August 1st.. already

where the fuck did the sumer go? in 5 days i will; be leaving for my trip. you know i used to love going away. traveling on air planes staying hotels. everything was so novel. i've realized i really don't like going away. i don't like missing my home , my friends , or the people i love.
every year imy moms side of the family has a reunion on the august long weekend. i used to love to go. to see my cousins, to enjoy the theme, to do the horse races. but now i just never want to go to it, and i mean i feel bad about not going to see my family... but i never remember who anyone is, or their names. they all pretty much live in victoria so they see each other all the time.
in2003, i went away and satyed the whole weekend, and all i wanted to do was come back. i was missing mine and jame's 1 year aniversary. my first real boy friend and i miss our anniversary.

i guess what i really mean by this is , right now the people that are most important in my life have changed. and while i love my family, i don't want to leave without those people.

in other news i still have a cat. the owners have not returned from where ever they are and i am worried about the other cat still in the appartment below us. i've given it a bit of food, which it seems to have eaten. but i wonder how long i should wait before we take measures to remove the cat. like i feel wrong about going into someone's place when they are not home, however what the fuck are they doing leaving two cats for so long with no one to take care of them. no one is. it 's heart breaking to hear the other cat meow, and feel so helpless.
aggggg.

if your not going to take care of your pets don;t fucking get them in the first place.

in 5 days i will miss you all
~lisa~