This is the time i should..

be reading a play. ..
be looking over my lines...
be researching for my essays....


but i'm not.cuz i just got up and it;s raining lots so i;m wrapped in a blanket. i love weather like this ...it;s got so much character. i dunno .

sooo ydesterday after class, i did a whole lot of nothing. i sat on the green room couch and was a big lazy blob.. then when i finally got my ass up to go to the library there was like no books for me to use. lame.

Woah i just rememberd some more of a fucked up dream that i had. i always have the most fucked up dreams. i wonder sometimes if that is why i am tired when i wake up. becuase generally i sleep for at least 8 hours. so whats thea dealy-o

hmm i really got nothing, but instead of doing somethign productive i will do these just like everone eles.


1. your so awesome. it;s really a shame that i never see you anymore. it always makes me happy when you sneak up or run at me and give me a hug.

2.i miss you , ya know. you and i have this weird relationship. it's this knowing what you want, but can never have. some times i think we deserve to forget about the rest of the world and just.. well i dunno waht we would be. if only things had been different, i could have loved you so much, yet i'm not sure what i feel for you now. maybe it;s some kind of love. w/e it is i cannot wait to see you next. my barnicle

3.i like you, though i suppose not some times. you are nice and smart and wonderful and sometimes i think i am threatened by it. but i wish i wasn;t and could just be your friend

4. you work so hard and are so wonderful andf sooo funny and i want everything to turn out for you. your so amazing. love

5.i hate to say it, but the last little while around you has been kinda akward. i know it isn;t my place to judge. i really hate how we are not as close. we where a pair and now, because of me mostly i feel like i'm missing something. sometimes i don;t think you are the same person. you probably are and just different circomestance and bringing out stuff...though i guess it isn;t that diffent just a little more extreame, or you are changing which is kinda good you could use one. anyweys i miss you, but things i have heard kinda made my stomach turn.

6.why do you aways have to be so difficult. we have talked, though together along time. you know what you. knwothis is not for you. why keep with it. i don;t understrand you. you say you should trust your feelings but you never do. i wish you could just be happy.

7. you are the one they want. i really like you and think you are awesome. so i understand why. i dont really know you but i wish that i did. i guess i am sad or jealouse or something, becuase i always seem to hear you name being called or said. and i realize is isn;t me that anyone wants

8.i like you, you are fun and crazy and alots of wonderful things, but i kind feel sorry for you sometimes. hwy do you do the things you do. i hate to say it but each time i see or here it, i lose a little respect. it;s nothing personal but it just kinda happens

9. what happend?! i miss the good old days when it was the three of us. i see you and we kinda hang out and you give me lots of hungs. but it is not near the fun we had before. we must go on an adventure.

10. i love you and i wish this could last forever. there are many things working against us such as time in out lives and the place that we are. you know what i think and it is true it will probably not change. for your piece of mine, this is for you. if i could do anything it would be not to hurt you, you better know that. i have been happier lately, it;s like before.. kinda. *shrug* anyways. you are hot stuff. and i like it when you show me how much you like me.*wink* i like the way we insult each other as long as it doesn;t go to far....fine

11.you are soo annoying.i want to beat you with a big smelly stick so that you know.

12. OMG your so hardcore and smart and fucking hillarious. if i do half the things you have done i will have lived a full life.

13. i'm glad we have gotten a bit closer this year. you are fun and nice and happy. i would like to do it more... hang out that is.. and maybe now that the play is over we can. i know i will see you around lots. but we should take and adventure somewhere. maybe on friday we cna have a tlak again .

14. your so od but i guess that makes you do. i can see that we have alot im common, which is kinda od scary yet assuring. even though we are very aike i know im different. my life willl be more interesting than yours and that will change me alot. io'm glad that you are you though, even if you talk to the cat.

15. ew creepy creepy creepy. give it up . i cannot belive you talked to him about me. it would be nice if i never saw you again.



yea thats it. nobody hate me if i said somethign you don;t like. though i don;t think i did. but yea. i guess i will get up and go to school . au revoir