solitar

never was good at that stupid game... but perhaps i will become a hermit... i dunnno, i s my company t soo distasteful? je ne sais pas, i know that people are busy and stuff but i find it that when soemthing is going on i am never contacted. i supose that you could look at it from the angle of i never call anyone up , but i do fine it distastefull to invite myself to events.. that and i hate the phone. *cough* so what is one to do ta da become a hermit, if i am going to feel left out i might as well do it to myself and keep what dignity i have , perhaps there is nothing to be excluded from

now at this point i understand nicoles point of view. ya see i never quite understood how she could both want and hate the idea of " couple" . I COMPRIHEND . it has been so long scine i have not had someone to love or concentrate my affections on that i lost sight of this... compleat lonliness, it's not just the feeling along for a little while but knowthing that there is none to wash away all your troubles even if it is just for a short time. now let me explain , love is a funny thing as we all know and so when i am saying that there is no one .. friends and family in this case do not apply . it;s just the type of love, getting back to my first point looking at a couple, i am so over runn with jealousely that i can;t stand it and then i go on wanting what set couple has to releive me of this hate/ jealously... i just if it can be explain any more than that. but i don;t hink anyone reads this anyways