for early mornings and early bed times...
Yesterday was ambers picnic, which i was very happy with, it was awsome.. .props to amber. good times had by all. it was nice to see you all, it just makes me want school more. then i went to visite kylans family... cuz they love me... and i made them cocktails. but i was uber tired so i wasn;t so much up for the party. i would have liked to picknic more.

Saturday i'm doing the market and then going to do the fireworks in parksiville.. come see...
it is my last show before i get my level one display fireworks lisence... then i can get payed.. woot.
then 3 days of work ... and tool ... it hasn;t really registered yet.. i will be excited when we leave for it. you know what eles is awesome about tool.. two days off.
then less work... then school.... omg school.. i hate to be repetative, cuz i hate it when people ask me or tell me the same thign over.. but omg... school.

umm i guess that is all i got becuase there isn;t really anyhting to talk about all i do is work and go to bed early... i am a boring person... but it;s like an illness that i should recover from as long as i get the right dose of theatre, CM rum and sleep

*heart*

past my bed time

yea so i should be off to bed, 7 am shift.. augh . lame .. umm but i just though that i should show you my tattoo , i got it done yesterday at black and blue. umm not much eles is really new with me more work thats about it. will give a better update tomorrow or something..

love
~lisa~

my day off... woot

ok ok .. so today is my day off. omgi know. it's been pretty good so far i've got to say. i remember at the beguinning of summer , beofre i got a job i just kinda did whatever.. now though i appriciate my free time.. i dunno anyways.
so that day started off with me taking spencer downtown so he could get his second tattoo. a polynesian(spelling?) band and a geco.. it looks very neat. but it was gonna take a while so i went and visited josh. which was awsome, i heard some good stories.
"my barnicle would tell great stories" hahaha you remember i think they are great and thats all that matters. haha but anyways then crazy kyle showed up and we was all chatten.

then i had to go and pick up spencer and we went and fell asleep cuz we where tired form geting up early. i love naps. haha youknwo when you are like a kid and you are like augh naps are for babies.. but then you get older and you are like omg these are sweet what have i been missing...

dropped spencer off for work that it turns out he didn;t have. i've just been chillen on the comp doing my reguar stuff.

i was hopping that james would be able to get away and we could hang out or w/e cuz he texted me wed to do soemthign but who knows. sometime i hope to go and see ben. i was hoping maybe today with james, but he already has many visitors tonight. next week hopefully

tomorrow... guess what is happening tomorrow.. i am getting my tattoo. at 4 at black and blue.. i am excited and i think that my rents have accepted it..
yesterday i told my mom that i was going to make an appointment and he was balah blah balah and he said that i didn;t love my dad any more beucase i was getting one.. he said it in like a not serious tone but kinda trying to make a sneaky point.. and i duno it really bugged me..

so here is my mini rant even though it does not compleatly pertain to me beucase i don;t really have alot of resistance against getting my tattoo.
i just don;t understand why people get so worked up over it. like why it is a big deal . like o the comment my mom made just go tme thinking. how does something like decorating my body effect my love for someone eles, or their love for me in return?
the way i see it , is that the tattoo i am getting is an extentsion of my self and my personalitly. like it means somethign to me, i drew it. it;s how i am expressing my personality. and i'm sure that lots of people with tattoos feel the same way . i just wanna show people who i am in another form. *shrug* i don;t even remember all the stuff i though i of about the subject.. but yea... what do you guys think? i know jordans had issues with people and his tattoo.. even though it is soo awsome.. i mean come on . it;s his family moto, that so kewl. anways yea


soo i decided i wanted to write down some of my favorite lyrics.. cuz i love lyrics.. but you don;t have to guess them, you can just enjoy their poetry.. however you are welcome to


1) nothing like this, felt in her kiss, cannot resist her, fell for her charm, lost in her arms, i keep a photograph. give me a glimpse, let me come in, be there inside her, here it beguins,here is the sin, somethign to lie about.

2) there's a trator here beneith my breast, and it hurts me more than you'd ever guess, if my heart could beat it would break my chest.

3) song of laughter shades of earth are ringing through my open ears, enciting and inviting me

4).. and you can't fight the tears that aint comming, or the moment of truth in your lies. when everything feels like the movies. yea you'd bleed just to know your live.

5) there's not much left to love, to tired today to hate

6) oh my beautiful lier, oh my presious whore. my disease my infection. i am so impure.

7)tonights tenants range from a lawyer and a virgin, she;s rising with her rosery tucked inside her lingere

8) there's evil in the air and thunder in the sky and killers on the blood streets. oh and down in the tunnel where the deadly arise, i know i swear i saw a young boy down in the gutter, he was starting to foam of the heat.

9) Desensitized to everything. What became of subtlety? How can this mean anything to me If I really don't feel anything at all?

10) follow me down to the valley below. the moonlight is bleeding from out of your soul.

11) don't open your eyes you won;t like what you see, the devils of truth steal the souls of the free. don't open your eyes take it from me. i've found you can find happiness in slavery

12)lets drink to the military, the glass is empty

13) would you cater to every fantasy i've got, would you hose my down with holy water if i get to hot.

14) i know there must me something wrong with me, out of all the hours thinking so how. i've lost my mind

15) she reads the minds of all the people as they pass her by, hoping someone will see

16) The way you hold your knife, The way we danced till three, The way you changed my life, No they can't take that away from me

17) and thats what you get for falling again you can never get him out of your head. it;s the way that he makes you feel, its the way that he kisses you, it;s the way that he makes you fall in love.

I guess thats all i got.. love these lyrics.. haha anyways ta ta for now. i'm going to go clean the pile of clothes that i call my room... of any by the way ..while i was writtign this i notices how awseome the cap of a 2-6 of campain morgans spiced rum looks .. it;s all metal and slogany.. i shall use it in art... one day ... just need to drink my lots of CM to get enough caps to make somethignout of ... hehe

fitting out

what up ... another day has past, well pretty much. worked, visted spencer, got soem pizza visited some more old friends at tidy's. they where haveing a martini party which i would have enjoyed greatly if it where not for my extream tiredness and work at 7 tomrorow.

tomorrow should be a pretty good day. work should go by quickly and then i am hanign out with matt and shari. they are my favorite co- workers.. i;m sure i have said that before. my furture looks so bleak right now. it seems like all i have to look forward to is work.
i guess the tool concert is comming up , but i haven;t thought about it much. i dunno

i am looking forward to school so much. it seems that lately i have noticed how i don;t fit in to the places that i used to, like groups and certain people's lives. i mean i can't excpect everyhitn to stay the same.. but for most of my life i've always felt a little outcast and for the past year or so that wasnt the case as much. but not being able to see anyone has really braugh me back to fitting out again. thats why i can;t wait for school. cuz i know i will it in there. i will have my friends around me and we willl be a group again. i dunno. mayhaps i am just lonely. after thinking about it , i don;t really have any friends that i can talk to, or rather that i see and can share stuff with... save for one who i dunno if i know anymore. i dunno if i am just being crazy but it;s like you are two diffent people or i just don;t knwo the person you are anymore. and it drives me crazy cuz all i wanna do is know,

i sometimes think i can see the future or know what will happen... i hope that i am wrong. august is definatly no fun. in fact this summer has not been the greatest.. it goes to re-enforce how i could never live with a regular job. i need to do something that means somethign to me , or i'd probably go a little more insain.

well i supose it is to bed for me early again. i'm so fucking tired.

sometimes i wonder if you would be better off without me... but id miss you to much...love

5 of 8

tomrrow 6 of 8...
augh work.. it;s not looking to bad since i am past the 1/2 way mark. was soo exausted today but i made it through the whole day. i had to i had stat pay. haha. umm after work i went to spencers and chiled there.. pretty much just had a nap wich was so nice.. for some reason spencer's bed is so comfy. then i came home ate, woke uup a bit and went to michelle;s to see her and jordan and swim a bit.
the river was nice.. lee showed up and we hung aroudn ate some hot dogs. went to the foundry to see if pam was working... she was not..

ende dup goign to fast eddies, matt joined us. we got the tripple play. it was good times now i am home and going to be in bed by 10 becuase i am soo fucking exausted.

dunno whats shaken for tomorrow

wednesday i was suposed to donate blood but i'm not anymore becuase im tired enough already. going to hang out with matt and shari from work .. they are my favorite people to work with... cuz they are awesome. haha .

ummm hopefully going to go make an appointment to get my tatoo this week... kylan make sure i do that eh .. haha. umm

but yes.. bed,,, night all

p.s. 4 weeks 1 day

juste parce que

so just a breif up date about the past few days.. the wedding was sweet, saved matt from himself and his tequilla. some how i always end up taking care of someone. i think it;s my mothering nature. kylan got all grumpy for soem reason at the end of the night. *shrug* next day watched some she;ds the man. baught some new clothes, went to a dumb staff meeting. went to see a salt water aquarium which was actually pretty neat. watched soem cleaks cartoons.

monday ... got up early to go to work. got off early met up with james and we drove to the cabin. had some sweet shinanigans.. naked dish washing for back massages. fuck you. skinny dipping with life jackets... mine was really small ahaha.. the first night was definatly the best... the rest was kinda slow was still good. i read my really sweet book.. i heart it... came home did my work laundry . went and saw spencer... today i am just wasting time bwfore work.. augh...

i get payed tomorrow .. sweet. thats all i got

Ten random things you might not know about me (or probably do):

10. I played fastball for 14 years, 7 of which where at a very competative level
9. I am an artist... i swear
8. my favorite colors together are navy blue and lime green
7. I have been in love twice
6. my least favorite color is orange
5. I always work to much and end up killing myself, well very close to it
4. I am going to be a crazy cat lady
3. I am slightly worried about my future's financail security the first few years out of school. i wonder if i will have enough skill and drive to be a h-core designor or set painter
2. the recent aditions to my wardrobe make me feel more mature and ready to take on the responsibilities of school/ fall// w/e...*shrug*
1. i think that i am lucky... not in the luck that you win things or fin dlike money or w/e.. but ther have been many time where i realize how very lucky i am and i realize i wouldn;t trade my kind of luck for the other

Nine places I've visited:

9. Istanbul, turkey
8. Pompe, ummm greece was it>? ... omg don't remember... the volcano spot
7. barcelona, spain
6. Cainns, fance
5. Piza, Italy
4. Venice, italy
3. The virgin Isands, US
2. can cun , mexico
1. TOFINO!, BC

Eight ways to win my heart:

8. make me laugh
7. Give me a massage
6. bring me mile and cookies
5. Listen to me
4. understand me, or at least try to
3. realize i don't like lots of "stange" foods and accept me still
2. Do something randomly nice for me
1. give me rum ... hahahaha

Seven things I want to do before I die:

7. own and be able to ride a unicycle
6. design the set/ paint one for a big time show
5. work in europe somewhere
4. fine someone to spend my life with
3. travel around the rest of the world
2. be as well loved as my granny was
1. paint a master piece

Six things I'm afraid of:

6. spiders
5. natural disasters
4. becoming pregnant before i am ready to
3. strange foods with many ingredients
2. people making assumptions about me before they know me
1. ummmmm pink fluffy... soft..... stuff...*shrug*

Five things I don't like:

5. people who are rude, especially for no reason
4. people who dont listen
3. complaining about something after someone has given you a solution
2. people who lie to me
1. selfishness

Four ways to turn me off:

4. trying to control me / mylife/ w/e
3. excess mushy/needyness
2. hairyness
1. bad breath

Three things I do everyday:

3. EAT
2. brush my teeth
1. do a dumb dance

Two things that make me happy:

2. working on a show
1. being with people who: make me laugh, i love, have the same interests, are awesome

One thing on my mind right now:

1. Finishing me sweet book before , augh work