unproductive

i hate it when i feel that way. funny how often i am unproductive though. sometimes i wonder why i am. it's like i have so much potential to do whatever i want. i could paint or read or whatever, any of the things that i always wish i had more time for. but i don't. i just sit around wasting time cuz i'm just not in the right mood.

Like right now. i have the whole night to my self, whether i want it or not, i have it. to do whatever i need or want. but i can tell already that i won't do anything. i feel kinda shitty and i'm probably just plain lazy. whats with me and this being sick, cuz i don;t have a cold. is it some weird flu? i don;t have a temperature but my head and neck hurt like crazy, and i'll just feel really crappy. i've had enough of it. I want to feel better.feel like myself, feel pretty. not feel like crap.

what an awesome depressing post. i guess on the bright side i have most of my proposal done and it had been pushed back until next monday.
but i also have 2 art projects that i am behind on and a bunch of other fun things that i get to do. so as it looks i will probably sit around for the next few days being unproductive, wasiting my time on the computer, till it's last minut and i have to get my act together.
Sweet, i can't wait