isn't it wonderful how randomly scatted my blogs are .. one hear.. one there... there just ins't enough time in my hecktic day to write on a silly web page.. though i do find it quite amusing... today .. started fine then got very worse.. then got a bit better... surprisingly at work... hahah it;s funny house taking people's money and puttingthings in bags can help to drown away your worries... though it more often than not creates stress and worries... especially with the fucking rude people... fuck to rude people they can kiss my ass. .. like serioously if yuou don;t like the line up dont; fuckin shop at walmart! time is money .. then you must spend time ..waiting in line... unless you are smart like me... muahah but shhh i won';t tell haha. it's ;like that wonderfull little quote dealy o...."the steps for succese... #1 don't tell eveything that you know... and #2 ......." hahah delightful..saw lots of peoplt oday at work .. mel and kenji. and nolan... grr nolan made me disgruntled today... like way to make me feel worse about myslef.. boy just don;t understand that girls have aliitle more emotion than them ... so here is how t went down . he asked how iow as... i said not good so he asked me to explain... so i did about how i am not likeing how i am a shamelss flirt... especially when i am drunk and how i fukced things over with a certain person . hahaha,. so he tells me to get over it and move on ... i agree... yet comment that things are harder to do when you feel alone... then the come bacl with the retort... lisa .. i haven;t had a girlfriend in year... get overit... and i am just stunded.. and in my mind i am thinking.. YOU FUCKING ASSHOLE.... it is not about having afuckn boyfriend. its about having soemone that i can depend on and go to for reaurance.. ahsn crap liek that ...like . friends kinda work ... but there is a different connection when you have soemone to really love... thats my problem .. i'm got to much god damn love and no one to give it to ... so here is me trying to love and its; leadind me into a pit of anguish ... what is one to do sit it out? thats seems like the onlything to do... but i supose i just don;t have any better ideas.... none that would work anyways
continuing... i am soo tired... last week with the play took alot out of me and now i am sick and stuff not so much fun but it turns out that i don;t have to work until friday ... thats a plus... perhaps i will get soem painting done anyways where was i .. oh yes tired lisa... i need soem time to myself... take a bath all that jazz... did i mention i am in dire need of an eye brow plucvking... well the thing is... i need to pluck my eye brows.. its like a fucks forrest... groose... i can hardly look at myself in the mirro.. and that is aost hard to belive aahaha cuz i like lookinga t myself... there is a bit of narsacisst in me ahah a. whats so bad about wanting to look good. :P anywho saw this nice vest thing today at work... think i might buy it ,. ahah oh dear i'm so shallow... so what if i like to buy material goods to make me happy... does the job at least for a while... oh got my english teacher would be apauled.... i so no sentances. or rather one very long sentanxce strung togehter with an astonishing amount of elipses... though i do have some nice vocabulary words...
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