snow day adventure

sooo today was another snow day which was sweet. yesterday was too so meghan , kaitlyn , kylan gregoire and lee came overand watched movies ans stuff. twas pretty sweet. anyways whats really important is the awesome igloo for things that me meghan kylan and kaityln made.
dudud also been doing my art project which is a self portrate and someother things . it looks pretty good.

dududu tomorrow i get to have my wisdom teethout... sweet augh.
as much as i like the snow i am glad that the snow is going...lalala
i will post better later i just want to put a pic on for my profile.. dududud

What to do

what to do. blog woo who... woo...yea..... ... great
umm wow snow is fun. hung out a bit with lee kaitlyn kylan and michelle. school today. umm went to go hang out with spencer watched black afew episodes of black adder. umm .. and now i am home. i dunno what to do now, if i have some paper i coulf start on my art project, but i probably wont. coul dhave a bath and read then go to bed early. or hmm nope thats probably it. i wanted tp up date my post for a while but now that i am i dunno what to say or don;t really feel like describing. so i'll go do whatever and maybe be back to fix it.


This is a picture that was taken and given to me another time that it snowed... notice the heart snowflake.. pretty eh
is this a test? I hope that i pass

Damn you waking up early*shakes fist *

so i woke up early lame. i am fighting a cold or throat thing or soemthing. and when i sleep stuff build up in my throat and then i cna;t breath..... so i have to get up .. lame..
also. my cat comes into my room everymorning at the same time. last nighti was smart and left it open a bit so i wouln;t have to get up, but i woke up and couldn;t breath and had to anyways...lame

so i am wasting time here is my 100

1. i have lived my whole life in nanaimo
2. in two different houses
3. I cannot wait to have my own place
4. i am afraid to movie all the way to calgary.
5.i don;t actually like my name, i think its boring.
6. my favorite flower is a lily
7. which i have a tatoo of on my left ancle.
8. i drew the design myself, in eliza;s theatre history class
9. i also drew kylans fluer de lis
10. i am almost always cold

11.my slippers are chickens
12. i have a cat named stirfry,. and a beta fish named , little red
13. my mom talks to both of them.
14. cats are my favoite animal
15.I really like playing card games , like canasts, becuase they remind me of when my family used to go camping for two weeks everyyear
16. i love the out doors.
17. i like to go mushroom picking( the legal kind)
18.i love hamocks
19.i would rather be in a cold room wrapped in a blanket than be a comforable temperature.
20. but i like summer better than winter, by far

21. i love it when it rains really hard
22.i think that romanticaly i am a wretch to put up with because i never know what i want, but i think that i am worth it for the most part
23.i have honestly and truly loved two people in my life
24.i love the story of alice in wonder land becuase everone is mad.
25. i have had some of the best friend in the world, but most of them are gone now
26.i have had so many stiches and burned my self so many times that i have lost count
27. i broke my color bone after flipping off my bike trying to carry my ball equipment home.
28. afterwards i went and played football, because i didn;t know. it reall hurt
29. i played fastball for 14 years of my life. 7 of which where played at a very competative level
30. i played 2nd base and was relaly good at it.

31.i don;t know if i have ever felt truly excepted by a group
32. i am always tired, even if i sleep enough.
33. my favorite juice is minut made rasberry juice from concentrate
34. and i always putin more water than i am suposed to , my mom bitches about it hahahaha
35.i only like 5 differnt vegitables. corn brocollie, potaotesm peas and carrots, and sometimes lettic , but only if it's in a ceasaer salad
36.i', really bad at being kewl and trying new things, like foods.. expesially foods
37. i have given blood three times,
38.i am o posiive
39. when i am not lazy. i'm a really good cook
40.i have a realy crazy imagination and freak myself out lots of times

41.my favorite chips used to be old duch BBQ, but now hey giv eme heart burn so i don;t eat themas much
42. now i really like mrs vickies sweet chilie and sour cream
43. i love sweet and sour pork,
44. i have eaten. moose, deer, elk, bear, couger, grouse, rabbit, buffalo, crocodile and dolphin.
45.i like to paint my nails fench maniure stlye
46. i am an artist.
47. my fave thing to by artys about is painting.
48. i have sold many of my paintings and given soem away. if you want none let me know. i do commisioned works :P hahaha.
49. i paint my best most intersting work when i am upset
50. although i want to and know i can, i am scared not to find work in theatre

51.i have a really hard time expaing how i actually feel about things.
52. many times when in a group of people , nobody listens to what i have to say, either they are ignorantof others or to rude and interupt me
53. i pick up after other people.
54. i almost alway take on way more than i should. and it almost kills me
55. but i am still here so it must be fine
56. i want to go bungiee jumping.
57. i can legal handle, shoot, and buy, display firworks( those are the big ones)
58. i have traveled alot. and i really like it
59. however i could never go back packing around europe. i would starve.
60. i used to be really strong but am not so much any more. but i;m still pretty strong

61.i used to never cry
62. my intuition is generally right
63. however i generally override it withthinging and make the wrong choice.
64. i like to randomly do nice things for people
65. but i hate doing things when i am asked forcfully or told
66.i always dream in color and remember what i deam
67.i belive in the supernatural, even though it freaks me out
68. i really like to read
69.some times when i look at myself in the mirro i see differnt versions of myself
70. some of them i think are very beautiful, some are not

71.there are very few people that actually know me, and it makes me sad
72, i don;t have any close girlfriends anymore
73.i love to watch movies
74.a nd eat popcorn with extra butter
75. i suck at math
76. my favorite colors together are navy blue and lime green
77. my favorite fabric is satin
78. i am very good with duct tape.
79.i wish i could spy on people's minds and see what they think about me. so i could get an honest answer
80. i love to cuddle.

81.i have grown up on rum and coke, and straberry daquires
82. in the summer my family will all be haning around sitting in the patio just before diner or something and we will all agree that we should make drinks.. it;s so sweet
83. my parents are awesome, even though my mom is crazy. i am glad that i am parts of them. and i think it is so kewl that i can see those parts, but can also find my own
84. i'm afraid of commitment
85. i like human hearts. they look so kewl
86. i don;t ask for alot
87. i compain less, far far less than my brother wheni am sick
88. i have wondered what it would be like to swirv suddenly on the road or into trafic or off a street onto another street. i wouldn;t so it.. but i have wondered
89. i think i give good advice for the most part
90.i am very trust worthy

91.i love potatoes. especiallymashed with gravy
92. i want to have kids when i am older
93. but the though of being pregnat scares me to death, especially if it was before i was ready
94. i was never invited to many things, or was never thought of to be one of those people that had to be there, so when people specifically invite me to things i feel special
95. i'm kinda a loner
96. when i was younger i used to play magic cards and pokemon... and now i play dnd
97. my brother is writting a book and it is really good so far. i am proud of him
98. i want to do something that will make people remember me
99. i'm a big flirt and i honest to god can't help it, it;s just how i act i really don;t notice
100.. i don;t belive in god. i like since and the theroy of evolution makes sence to me.
p.s billy nye is awesome , he is the reason i like science

well i hope that is intersting enough to read. ahah wow i have to get ready and go to school. eep
LovE

956

afew hundred more to go.. yes it is the dreaded theatre history paper.. that i am fairly sure everyone.. except for meghan is writting today and tomororw. i hate to say it but i really am not taking it so seriously.. i mean leon didn;t even hand out criteria about it so .. yea
my essay will be suficient

not much is new.. i went to the dr yesterday . a specialist and i will be getting suergery sometime .. in afew months maybe?
other than that, the surgery for my teeth is cumming up soon.. yes not this friday but the one after that i will be getting my wisdom teeth out. so i will be all puffy and drugged up for afew days. feel free to visit me . i know that kylan is going to come.

u hmm . yea not alof of event... kylans birthday comming up that should be fun fun fun. dudu
thinks have been decent latly yet kinda blah. i dunno. ya know.. it;s just not what i need rightnow. i'm getting to it.


ummmmm wow i really got nothing. i just felt that i needed to update so i did . go team . hopefully i will come by with some more good stuff to wash away this crappy post..

much love

title

so tis saturday i spent the dayin bed getting sleep.... hmm i shall start yesterday

so i read this book that i am using for my theatre history paper. it was kinda boring.. well interesting but i didn;t wana do it.. anyways. i ended up wasting time on the comp. eventually after dinner i went to hang out with amber kaitlyn and alleah. then amber and i headed outto go pick up barbra and brianna. made a quick stop at thrifties and then went to the foundy.
for anyone who was way out of the loop. yesterday was brianna;s 19th brithday. she had never been in to a bar or pub so we took her. i baught her a crispy crunch and then later made her take a muff dive from my crotch. she was reluctant to do it.. but i am sure she was glad that she did. cuz later on i heard her telling the story to people at the pary. it gave me warm fuzzies knowing that she will have that memory of me haha.
anyways.. geoff and steph also showed up. and after a quick stop at the liquor store we went to the party.

barb geoff and i decided we had to make our first drinks strong... geoff won.. he was the most hard core.. he also got drunk the fastest.. which braught much humor.

mroe people came and stuf andf stuff. I ended up spending most of the night with megan which was awesome because she amuses me so.

16. it seems like i have known you worever and i guess i almost have. it;s a shame that we have never been really really close.. but i am sure after that birhtday that i ate the cake with my face you made sure to keep your distance. i think that you will be great at what ever you do. i truly believe you will be successful with your writting if you keep at it.. ther is actully no doubt in my.
mind. and success doesn;t mean making millions of dollars, it;s doing something that you are proud of. money and fame are just a bonus. i really hope that we keep in touch and then we can be crazy old ladies together. i love you.

there you are. as promissed. anyways
so some of the highlights of the night...
- infiltrating the "kewl group" in the kitchen
- making up a story that my name was alysia but i wanted people to call me lisa becuase in high school there was another girl with the same name and she was a bitch so i didn;t want the same name.
- being megans body guard, the chapstick body guard
- telling people about my camera fanny pack and waving it around
- hanging with the orange heads... no offence.;)

downers of the evening.
- being green and getting upset
- wakingup at 3 30 and not being able to get bacl to sleep until 6 30( total amount of sleep recieved.. about 3 ish hours)
- hearing the sexual experiences of at least 3 couples, some of which were very graphic, one of which was using a blanket that i braught... it must now be washed
- being trapped, by bodies and cold and miserableness and watnting to go home

so the night was good the morning was bad. at lwast i got soem good pictures. that if anyone wants are now posed on the forum.

so yea.. i left as soon as i could and came home to sleep. it was lame though cuz i had to get up 3 times to let the cat in and answer the phone and the door. why does stuff like that always happen when you really need the sleep.??/ augh... anywayss i'm alright now... sooo hungry .

will be doing my art work later tonight.. thats all i got..

my kitten loves me

she is sitting with me. stealing my blnket and making my feet go numb, but i love her

sooo today is friday. big party tonight, which i have been excited for. i'm not at the moment however so i hope it picks up. should be working on my essay right now.. but i am now. oops

wed night at the bar was kinda lame. there was a sucky person being the dj and our table was by the door. which was cold and the ciggarette smoke gave me a head ache. also on wednesday a group of us went to se borhat.. itwas so funny.. yet wrong in many ways.

thursday. fun with knots. moveing wood with leon and watching cartoons. best work op hours ever.

later that night at 70. dj night. ummmit was ok for a little bit. but i didn;t feel like dancing. and there was only us there. so we left after like an hour and a 1/2. went to timmys then to allens and watched the .... you knwoi can;t remember the name.. some time warioir... o dunno.. moveing city, cyborgs, australia*shrug* i fell a sleep. then kylan took me home and i went to bed... until...


now. i love this new blanket that i baugt.. soo much ... *heart*heart* heart*
oh yeah, and yesterday guess what came in the mail... my credit card! it's all mine muahahaha.

This is the time i should..

be reading a play. ..
be looking over my lines...
be researching for my essays....


but i'm not.cuz i just got up and it;s raining lots so i;m wrapped in a blanket. i love weather like this ...it;s got so much character. i dunno .

sooo ydesterday after class, i did a whole lot of nothing. i sat on the green room couch and was a big lazy blob.. then when i finally got my ass up to go to the library there was like no books for me to use. lame.

Woah i just rememberd some more of a fucked up dream that i had. i always have the most fucked up dreams. i wonder sometimes if that is why i am tired when i wake up. becuase generally i sleep for at least 8 hours. so whats thea dealy-o

hmm i really got nothing, but instead of doing somethign productive i will do these just like everone eles.


1. your so awesome. it;s really a shame that i never see you anymore. it always makes me happy when you sneak up or run at me and give me a hug.

2.i miss you , ya know. you and i have this weird relationship. it's this knowing what you want, but can never have. some times i think we deserve to forget about the rest of the world and just.. well i dunno waht we would be. if only things had been different, i could have loved you so much, yet i'm not sure what i feel for you now. maybe it;s some kind of love. w/e it is i cannot wait to see you next. my barnicle

3.i like you, though i suppose not some times. you are nice and smart and wonderful and sometimes i think i am threatened by it. but i wish i wasn;t and could just be your friend

4. you work so hard and are so wonderful andf sooo funny and i want everything to turn out for you. your so amazing. love

5.i hate to say it, but the last little while around you has been kinda akward. i know it isn;t my place to judge. i really hate how we are not as close. we where a pair and now, because of me mostly i feel like i'm missing something. sometimes i don;t think you are the same person. you probably are and just different circomestance and bringing out stuff...though i guess it isn;t that diffent just a little more extreame, or you are changing which is kinda good you could use one. anyweys i miss you, but things i have heard kinda made my stomach turn.

6.why do you aways have to be so difficult. we have talked, though together along time. you know what you. knwothis is not for you. why keep with it. i don;t understrand you. you say you should trust your feelings but you never do. i wish you could just be happy.

7. you are the one they want. i really like you and think you are awesome. so i understand why. i dont really know you but i wish that i did. i guess i am sad or jealouse or something, becuase i always seem to hear you name being called or said. and i realize is isn;t me that anyone wants

8.i like you, you are fun and crazy and alots of wonderful things, but i kind feel sorry for you sometimes. hwy do you do the things you do. i hate to say it but each time i see or here it, i lose a little respect. it;s nothing personal but it just kinda happens

9. what happend?! i miss the good old days when it was the three of us. i see you and we kinda hang out and you give me lots of hungs. but it is not near the fun we had before. we must go on an adventure.

10. i love you and i wish this could last forever. there are many things working against us such as time in out lives and the place that we are. you know what i think and it is true it will probably not change. for your piece of mine, this is for you. if i could do anything it would be not to hurt you, you better know that. i have been happier lately, it;s like before.. kinda. *shrug* anyways. you are hot stuff. and i like it when you show me how much you like me.*wink* i like the way we insult each other as long as it doesn;t go to far....fine

11.you are soo annoying.i want to beat you with a big smelly stick so that you know.

12. OMG your so hardcore and smart and fucking hillarious. if i do half the things you have done i will have lived a full life.

13. i'm glad we have gotten a bit closer this year. you are fun and nice and happy. i would like to do it more... hang out that is.. and maybe now that the play is over we can. i know i will see you around lots. but we should take and adventure somewhere. maybe on friday we cna have a tlak again .

14. your so od but i guess that makes you do. i can see that we have alot im common, which is kinda od scary yet assuring. even though we are very aike i know im different. my life willl be more interesting than yours and that will change me alot. io'm glad that you are you though, even if you talk to the cat.

15. ew creepy creepy creepy. give it up . i cannot belive you talked to him about me. it would be nice if i never saw you again.



yea thats it. nobody hate me if i said somethign you don;t like. though i don;t think i did. but yea. i guess i will get up and go to school . au revoir

OMGOMGOMG

what what... i don;t have to do anythign today...hell has frozen over i'm sure.

woot play is done. strike when pretty fast.. to bad i was stil uber tired and had lame work. sounds like i missed a pretty good party. very "good" for a lot of people. haha .
i'm looking forward to the parties comming up, thursday at the bad and brianna;s b-day.
then after that kylans... we must make jello shooters... if you do it twice it;s tradition..
anyways, last night was nice. had a bath went for coffee. ... .. watched a movie. why arn;t we like that all the time? itwas nice like the good old days.. i miss them.

so my rents are back, whoever reads this pobably did not know that they where gone. my dad braught back a jug of rum it is 1.75 litres... wanna know how much it costed... 21$ american .. thats less that 25 canadian.... thats alot of rum... i was like oh sweet is this for me .. but he said we have to shar it..
but i get to keep the jug after. and it is a relic, i shall keep it foralways

does anyone realize that we only have like two weeks until the end of the semester. paper time eh. ep ahaha

also comming up i get to go to the doctors alot... yea i'm sorry to say im dieing... but not yet..
really i have a dentist appointment soonish.. my knee apointment finally, and my wisdom teeth out.. lame.


so i really want a new music player. i am minus a crappy cd player and hoever crappy it was, it still game me muisc.. so i want a to be hard core and get a new i pod. they however a fairly expensive.. and i just can;t decide what color i would want.. green pink blue or black... if you think a specific color would suit me , please tell me. *shrug*

thats all i can think of. haaha and it really isn;t much .. *shrug*

i'm sorry .

closing night. thank god, i need a break. strike tonight then another party. unfortuatly i will most likley not be able to enjoy it as it will start late and i have to work tomorrow morning at 1030.

i cannot wait for "this" whatever it is ... to be over.
until then, please forgive me
--------------------------------------------------------
i am the prize in a race between two rivals. they are the same in many ways yet their ignorance of the other separates them. i am a bridge who is held up by two sides. i am the connector they shall never meet in the middle. they hold me up with love and affection, yet i am held down. without these sides i would fall, however the more they grow and shrink to meet i am twisted. I have beams that go deep within these sides, i stab deep within their being, the damage is already done.