tad ram rod

hello kiddie winkies. whats going down in the hood?.... yea i'm a big geek what it too ya....Punk!

anyways jsut chillen right now, waiting for people, dinner, time to pass. today was a day unlike yestersay, which was really fun for the most part, went to whisky creek for icecream , and spent the day in the sun, at night played some risk at gregoires, old school risk so i actaully had a chance to win . and i did.. you can now call me empress of the world. blue and black forever. dududu . however a weird occurance happend. i guess from sittign on the floor or whatever my like joints started to hurt... it started with my knees and bacl then then my whole legs ,back and a some of my arms where hurting, tres weird.

today i got many inturuptions of sleep so i got up around 9 somethign... went to brunch , then i thought i would get off my ass ans go get a job. lame. haha . so i went to the mall and applied at spencers gifts. Ran into nathan and ashley and jen .. chatted with them .. then walked aroudn the mall with nathan for a while haha went to chapers and had story time with nathan... RamRod!,,,haha " always" then i went and applied at white spot, it think they where looking for people so that sould be neat if i could get a job there. close and a stuff.. yea... other than that i havent; done much today ..pipers tongiht,.

Show opening tomorrow, that should be fun .. get to dress up all fancy like.. heh yay for fancy... go and look at the beautfil set that i helped to create, tear ,,,tear

on a random note... larua is home i saw her at the mall .. it made me happy.. call her or say hi if anyone gets a change... thats all for now.... byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

unimpeded possibility

i think today is going to be a great day. the sun is out again and i can actually enjoy it. i've decided to go on a misadventure today. last night was wonderfully refreshing. for the first time in i dunno how long it felt like i had no obligations. yesterday we finished the set for " If we are women " and i had my last exam. as of right now i don;t have anythign major planned until next week( that being school and working with doug) sometime i have to find a job, but anways...
last night i was lying on my lawn waiting for spencer to come over, and it was pretty warm out for night andi was just lying there thinking that it could be the middle of summer right now. that everyday could be as wonderful as that moment. then in a little bit spencer ashley and jenn showed up, and it was nicet o kinda hang around with my old friends.i gave jen my number and hopefully she will call me or soemthign. then nathan and tasha showed up and we chilled on my grass a bit more. nathan told me they where looking for someone at spencers, it would only be like 10 hours a week, but i might apply there and just get another job or get it until i find a better one.

Sitting on the grass then, reminded me of eyars ago when robert turgeon used to be walking by with whoever and he would call or loudly whisper my name.. and i would come out and we would sit on my lawn just like we did last night.it's like there is so much possibily, you can do whatever you feel like on an impulse, thats what summer is like to me tht probably why it reminded me of summer. i remember thinking last night that " i could stay out all night wandering around , hanging out and it wouldn't matter. hahah i dunno i just can;t get over how liberating that feeling is....
anyways
then that crew( nathan jenn tasha and ashley )
then spencer and i walked back over to his house and we went on the swings across the street. got to talk and catch up.then went back to his house and just hung around, and listend to APC. and it was like we went back in time a year ago cuz thats what we used to listen to when we where just doing nothing. i had nothing to worry about and it made me happy.... " dont; worry be happy" haha
so this morning i just woke up and was so liberated, i guess you could say, and today for the most part seems like a " what ever the fuck i wanna do" lisa day. i think i will start with making myself gorgeouse. that always helps to put me on the right track.. " i'm free i'm free" i dunno. haha ai'm like in this weirdmind frame right now, i just wanna enjoy this bit of summer while i have it ya know... like it;s not gonna stay warm like this for very long and i wanna live it.

wow i've been doign alot of time travel latley yesterday and the day before i was a day a head, last night i went back in time like 3 or 4 years and after that i went back to last year and now i wanna live a couple months from now...i am indecicive... i supose there in nothing wrong with living in time ( past or present) as long as you don;t wander there to long ( right *wink*) eeeeeeeee i'm so full of anything that i could burst... but i tink i will start by taking a shower manybe going tothe mall or somethign... but whatever it is.. i wil be wearing flip flops and pink shades....( well not in the shower)

~It is easy to take liberty for granted, when you have never had it taken from you.~
~In the truest sense, freedom cannot be bestowed; it must be achieved.~
~Freedom is the oxygen of the soul~
~Freedom means choosing your burden.~
~We feel free when we escape - even if it be but from the frying pan into the fire.~

all pro golfer

dudud , umm just thought i'd say thanks to everyone for saying nice things. just watching some family guy and relaxin with kylan, dudududu we went to the driving range earlier, ahaha I AM STILL THE DIVET QUEEN HHEHEHE last night we went tenpin bowling, i won both games hehehe hmm what eles is new. Ive been working on the theatre one production of " if we are women" tomorrow me and mike and megan are going to start the painting on the set. today i made a chicken out of that blue foam stuff....itlooks like a chicken...

anyways, pipers tomorrow thays gonna be fun. i can;t thinkright now but i just thought that i should update... dudud thank you and good night

p.s. "electic boogaloo"

It breaks my heart...

remembering how things used to be. not that it could be changed , i couldn;t see me in any other place right now. but it still breaks my heart to remember all the friends i left behind. they are all gone save for one, who thank go won;t let me go.
i went to coffee tonight with spencer, the last of my close friends that i used to have. which was fine until ashley and jenn and nathan came. ashley used to be my very best friend and now i can;t even talk to her. before tongiht i don;t remember the last time i talked to her, but i am sure that iwas an akward encounter. you know those friends where you can tell what they are thinking before they evern say anyhtign , you can just look at each other and know... well that used to be us. and now i don;t even know what to say. it makes me so sad. i started crying on the way home because, i just felt so lost and outca st.*sigh* I'm not saying that i dont' like the people i know now, i guess i just want to feel closer to more of them. i have kylan and he is great, i just wish i was closer to more peopel i guess.
i dunno what i am saying anymore. sometimes even though i am in a big group of people i feel so alone because no one really knows me( except for kylan) because no one ever listens.
i dunno , i guess it doesn;t matter, and things wont; really change unless i change, and make people listen... cuz people are just inconciderate.
i think thats all
p.s. fuck doing my essay tonight
p.p.s thank you klyan and spencer for reminding me that i matter to someone

The perils of procrastination

( correct spelling not included)
so i seems like everytimei have to do soemthign i go into super procrastination mode.. lame. i have my theatre history essay to write and i am currently... not writting. it.. havent;e ven started. anyways i also have a stage craft final on thursday that i shold do a little review for.

yesterday was the last day of classes not that we rewally had classes. we had our interviews though.. i guess mine went well. i don;t really knwow hat to say about it. also yesterday was the opening of Woyzeck . that went well i guess. i played the vcr , i guessi havetat againg tonight . hhmmm intersting . more crew hours anyways. hahaha ..... bloun OMG i am gonna miss the second years sooo much . life won;t be the same without them.
it;s kidan weird... cuz next year we will be the people that the first eyars are gonna miss.... it;s kinda crazy to thina bout . i can't wait till we see all the first years... but ... i'm gonna miss ou second years.

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i have nothing to write about but i dont; want to work i guess i willl take a shower ....maybe that will get me started in teh right direction .

End Of Year Camping

wass so much fun.. i should be cleaning up right now... but i got distracted by the fancy electronic box.. and i was like.... blogggggggg. so hre i am
like i said camping was super fun , boo erns to those whoe did not come, you are the ones who missed out..... i don;t feel like going into much detail... but there arwe afew sweet things i will meantion. yesterday whern kylan geoff and i got bacl from out trip to town , we where given "gather-er names" or wahtever and i am shiny tomahawk , umm i got to make camp fire toast... i love making toast over camp fires even if i don;teat it...
oh the first night when we where all aoournt the huge fire singing... that was awsome.. ahaha pams erection *thumbs up*, when we were all toasting things at the end of the night..... alex's rendez vous with the sheep.... i have picutres.

umm lots of other littl things over all a great time.

Oh just incase anyone doesnt; know yet, i am the president of satry players next year woot, can;t believe that i actaully got it.. rocks...

tomorrow is that last dayof class, and i don;t even really have class,, haha interviews with mike, leon and ross, i'm excited for those, i wanna know waht they think of me.. woot pot luck thingy too

oh i get to be an opp for woyzeck, thats super kewl. except that i have to get up early tomrorow but it;s weet cus i love love love doing shows. it;s worth it..

i needto get bacl to work before my rents return ( my brother is gettig them now) see ya all later

p.s. we must keep touch in summer

it looks sunny, but i know the clouds are hiding

today i intened to get up kinda ealy to work soem more on my essay ... and i guess it is still early.. but i don;t want to. SO I WILL WRITE A BLOG... haha....i lose. man the next week is going to be so chaotic. today i have to do my creative habit project that i have have been neglecting all year.which is due tomorrow moring at 8 30 . eeep
also today is the voting for the satyr player elective next year. i really wanna be president. and while at the same time as thinking i have a pretty good chance, i think that there is someway things won;t work out for me. i dunno why but it seems like it always happends to me. hmm and then i was thinking.... what if i did get to be president.. would people start to listen to me? i dunno why but i find that peopkle always tend to cut me off , because they think they have somethign more important to say. so generally i just give up. i'm actaully a really smart person with lots of good ideas if you actually listen. o well i guess i've gotten used to it.

I just know i could do a really great job, if i had the chance. that the main pit in my stomach for today ..wanting something so much , but trying not to be to dissapointed when i dont get it. I also have the read through for that theatre one play today ... it better be over by 12:30. OMG thas probably waht will fuck me over... i think life hates me seomtiems ...
anyways... so besides all that. i still have my essay to do fro english .... and then my essay for theatre history... and then my digital media video project... whichi is looking ok...

Camping is comming up this weekend. i am excited.. i made the sweetest map... so proud of it.. hahaha i hope everything works out great and no drunk people get lost in teh forrest...
after that weekends .. only one class left...OMG i still have to make my resume .. lame... and find a job... and stop spending money.. and go to the bank and actually se how much money i have... eep.. *scared*
anyways i should go cleam my house,,,,

p.s. i've decided i am going to be pretty today

new post new post lalala

so this is me delaying working on my essay , currently i am talking to my brother about Dnd...we are big nerds eh ... *sigh*... but damn ... anyways....essay in english... i have like no sources soo... yea.. don't wanna . so the past little while hmm lets go fron thursday... ddint; go to english ... went did soem stuff at my hosue i think.... then went to kylans and watched soem movies... stayed the night... the next day we went to lunch for my cousis birthday...yum lunch ... then kylan and i went on a long pointless journey ... which was frusterating... came back to my house... watched a movie fell asleep went to bed.... at like 9 30.. haha i know we are lame... we were gonna go out to the bar for my cousins birthdat as well but.. man just sooo tired... the next day .. we went to see ice age...yay kids movies.... OMG i just feel soo sorry for that little critter who wants the acorn... cuz he like never gets it... *cries* then after that we went on another drive to look for the camping spot .... augh and it turens out that we where going the right way the day before .. i was just to frusterated and impatiant and turned around. :Lame ...so we went off roading in my Miada.. tear it;s all dirty now... came home... made a very yummy dinner. made soem cupcakes.... chilled
kylan left, spencer came over and helped me to make a sock puppet. then i drove him to his house to ice a cake and then to a party..... lisa came home had a bath went to bed..... got up ... went to go skating ... no skating... came to nanaimo.. Got A&W yum yum .. played DnD... yay i finally leveled..... woot i'm a big nerd...

so thats pretty much a quick run down of my over so exciting past 4 days.... going camping next weekedn should be fun .. yaya fun... but befopre that i have my fucking dumb stupid english essay to do ... i think i will do very badly..... but who the fuck cares right now.... lame....
um umumumu read through for " if we were women "" on tuesday... i'm kinda excited fort aht.. lisa's first kinda profestionalist kinda show.. ... augh that rememinds me i need to do that poster for woitcheck,,,,,,or however you spell it...
to everyone who read my blog today ... i;m sorry for waisting your time... maybe i will invest in a better moer action packed life sometime
NOTE" no amimals where hurt during the making of this post
~love lisa~