mmm sweeet taarrts

so things have been better since my horrible day on friday. went to spencers and watched some movies and hada relaxing night and then slept in. saturday was a pretty laid back day at work. then came home had my self a shower went out and baught some new roller blades. i heart roller blading. i used to do it all the time but then somethign happend to you rollar blades so i stopped anyways... i went for a rollar adventure to the mail box and realized how out o shape i was.haha
o well
yesterday i got some decorations made and got spencer a new mug made( cuz i broke his other one on the horrible friday) it took jo 3 tires to make. and i love her for it. ummm went rollar bladeing and stuff. had a wonderful sleep
got uptoday and had a boringish day at work. only 12 more days to go until i (possibly) get a day off. eeep

i can;t wait till it actually gets hot. stupid may.*shakes fist* wanna wear my sumer clothes.
that is all for now....

addition. there is a funny occurance that i find happens to me. thought it is most likely in my head. but here it is anyways... it always seems that as soon as i admit(not when it happens but when i admit it to myself for the world) that something is going well or i am partiularially happy there is almost always something that happens which counteracts my good mood or attitue or whatever you whish to call it. it;s not always really bad or anything, mostly just a shift in plans or some crummy news. i guess thats just the way life works:P damn you sometimes life. o well
i want to see so many people , but i can;t decided who to call first, so i will probably end of doing nothing.. or just procrastinating alot. i still have many things i need to do, but i just don;t want to. and that is horrible.

ok ok .. i think i am actaully done now... though i wouldn;t be suprised if i update again before the night is through... don;t blame me, blame boredom
~lisa~

"today is not your day..

tomorrow isn't looking to good either." so today has been full of lots of crappy things and happenings. first of all work was ridiculouse. 9 skids where delivered and i had to recieve and work them. ( i only got 5 worked though) but keep in mind these are pallets stacked about6 feet tall with , 40 lb bags of dog food and litter. i guess i don;t have the most mentally taxing job in the world but the things i accomplish are amazing sometimes. i actually did all this in like 4 hrs, before the stuff was delivered i worked 3 other skids and did some cleaning. and you know all the customer service. not that anyone really cares what i do or how much i accomplish at work, but i makes me feel better to complain about it. anyways. it just makes me angry cuz there where twice as many people in petcare today doing 1/2 the work that i was doing. dfjglskjhdf
oh and i dropped a pallet on my glasses and chipped a piece of, which i have since glued back on. it looks... ok . of and my parents had to make a big deal about my renewing my cell phone plan. that just added to my awesome day. all i wanted to do was get somethign new as it makes me feel better. but no big comotion.
oh and then i broke spencers grad class that adam baught him. great. i know how upsetting i is to have someone break somethign that you love. i too have had one of my favorite glasses broken. i shall be replacing it as soon as possible. i feel so bad. *cries* at least it will give kaitlyn something to do while she is at work.

also just from all the comments that people have been making, and stuff i kinda am worried that i won;t do a good enough job for kids fest. i was fine but now i just feel that i am going to dissapoint everyone with less that amazing decorations. pretty much i can;t wait for may to be over with , or at least the first three weeks of it. *sigh*

so , work sucks, i am in a strech of 19 days without a day off. i have sunday off of petsmart in which i have to make a bunch fo decorations. then 5 days at petsmart and then kidsfest starts. and i can just tell that during kids fest i am going to have to work night shifts. if that isn't bad enough. spencer is going away to hawaii. which i mean is super great and fun, but i will miss him.

i have decided this is the post of suckiness and depressing. looking at all this is just making me feel worse so i will stop.

this is me

posting for the second time today becuase i am kewl like that. so after this morning 's augskjdhfsk.. i went to walmart where i baugh some lame things like new shampoo, bu ti also baught this really kewl top and super comfy pants.. mmmm comfy. then came home sat around a bit.. then headed over to wake up josh. boy i missed that kid. we had one of our good talks that we always have and it was wonderful. he is moving back to nanaimo for the summer which is super exciting. umm
then kaitlyn and i went to our exam. which was easy, done in less than 1/2 hr. dudud. came home made afew decorations. 7/20. soo yea.. not i am being super kewl and doing my blog.. gonna go out later.. i started out this morning and the day seemed so awesome and it was sunny and warm. and now it;s all cloudy and stuff. it's kinda a downer.

o well , perhaps i will go and paint my nails

p.s. 12:08 was the highlight of my day

AHGFHDIFG

what the fuck. thats all i have to say. sorry for getting upset becuase you think my work isn't good enough. creative critisism is fine, but you really insulted me. I don;t like asking poeple for help. however if i truly need it i will ask for it. this is my job, my contract. you said you would help me made me feel like you don;t think i can do it... have a little faith that everything will turn out alright.
and now you make me feel guilty. just cuz i got upset doen;t mean you;ve done a bad job. you do pry sometimes into things i don;t want to talk about, or ask me mundane things when i have a long day , or a bad day , when i don;t really feel like talking. that doesn;t mean i don;t love you or appricate everything you have done fore me. your great and i wouldn't be me if it wheren;t for you.. and i like me. you don;t know how often i say how often i said tha i have the best parents ever. but thats doen;t mean i won;t get annoyed frusterated. just leave me be and i will get over it.
you had a suggestion which was fine you just presented it in the wrong way. i don;t like sit downs, they make me nervouse. but you know whatever.

you know, sure your kinda crazy sometimes, but i will probably end up just like you.
Love

soooOOOoo

didn't do a whole lot today. we i kinda did but not really. i worked at the port for 8 hrs doing some load in stuff.. which actaullt involved alot of stanidng aroung and ridding in robyns fancy H-core new truck.. wow is that spiffy. and then i came home and had a bath and finished the book that i baught yesterday.. it;s called "can you keep a secret" by the same author that wrote the shopohoci series. and it's pretty much the awesomest book ever. i read it afew years ago and decided that i wanted to read it again.. so i went and got it yesterday and practially reay all of it cuz i am lame like that. anyways...
on another not i think i am currently addictied too dunkeroos they are sooo tasty, such a fun little snack.yum yum yum

just for fun this is a piture of me dressed as my kinky superhero" spanlk me pink " at my my first year mixter
i soo broke that cock open,,, gave it head good. and there is ace.. i think he was like hetero sexual man or something.. or man man... i dunno he has a big" man symbol" you knwo the one with the cirlce and the arrow.. anyways it was pretty kewl to say the least.. i hope you firstyears are excited.. cuz yo uhave to make you ... pinata..
you knwo what we has a penis for ours and i made one fore this year.. but after i was told that normally it rotates from penis to breasts.. so maybe next year you wanna make some breasts.*shruf* or a vagina... depends how creative you want to get..

anyways that is all i got i guess

p.s. if you want to make a crazy pinata i can help you shape it or w/e
p.p.s only if you want.
p.p.p.s even though ti hate paper mache

pirate ship

so i just had this dream and it was kinda crazy and fun. so i thought that i would share it with you.

it started out as some contest where afew of us had to swim over to this ship and stay on it for a while. which is all fine and dandy, except the ship would eat you if you made it angry. so we get onto the ship and there is this list of instructions:

don't step on any of the ships feet/legs( so for some reason there was a bunch of furnature on the ship, if you kicked a table leg or something .. .it made perfect sense in my dream

don't forget where you are( so like you are on a pirate ship don;t, start arguing about something not pertaining to the ship or without using any pirate referances.

i think there was another one but i forget.

and the thing was if you did any of these things, the way to make the ship not eat you was to do pirate things. so say things like
arrrr, mate , scallywag, stalty dog.... or start using a gruff voice or sing sea shanty songs. sooo but it;s are not to like bunp any thing ona a ship so pretty much all the time we where saying pirate stuff and singing. cuz if you kinda stopped doing that the ship would start to like wavy.. like tha walls would move in together or the floor would move.
so it started out with maybe 5 of us on this small ship , but as my dream went on the ship got way bigger, it was like a house...( a pirate ship house) and more people started showing up like, pretty much all you guys. so that went on then we got close to the harbour and where like lets go on land. and i;'m thinking in my head yea ok, we';ll stop at a port somewhere..
side note.. i was out on the deck and it was like night or somethign , but it was realyl bright cuz or the moon or something and a saw a bunch of dolphings and it was awesome
andways so i go back in the cabin and the nixt time i come out we are waiting at a traffic light...
and i think to my self what the fuck and i look over the side to see if we have wheels or something and there arn;t... this is impossible i thin kto myself, but then i'm just like "ok"
and we continue on our merry way.

what is awesome on another intersting side note, there was a note that i had to read. and I read it. but i've heart that your aren;t suposed to read in dreams.
anyways i have to go and make like 10 decorations today ... byee

this is for you

I love you darling...

When you look at me I feel beautiful

because thats what I am in your eyes

The safest place I can imagine is in your arms

and the coolest breeze cannot withstand the warmth of your touch

an ambiance that i don't care to be without

You make me happy

when, for all of the day.

The weather in my life,
was a particular shade of gray.

each night i hold your heart in my hand
you tell me to sleep sweetly

and my dreams will be sweet...

they will be of you

shitty post

so i've went throught everone's posts, so i guess it;s my turn to write a new one. but it really won;t be very exciting.
sooo i guess i'm glad i left the party so early, no so glad at that darling spencer was sick. also not so glad that i had to be at work the next moring at 8.. then after leaving at 4 have to go back to work for a stupid staff meeting at 6:30. grr much anger. hmmm the i got to work yesterday on cash, which i haddn't done in forever. the day was soooooo long. then watching the best movies ever. blood gnomes rest stop and ... goules.. we fit soo many people into spencers tiny living room. crazyness. but i was uber tired so i , along with kaitlyn who is compleatly moved into my house now, camehome and went to bed.
had a crazy dream like i always do. and now i am up waiting for work at 11. sweet eh. i have to start doing the decorations for kids fest. it seems like i just have no time in the up comming weeks, i just hope my whole summer isn;t like that. i'm sure it won;t be but you know.

ok so who ever is comming camping, i will be a making a map before we go, and if you can;t come both days but can one day ... tell me cuz there are other people and i have to make a trip back to nanaimo anyways... so then you can get a ride to camping and not miss all the fun. ok ?

anywyas i have to go to work at 11, and i still need to shower get dressed and eat so... yea
sorry my post was shitty. if you want a good one read eryns... cuz it;s awesome like her

T minus two days ...

this is just for me..

i am beautiful
I have a wonderfully curvey body, with soft skin
I have soft hair
I smell good
I have cute feet
i smile lots
i am kind
careing
and generouse( probably too much so )
i believe in fairness and treat people thus
i am honest
i am creative
i keep things that people give to me, so that i can remember them
especailly from those people who i care for alot
i don;t hesitate to help people
i always offer to help people move, becuase i know that no- one likes to do it
I am content with the simple things
i do not need things to go my way all the time
i am a good listener
i can get the most " bang for my buck"
i am some times a nerd/loser( see above)
I love to give people gifts. especially for no reason.
i am forgiveing
i am good at painting and fastball
i make most of my own jewlery
sometimes the simplest thing can cheer me up, like a surprise flower, or a text message or a hug
i can comprimise
so what if i can;t spell worth a damn. that isn't how i roll
i have an excellent work ethic
i like to cheer people up
i am not a lucky person, but i buy scratch tickts anywas becuase they remind me of my granny
i am thankful for the things that people do for me. i hope you all know
i can french manicure my own nails and french braid my own hair
i love going to flea markets/ garage sales and finding unique items
i feel beautiful naked
i am responsible
i make amazing apple crisp
even though i don;t like lots of differnt foods i am actually a good cook.just not a very divers one
i have friends who are awesome
i am in love
and feel loved
and except for some little bumps i am very happy with me life. i am glad that i know the people i do. proud of myself for where i am , and what i have accomplished. i am excited for the future.

T minus three days ...

so i just looked in the mirror and realized i look absolutly aweful. i guess it fits. the last hitchhickers was tonight, just got home actually.( cuz i am lame and didn;t go out with everyone) anyways i'm glad we are done cuz it was fun to do, but am glad that i wll have those days back again. last class today as well. bothe where kinda just talking about the courses.*shrug*
my cat is cute and exploring
there are lots of things i could be doing right now but i really just don;t feel like it. so i think i will go to bed. i also have nothign interesting to say.
here is a picture. i like it

"is it all to much or just not enough"

i wonder sometimes if there is anyone in the world who has it all together. everything ya know. and then wonder if there is such a person , would i ever want to be it. just a thought
i have a lot of thoughts. i think most of them or ridiculouse or my mind just over reacitng. so i try to ignore them. other wise i get myself all worked up, and doing that is never a good thing. but i get these feeling/ intuitions and i'm like what the fuck is that all about. and i guess i come to some kind of conclusion which turns out to be .. well just silly.
" life is what happens when you're busy making other plans"
i was wondering on my drive home. which part of my life is life and which part is the making plans.i guess all the work and stuff is making plans and the just doing whatever is life, but then again i make plan.s....... ok .. i give up i'm just confussed and i know that i am probably getting this all wrong. i suppose life is just moments and the rest is all crap
i wonder... i wonder. there are so many things that effect other things.. and the slightest change can drastically effect the outcome. how much is enough and what is too much. no one really knows eh. you just gotta go with it and screw up some times to figure it out.
like how do you commit your summer to making/ saving money yet still have enought time/ sence to relax once and a while
how do you spend time with people enough so that you are close friends but not to much so that they are your only connections?
how do you show that someone that they are on your mind all the time, and that you love them more than anything, without smuthering and pushing them away.

there is so much uncertainty. the "how much" sometimes it just fills me with worry and doubt. it;s like playing a game almost. the strategy game of life... augh.

i just hear this song playing on the radio and i like it.it's all like mushy and stuff. here at just afew of my favorite lyrics cuz i don;t wanna have a huge post

"I don't know what I was thinking
'Til I was thinking of you"
"I don't know how I was living
Until you came in my life
I always knew there was something wrong
Then you came along
Baby, you made it right"

"I couldn't pick up the pieces
'Til I was falling apart
I didn't know I was bleeding
'Til your love fixed this hole, baby, here in my heart"

i guess thats enough.
p.s. i can;t wait to move out
p.p.s how much?

mmm mini eggs

sooo hows everyone doing, having a good easter yea? yea?... as for me *shrug* i had to work today 8-4... however it was so boring and dead that i got off an hour early. neato. and i am waiting around to hang out with people. duuud uud u.
so yesterday kaitlyn and i drove back from kylans and just kinda didnt; do alot. then she went to work and i spent like 50$ on some ...INVADER ZIM dvd's.... i had to...
and then i went to walmart to get pictures developed and some other things.. and i went to watch a knife demo and ended up buying knives... it was such a good deal though.. i got 3 big (foreversharp) knives.. 3 pairing knives, 2 juicer things, a pair of forever sharp scissors, and a filet knife for 28$... haha
then i come home and find out that my dad had an extra pairing knife and big knife from when he baught a set like that, that he was giving me... so o well .. now i have lots of sharp knives..
hmm then what..
rented and watched some movies with spencer
had a super awesome sleep which was sadly short due to the having to get up for work.
*tears*

ummmm i am excited for school to be over with, just so i don;t have to worry abotu going to class and having to do stuff


anyways i think i am done for now.. here is a list of people i think should update their blogs.
kailyn
martha
naaathan
it;s good thats its short. anyways...

LOVE