survey i found on barbs blog

1.What Time is it now? 6:06pm

2.What is your name? lisa kathryn vezina

3.Single or taken?single
4.What does your name mean? oath of god... or something

5.Who picked out your name? My rents... both i think i dunno

6.What's your nickname? pink, millie

7.How old are you? 18 almost 19 woot

8.What colour are your eyes? blue grey ,, sometimes greenish

9.What size are your shoes? 7

10.How tall (or short) are you?: 5'4"

11.Honestly what do you like about yourself? My eyes, my hairis soft, my pinky on my right hand( its my cutest) my shoulders and back

12.Do you think you're cute? yes .. generally

13.Hair colour? spicy red

14.How many ppl sent u this?no one.,, twas on barbs blog

15.Do you wear contacts? Nope

16. Favourite Drink? raspberry juice

17. Favourite alcoholic drink? rum and coke, strawberry daquiries... kaluha milkshakes

18. Favourite Month? july august. they are warm

19.Favourite Food? hmmm chicken strips?

20. Favourite thing you are good at? painting...well i think i am good at it
21. Favourite Clothing Brand? n/a

22. Favourite day of the Year? the first day of summer when it is hot enough to wear just my bathing suit and a serong

23.Favourite colour? navy blue and lime green ..

24: Favorite Animal? Cats

25: Do you steal for fun? ummm dumb things like spoons or pins off pants...i'd say it;s more of an addictions... or somethign ..

26. Are your parents still together? yea

27. Do you talk to your parents or your friends more? Friends

28. Anything special about your parents? my dad is smart.. and funny. haha my mom is kinda nuts... but creative

29. Whats the worst thing you've done to blow someone off? run away

30. You're slutty? nope ,,,

31. You're Mean? Yes, sometimes

32. You like someone: umm yea kinda

33. You can keep secrets: yes

37. You've seriously hurt someone? Yes.

38. You've been hurt seriously?yes

39. You swear? all the time

40. You get your way? i guess so generally.

41. You're willing to try new things? in some instances but gernally no .. i'm bad with new things

42. You've cheated on a test? probably but i can;t think of anythign major ,,, oh ahaha laura and i alwaysused to cheat on french spelling tests.. yea french

43. What are you wearing? jeans.. nin shirt.. white hooddie... CHICKEN SLIPPERSomg

44. What colour is your underwear? black lace

45. What are you listening to? the news in the other rooms

46. How are you feeling? excited, angry. frustrated, impaitent , ignored, thirtsy

48. What are you eating? Nothing.

49. How many people are online? i'm ot lazy to count.. more than 10

51. What books are you reading? guide to getting it on, six characters in search of an author, the cout of monte cristo

FOR GIRLS

52. How many lip glosses do you have? 2

55. Thong or regular panties? thong

56. Tall or short boys? a little taller than me

57. Blonde or brunette guys? Dark hair

58. Boxers showing? not so much

59. Long hair or short on boys? depends on the person, long and short ..touche

60. What do you find annoying? when people don't listen to what i am saying... to assume that becuase i am a girl i am girly... theni have to beat them up . muahaha... or when people go farther then they need to go .. and once again face my wrath
BOYS

62. What kind of deodorant do you use? soft and dry

63. Whats in your pockets? chap stick

64. Boxers or briefs?

65. Blonde or brunette girls? hmmm well pam seducded me into comming in the hot tub so blond

66. Tall or short girls?

67. Piercings on girls?
68. Long or short hair on girls? longish

69. Good or bad girl? good girl who does bad things

70. What do you find annoying in girls? the talking be hind backness and ridiculouse emotions

71. What's the first thing you notice about girl?

OTHER QUESTIONS

72: What was the last movie you saw? Harry Potter

73. What did you have for dinner? hamburger.

74. What are you hoping for? calm, happiness... moer snow

75. What movie do you really want to see?i dunno

76. Where is your favourite place to travel? to victoria with ashmo

78. What was the last thing you ate? hamburger

79. If you were a crayon what colour would you be? spank me pink(thats how i got my superhero name

80. Who was the last person you talked to on the phone? spencer

81. Do you like the person that sent this to you? I sort of stole it from barb .

83. Ever had a crush on a teacher? ewww

84. Are you too shy to ask someone out? nope

85. Scary movies or happy ending? Happy.then i can clap about it

86. Summer or winter? summmer...it;s warm

87. Chocolate or vanilla? Vanilla

88. Do you want your friends to write back? shmea

89. Who is most likely to respond?shrug

90. Who is least likely to respond? See above.

91. What did you do last night? :last night i worked on my essay ... and then went to bed .. sweet eh

le snow

today was weird, felt randomly sick during acting.. my eating habits are all out of wack, i assume that is the culprit. as the title of my blog states it is snowing. if the snow sticks there is a grand chance i don;t have school tomorrow. which would be kewl. then maybe i'll stay in my pj's all day and watch movies and sleep in .. hehe. yay. but i mussent get my hopes up.. less than a week of school left .. yikes! started working on my research essay today , just taking soem notes.. but then i got distracted and re aranged my room to how i think i want it when everything is all done. apparent;y i will be lucky if my dresser is done by the before the trip... augh. lame.. anyways.. less than a month till that,, kewl. umm lalalalal.
i dunno what to say the last little while has been interesting/ exausting, lisa's brain hurts and is now taking a vacation. lala kylans party was super fun. naked hot tubbers...not me.. but people, the jello shooters went over great. taboo in the morning. woot. having a fist fight with mike.. nothing like getting your frustrations out in a frienly brawl. hahaha . to bad i lost : ( .. look i am even admiting it that i lost... arn't all ( and by all i mean the few peole who read this) of you proud of me. hahah anyways... enough of that

probably gonna go to improve on wed just to watch.. i had a great itme watchin in class today.. . got rehearsal that day to so i;ll be at the theatre all day .. :P .. o wll... i am the green room cleaner this week.. and i will be soo bloody clean muahahah.
anyways.. augh i have to think of a secret santa gift for my person fro friday ,,, augh it;s hard cuz i don;t particularially like my person .. so even though i could so something uber kewl,, i am not certain iwill put as much effort ito it as i could.. o well ... it will probably still be somethign neat. this operson is eazy to please. hahah

anyways thats all i have to say ..au revoir .

AHHHHHHHHHHHH

it;a like i can;t win, try to do something right and it hurts someone, do nothing i hurt myself. what can i do i just dunno anymore.. i am out of ideas. FUCK. all i see is me failing to make you happy. i hate life. i'm so tired i just wanna give up

" your a wreck and accident , forget the freak , your just nature"

AAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
i can;t do anything right... i hate life.
it hurts to much to make sence

whats with today?: today ?

sooo just to answer to question of why i am the biggest nerd in the world... nick and I make a bunch of weapons for our Dnd game.. there the secret is out.....

anyways today got up nice and ... kinda earliey ish .. to finish my theatre history essay.. i finished it to my sadisfaction... i've written better essays but hopefully eliza will like it my neck is ridiculously sore todya .. i think it is formwhen i hit my head on the flood yesterday. i am so clumbsy. today i tripped down the stair and twisted my anckle. kylan and chirs just laughed at me... michelle was concerned... thank you michelle.. hehe . then ashley and jordan arrived and we all watched battel royal.. it;s a very messed up movie from japan.. it was ok though . apparently there is a second one we have to watch. then we all went to meet up with everyone eles at the hong kong house becuase it was sara rob's birhtday today .. it was fun until everone left to go to the bar...tear i was 1 of 3 that was underaged... 3 and a 1/2 more months .. thats it.. muahaha... anyways it was fun , we had some good conversations. i love taking and eating... well not at the same time.. but there are always interesting conversations. then i came home and wathed soem tv.. OMG TV,,, what is that... haha 2 hours of tv.. i think that is more than i watched all last week hahaha.. w/e. lalal

now i am off to read a play. it;s a good thing it isn;t long . hahaha.
p,s. oh yea i got my new bed .. yay .. new bed.. heheh

Officially the biggest nerd ever

haha so i can;t devulge why yet, cuz it's a surprise.. but due to recent event i am the biggest nerd ever

thank you

posty posty

tis friday morn.. and it's been a week of a week...( know that doesn;t make sence) got two projects done.. have 2 miore to do. lets see what hs been neat the pastlittle while. in acting this week leon came in and thaugh us stage combat, he is sooo funny. haha wed we used "swords" which was neat but i thought less entertaining. in stage craft we have been learning about light, i find it very intersting... hehe and yesterday we got to hand lights... it was neat... thats what i have wanted to learn about.. yay.. i can be a well rounded techie. umm OMG i baught fluffy chicken slippers!!! they are sooo kewl and i love them... love love love. don't know what i shall be up to for most of the day ..but mightgo to dover and see if they need help with set stuff... ouch .. it actaully hurt when linda and mr A told spencer to say that he made better marble than me... isn;t that silly. it;s not like it;s his fault, he;s being such a good little techie and doing so much .but seriously blow to my ego. i mean thats not fair ... it;s harder to make bigger salabs....*defeated sigh* anyways i am somewhat not wanting to go and help because i know i will hear about it...

anyways...like last sunday my mom decided that she is going to changemy room which is fine... it;s gonna be like this goldish color on the walls and i will have black wraught (spelling?) iron assecories and a bed.. and a black curtain thing.. and a black dresser and possibly a book shellf... well i want one anyways... but it;s not done.. 3 of my walls are kinda painted and everythign in my roomis pushed into the centre... lame lisa has no room .. can;t find anythign... for some reason though my cat has taken a likeing to sleeping on my bed... whenever i go to go to bed . she is there. and in the moring around 8ish .. i hear meow... and then i meow back.. and she comes and sleeps with me.... i do love it when she comes but bloddy helll.. she takes up alot of the bed for such a tint creature... . o wel

i've decided that i am taking this weekend off.. i'm gonna do what i want.
hahaha hopefully some D and d on sunday .. yea i know i'm a nerd.

oh yeah last night, went to that preview show of how i learned to drive... with chirs , jordan geoff, ashley and me.... haha :P and then we went to MGM... it was we talked alot ( well i mostly sat and listened) and sang to weird songs that we didnt; know why we knew the lyrics. haha i like going out with people.

it angers me that my blankets fall off my bed.. i need to sleep near a wall....

yea i think that is it .. toodles

if you gaze too long into the abyss, the abyss will gaze into you

woke up today feeling very crappy.. this feeling continued throughout the day with a breif subsidement during acting in which we did soem stage combat and in english in which we watched a movie. unfortunatly it has come back. i hate being grumpy and i am finding it a more often occurence these past few weeks. i am rememinded of a play that was created in the 24 play writting dealyo.. where this one woman was continually given these tasks that she lost it. my situaion is not entirly the same. i think i made my own tasks.. or make them worse by procrastinating... i feel as though many people are wanting my attention at the same time and i can;t give it to them. no matter how hard i try what i give is not enough. the woman in the play was told to let go and just live. but how?
on my way home today i had a realization... mr A once told me that when he had lots to do he would get sleepy.. it was his bodys way of telling him he couldn;t handle it. is that why i am always tired? who knows... it;s probably just that i don;t eat enough healthy foods... this being becuase i am never home .. food on the run. as of right now i should be doing my theatre history oral assignemt. i do not forsee it to take much time though. and i do feel the need to get things out of my head, there are soo many muddled thoughs in my head i don;t know what i believe, or want anymore. all i want is to be happy, but i am to concerned about other people's feelings to be worried about my own. kinda getting back to that play. how can i just give up when everyone eles is counting on me. or am i just making myself into something.
I often wonder if things in my head are they same as in real life. ok so i think that i am working hard at somethign is that really the case?.. do these people really think about my waht i think they do? i think that i am an amazing person... most of the time... but am i actaully. sometime i feel as though people are just stringing me along. patting my head and saying " good lisa" i guess i am actually cynical... as kylan so often tells me.
it;s funny how we beguin to belive what we hear. i supose thats the beauty of conditioning... how do you teach a dog tricks...? do it again rover ... good dog. more and more i realalize how i am affected by what i hear. sadly it comes from my own lips... i think i am a bad person becuase of the emotional harm that i enflict on others. i think perhaps i feel bad about my actions so to cover my own ass i say mean things about myself.. as if to justify my actions... i am sure this sounds like a mindless drabble of self pity, but these are the actual thoughs that pass through my mind... it isn;t all blank you know.
i guess it all comes back to worrieing about other people more than myself. i think i am strong therefor i can cope... but *whisper* i'm really just lieing to myself , fuck i don;t even know waht i am saying anymore.

i'd like to apologize to anyone who thought to read the whole of this. i'm not trying to compain, i just need to relese my mind somewhere.



p.s. i painted something beautiful
http://www.deviantart.com/deviation/25207217/

10:17

yes so i got soem free time, so i might as well update. not much is new. the crucible is finally over. live will resurme as normal.the cast party was .. interseting. stayed up till 6 , which is the longest i have in a while. next day i played some D&D. i know i know i'm a big nerd , hahaha but it;s fun ok give me a break. then i dyed my hair.. woot woot.. well before that spencer made me dinner which was nice. random acts of kindness are always wonderful. umm monday was my first night with nothing.. so i did some SM work.. got my scripts together. yup.... umm yesterday ... in stage craft i cleaned the loading bay.... hahah wow you know you havenothing to talk about when you talk about cleaning up ... lame.. watched othello after school and then went and saw... saw2... too gorey for lisa.. i think i am getting more girlly sissy typeish.... i dunno. and today tehre are one act auditions... we shall see who the fetuses are ... woot... *twirls finger* bahh . thats it

p.s. ash mo , we will hang out soon... maybe this weekend?

ONE MORE

FUCKING SHOW YAYYYYYY. i hate the crucible.... with a fiery passion.. this morning i could not sleep in beucase i woke and had crucilve line stuck in my head.. aaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhh... tongiht after the show we are doing strike and then the cast party. i am dying kylans hair pink. before the show is underwear warm up... yes it is what is sounds to be... it;s tradition.*shrug*... ummm this after noon a bunch of us are bonding and going to a movie.. neato .. tomorrow i'm watching another othello with chris and michelle... and hoppefully doing somethign with spencer and then going out for coffee with dawn to discuss our day trips for the cruise... neato eh ... presently i am waiting for my hired help to come( haha kylan) so that he have help me put my evil plans into motiotion... p.s. they invole duct tape.. muahahah a.

umm oh tomorrow i will by dying my hair back to it;s brillian .. "spicy red"
eww i have 2 research papers due next week ... eep and then another one soon after... the crucible is almost over thought.

i fucking hate the crucible. ...