Dec, 1st

first day of december today. not to long till my trip. umm i dont think my theatre history teacher likes me... or at least i know she doesn;t like my writting style. umm thats ok i don;t like her. haha umm watched never swim alone again today .. it was better the second time. it was weird i was watching the door to make sure no one came in . and i was just lying down on the top step and i streched. and it was so peaceful. it was dark there where people around by they wheren;t paying any attention to me. it was nice just fading into my own little world. i dunno
stage craft was fun more drafting. it started to snow. i like snow.. when i walk around in it and i am all bundled up with my hair down , i feel pretty. cuz it;s like a dream.... anyways.. then i watched my cousin joey's documentary on crystal meth. it was pretty good.

now i am home and going to try and do some more work on my english essay. i want to get it lots done so i can help paint the back drop for cinderella on sat. i hope if i can circomstances will be more friendly. somehow i've managed to screw things up royaly, but i hope that things will right themselves in time.. and i'm sure they will, ust need some time.i'd hate to loose such a good friend. things will not be like they where, but differnt is better than nothing and i hope he understands.once we stop feeling sorry for ourselves, and being frusterated or angery at one another things will work out. i'm sure you probably don;t see things the way i do, but these are just the thoughts going through my head. I am still inside here A little bit comes bleeding through I wish this could have been any other way But I just don't know what else I can do.
and now lisa is getting to her english. whoo hoo the hightlight of my day