chaos sheer chaos

day two of 6 over. this red room thing is so very ridiculous. there is no organization what so ever. i will tell you all about it if i make it out alive. :p *sigh* at least i am getting payed. i am very tired. at least i don't have to worry about school. one exam, that is all .

i am listening to the songs that remind you of me. it makes me happy that you don't forget me.

i have a fantasy. a vision of my life down the road. it's seems to real. it's beautiful.
i was thinking earlier, i was knitting, ahaha and the thought occured to me that i am ment to be a mother. not now for certain. but you can see it in the way i act. hahah mama lisa right. i dunno. to be honest i cannot wait for that time to come. i know it will not be soon hahaha i would no be so foolish. years from now. it will be beautiful. a little girl perhaps. could you imagine me with a little girl. we would be the cutest pair. and in the fantasy of my life to come, she would be the ultimate joy of her father.nhahahah i am talking silly for this is indeed a fantasy. a beautiful dream. i might as well look to the future. when i will be truley happy next. who knows when that will be. i know it isn't now. right now i;m just lonley. i've dealt with the pain, now if only i could get rid of being lonley. i might as well look to the future, cuz is isn't going to be soon.

" Someone must have loved you ,Not the way that I do..."

4 more days of chaos. at least i'm getting payed.*sigh* so tired. at least i have the mornings off.
i wanna thank you guys for always comming over. it makes me happy.
i think it is time for lisa to go to bed now.
nightynight
"I don't know what it means, But I've been wondering, Who let you go? "