Monday, June 30, 2008

have fun sitting still on your high horse. I'm walking the fuck out of here.

there are so many little annoying things that you have to deal with as you grow older. blarg. it;s nothing really but i just kinda feel like i need an office or some kind of organizer to deal with all of them . haha. they are just little things that you never really think off. like ccalling and making appointments and stuff. "*shrug* i was just thinking.
yesterday i was suposed to have an inspection of my suit however the person never showed up soooo i have to do it today after work. which is balls.
you know what else is balls. getting fucked over for hours at work. for the next two weeks there are 3 of us and i am getting less hours than when there where 4. out of 15 days i work 6. and they are like 5 hour shifts... my pay cheques are going to be under 200$ , dont even say anythign about tips because half the time i make shitty tips. so what is there to do ? should i run out and find another job for two months. or stick it out, try and relax and maybe work on my own artistic endevours.
its a tough choice for me. on one side i need to work.. i need to be making money constantly. On the other hand i could do what i kinda have been wanting to do and try to sell my art. to this point i haven;t given myself enough time to do this, but as i get tired of the meaningless jobs that i have had i want to do it even more. so do i take a chance and give up some money saved and pursue some dreams?
and it's all fine and dandy to say yes... go get your dreams... but how plausible is that? i don;t wanna end up being idle. i hate to waste time, but.... i dunno.
one day i will be an artist. i just have to get started i guess

haha i've come to think that many jobs that i have worked end up not treating me like i deserve. i am a hard worker. the only thing i ask from a job is a some what flexable shedual. i give notice in advance. i guess that is too much to ask. i find that i feel unappreciated and then become bitter about working. 6 days out of 15. that is bullshit. but i guess the people who are getting this shifts need it more. because really they have nowhere else to go and i am gonna get the fuck out of there and make something of myself.

1 comment:

Let Go said...

Dude I sooo know what you mean about getting screwed by work. Hates it!
I'd say maybe look for a second job? But you always seem to busy so you may not even need to.
HOWEVER, I also think that you are financially stable enough to be able to take some time to work on your art. I don't think it's implausible at all considering how good you are at saving money. If all you did was like sit around and do nothing while wasting money that would be a different story. But you can so afford to do what you want to do. But more than that, you deserve to do something that you love!