exausted

so i'm just sitting and stuff..it has been a long long weekend. building haunted house... the dumb crucible show..stupid parties where i know no one..it woukld have gottne better if i had stayed when pam and carolyn where there too.. then i lost my cell and freaked out. but io have it back finally. i am emotionally exausted and confused from this morning. watched the ridiculousely long othello with michelle and chris. then came home. got yelled at by my mom becuase my room isn;t clean. i'm sorry i haven't been home in a fucking week. i have another fucking week of the crucible. lots of time to sit and think. this probably won;t be a good week for lisa...
umm on an upside i got to talk to amber a bit and that was fun. i saw uncle joe and he is hillariouse. tomorrow i am hanging out with ashley and chris and michelle and going through the haunted house. i hope it is going well tongiht and i hope i didn;t ruin things for people.

there is no cure for what is killing me

somedays i hate myself..
somedays i hate you
i know there are many days
when you probably hate me too
please remember...
though i'm smiling on the surface
i'm crying deep within
my heart isnt breaking
thats how its always been

i'm still here
(L)

and i sat

and it was the best day of my life. ok not quite so today i had to get up at 8 to go to the fucken dentist.. lame. then i came back home and crawled back into bed. made kylan and i soem scrabled egg sandwiches.. he stayed the night at my house cuz it was way late last night after the party and he lives far away. speaking of last night that was pretty fubn ya know.. chillen in formal wear. i like getting dressed up.. they show was ok too. augh i can;t believe i have to sit through it 10 more times though .. lame. anyways back to today went and helped out with the haunted house... trying to give soem guidance i guesshahaha . helped them get soem walls up droped spencer off.. then came home and got into my pj's watched 10 things i hate about you in my couch with soem teawrapped in a blanket with a fire next to me... it was enjoyable.. then i went ad had hot bath... and now i feel refreshed... tomrrow i will help with the house again. i think sunday i might get seom work done... omg omg i have 3 nights off... what will i do .. wel haha probably bigg ass assignments... but w/e ... i don;t have to do the dumb show. can;t wait till it is over... fuck i just realized it;s kenny;s bithday on tuesday ... better get him somethign ... anywasy i'm out ttyl

WOw that was fun

last night was so much fun.the plan was 80's themed party after rehearsal. ha ha rehearsal was so like rushed cuz we where so eger to get ready for the party. hahaha the last act only tool lik 20 min haha.. anyways then we made our way to barbs. by the time the bulk of jsut where just getting there the neibours had already called to complain. it was so lame . cuz people wheren't even there yet the dudes jsut saw all the cars... then the cops came but everything was kewl. hahaha wow dude i dunno alot of specific things, i just had so much fun socializing with everyone. there was so much love and lots of kissing.... like i mean everyone... barb tried to slip me her toung.!!! hehehe *blush* caroline got really drunk and passes out kinda everywhere.. alleah woke up drunk this morening. it was james's first time drinking.... becky taught us a new drinking game....met soem new people... foumd that alex is freaking hillairouse and fun to get drunk with , and met afew new people .. all in all it was an interesting night.. that will be rememberd for a long while. till next time.. good night

sometimes i think my name must be mary

I hate life

The past two days have been horrible. yesterday was horrible, yet i think today topped it... i am exausted and getting sick. rehearsal went almost 4 hours beucase people couldn;t fucking remember their lines. i am very sore from sitting and tomorrow promises more dissapointment. i saw ashley today it was nice. she wore that perfume i like for me. i think the highest point in my day was going and picking out frames for glasses... in about a week i will be able to see again. they are need but i am impaitent and want them now : (... linda called me today asking to help the kids with the haunted house... i am very busy but would still like to help cuz they don;t have linda. it's always good to have an outsiders perspective. i will have to work out a shedual with spencer as to when they will be working and when i can come and help. dan and will are also helping... i look forward to being done with the crucible.. and have made kylan promis to beat me up it i ever thing of auditioning for anythign again... thanks to ross i hate acting.

there is no time for anything... i hope i can find time for my theatre history assignment... but who cares. i am worried how well i did on my english midterm.....

on somewhat lighter note i got 91% on my stage craft midterm I think it could be, one of , if not the hightest mark in the class, i hope anyways... i think mike gives me funny looks ? maybe i am crazy

she doesn't see her beauty
she tries to get away
sometimes
it's just that nothing seems worth saving

dirty dirty dirty

coverd in paint and foam chip type things.. the past two days i have been working on the cruicible set, it;s going fine.. hmm what has happened? well the turkey dinners where good. umm also "nerding it up" on the days off where good. this week i don;t remember what happend hmm except for thuesday we went swimming at the pool... we = lots of theatre people . and then had reheasal which was boring and made me hate ross more... umm then i was all sad and angry. so kylan cheered me up .. next day built some set and then today i build more set.. epp then next week there will be more set... man i am going to have a billion crew hours.. thats good though
haha later tonight might go see kylan and get som yummy chicken wings ... then tomorrow... nerding it up most likely.... and watching movies later on... hmm thats about it... and i am pretty lazy at the moment so no more writting for lisa...

one more day till turkey

and i am very excited. hmm i don' think alot has happened this week.. but lets recap. sunday i worked on my dumb essay. ended up finisheing on monday morning.. eww my mom woke me up at 645 ish .. eww... but i think it turned out to be a sweet essay.i get it backl on wednesday i am soo excited eeeep i dont; remember any significant details about the mid part of the week.. except megans and mine's parking adventure... A FUNNY .... and we started to build the set for the cruicalbe.... they trust me with power tools HEHEH

umm yesterday i went to school at 9 30 and built the set for stuff.. hahah i cut wood.. haha then i hung out with kylan and i went and me some of his friends an chilled with them.. he has the kewlest house.. it is like a cabin and there are crazy spiral stairs and it has that nice woody smell.. but his room is very cold... eep . this morning woke up and watched a bunch of episodes of family guy then went and got chinese food.. yummy.

umm yea i just had a hot bath it was really nice. .... ... and now i have just had dinner and am now dining on some apple crisp.. yummy. i think thats all i got..

It;s been a while

but the past week sure way busy. NIN was amazing they played for and hour and a half and i was loosing my voice from screaming so much. i *heart* nin. they played so many good songs to .. umm ebfore the concert soencer and i excpored a bit of van.. we went to metro town and i was bblown away fby all the stores.. then we took the bus and met a big group of other nin fans. then we got denied our room at the hotel we booked becuase neither of us is 19.. fucking lame.. but it';s ok we had a back up..
next day we had to get up early.. lame. so we could get bacl and i could go to stage craft... yay more word learning. tuesday was along day .. cuz after schooll michelle and i did our tech for our moviement peices and then me and kylan and jeff went to get food and stuff. then 3 hours rehearsal.. ouch..
next day kinda the same thing in acting we performed out movemnet peices... lots of people though ours was sweet... yay .., they liked my coreographing even though i don;t know how to dance... haha i geuss i can move still.. * insert lisa moving* except kylan and i got A&W .. yum ymu ... hen equally long boring rehearsal.. oh but we did fin out our part... i got the shittyest one in the play.. i am only on the stage for like 3 min maybe.. lame.. aso i am probably gonna drop it and go do techie work for the dover haunted house and musical .. linda said i could design the back drop!!!!
anyways thuesday had to go to rehearsal again .... gggggrrr beause i was in act 4 i had to go ... lame i maybe did soemone for 20 min.. then sat for the rest .. at least i got soem knitting done..but ew sitting for 2 and a half hours.... went to chris's after and tried to watch " all the great books abridged" but i was tooo tired.
friday went to dover.. finally got my play burned on to a dvd. no now i just need to get soem "Pictures" of it for my portfolo ... met up with kylan, we watched my play then the scarlette pimpernel then baked a cake.. then i showed him my scrap books while i got ready.... to while.. I wanted to look nice!!!! danmit ... anyways.. we went to moxies for dinner cuz it was spencers birthday... ( people present.... rick , robyn. nick , glenn, triin,. kylan, spencer. me cora....) i ordered chicken stripps.!!! then we went to the show. it was good, except by the end i got really tired and not so much into it... but it was ok still spencer held me up... thank you :) .... after the show we went to erins... well first i had to stop by my house adn get more slutty... apparentyit was the theme of the party. anyways. spencer got really drunk and it was funny. ahahah cuz he is cheap... nick also got drunk which was also pretty funny cuz haha well it; nick... and boy.. i never saw him smile soo much . hahah i also go tkinda drunkish . which was fun.. ahah don't worry everyone adam was there to give us all a ride. hahah it was nicks flaut.. silly nicky, then at spencer we where tryin to get nick to bed. and he ws funny haha i dunno; anways .. friday was a fun filled day
satureday was lame... felt kinda hung over but what was really lame about the day was that i had to play slowepitch with my crappy team... *sigh* waste of time.. but i did get a tripple.. man i smoked that ball .. then went to spencers watched movies with people and ate pizza( me nick triin, robyn glenn adam spencer... ) ahah we read soem of this " how to get iton book" that adam got spencer for his b-day . hahah itwas very amusing.. it;s a very think book. hahahah
and today *sigh* an end to the shinanigans.. i have to write and essay.. which actaulyl shouldn;t be to hard. but yea.

things i need to do some time.. possible soon
- get new glasses .. i have lost my other ones..
- update my portfolio
- read spencers new book hahaha it never hurts to be enlightened
- do laundry... i'll probably do that today
- paint somethign new
- extract myself from the crucible without causeing a ruckus
- draw megan a happy picture

i think thats all ...

p.s. i was so moved when i got 5 comments form people. it made me feel special *heart* you all