i have decided i am very particular about what i like certain things to be like. lots of things i don't care but others... for example, i love being touched. i like when people play with my hair or rub my back or feet. massages are awesome. but i don;t like being touched when i am trying to sleep i have found, it keeps it awake. i defiantly don;t like being touched when i am feeling ill or hung over because i am super sensitive to every feeling. i do like to be held. but not all the time. i like to be free. i have never really liked holding hand it makes me feel like i restrained and i can;t go anywhere on my own. however there have been exceptions... times when i am feeling connected or people that i feel comfortable with. when i feel trapped i tend to get really twitchy and have the insane urge to break free. hmm oh... hmm revilation... perhaps it;s not that i don;t like cuddling but i don;t like the expectation that i have to cuddle. i never like it when someone tells me i have to do something. i guess it is kinda the same except with gestures instead of words. i am such a strange person. i hate when people don;t listen to what you tell them. especially when you are just trying to help them. warn them perhaps of dangers to come. i hate being ignored. it used to happen to me alot.... thought nicely happens much less now. haha people dont cut me off as much anymore yay.. hahah . .
anyways. * large exasperated sigh* what is a girl to do , because yea.... and stuff and junk.. hahaha
i guess i better get dressed and junk.
loves
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