"Too many guys think I'm a concept, or I complete them, or I'm gonna make them alive. But I'm just a fucked-up girl who's lookin' for my own peace of mind."
i was thinking about this... and it feels true to me. i'm not saying that i am the character who said this or anything. it;s just the idea that people.. i guess guys tend to think of me as this adorable novelty. at least thats how i see it. they seem to like me so much without even really knowing me. It gives the connection a hollow feeling. it makes me feel like a pet. and i am not a pet. i find that i flirt with the idea of someone and then i kinda push them away. or i tell them not to bother with me because i am too much trouble, and if they took off their rose glasses they would be able to see that i am pale and scarred just like everyone else. i'm not saying that is what i am currently doing. In fact i guess i enjoy my current attention however it seems like the same old situation when a boy looses all his senses. I'm tired of goofy eyes. i want a chase, i like a challenge. one day i will have someone thats makes me feel alive. i want to feel alive.
anyways, my thought of the mornin... time for work.
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