just let me start by saying fuck you life. you are a temping devil who wields uncertainty as her great sword. i am going ... hmm lets see kinda nuts at the moment. i have a week basically for find a place to live and i'm not doing so great. i started looking over two months ago and have had no luck in all that time. so what makes me think that in once week i will secure not only what i want, but what i actually need...
at the beginning of the week i was hopeful. i had found a house and got an immediate response to go and look at it. i have not heard back as of yet , which makes me very sad. not only was it affordable but it was quite nice.. and awesome. i suppose i still have a sliver of hope seeing as i do not have a confirmed no on renting it, but.... *sigh* i will phone again today and perhaps e-mail. at the very least i need to know i cannot have it.
today i messaged 3 more potential houses. some of which where just posted today. so here's hoping.
i don't know what it is. bad luck? fate? why is it that even thought we try so hard, even though possibilities are dangled in front of our face, why do we have no luck. sometimes it seems that we are soo close, but then it is taken away and we are father than ever, with less time and less hope.
in one week and 3 days i will be in victoria. i will miss my friends and life here. i am going forward into complete uncertainty which i hate with every part of me.
i am irritable and unhappy. i will not be happy until i find security. for not i am going fucking mad.
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Why are you moving to Vic again?!
I find that in life, persistence is key: the squeaky wheel gets the oil. What I mean is that when you're in contact with a potential place, just keep letting them know how interested you are. Push push push. Be annoying and get what you want.
just remember, you will not be homeless. there are options. it WILL work out.
i'm learning that acceptance is one of the best strategies for coping with bad shit. instead of fighting what appears to be a crappy situation, accept it so that you can keep moving on. a better way of saying it that i've heard is "you have to accept that you are stuck in the mud before you can get out. if you struggle and stomp your feet, you only get covered in more mud."
hope that helps even a little bit.
Times like these, you need a joint, some chill music and a daquiri. And some eye candy a la Colin Firth <3
Love you, just keep on keepin' on. Chill soon?
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