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music is an amazing thing. it can make you realize thing and change your mood and view and give you insipiration to do great things. i am compleatly lost when it comes to creating or knowing the "ways of music". but i appriciate it greatly.
it;s intersting to find somethign that just fits into your life. that explains it. somestimes you find the soundtrack to your life, and you realize that someone somewhere eles understands what you feel. you get the breif reasurrance that your not compleatly crazy. understand that i have no idea what i am talking about, there is just this thought in my head that makes compleate sence and it;s makeing me feel better. not that many people would care to know that i haven;t been feeling "better" as it where however, for now i have a little drive to i dunno, i guess look at me differntly.. that sounds so lame. i need to help myself before this goes to fari'm already scared of it...it;s like subconsiouse punishment or something. and i dunno how it got started.*shutter*
i cannot wait for school again. i need my family back.

"On this bed I lay, Losing everything, I can see my life
passing me by, Was it all too much, Or just not enough,
Wake me up, I'm living a nightmare
I will not die, I'll wait here for you"