It;s been a while

but the past week sure way busy. NIN was amazing they played for and hour and a half and i was loosing my voice from screaming so much. i *heart* nin. they played so many good songs to .. umm ebfore the concert soencer and i excpored a bit of van.. we went to metro town and i was bblown away fby all the stores.. then we took the bus and met a big group of other nin fans. then we got denied our room at the hotel we booked becuase neither of us is 19.. fucking lame.. but it';s ok we had a back up..
next day we had to get up early.. lame. so we could get bacl and i could go to stage craft... yay more word learning. tuesday was along day .. cuz after schooll michelle and i did our tech for our moviement peices and then me and kylan and jeff went to get food and stuff. then 3 hours rehearsal.. ouch..
next day kinda the same thing in acting we performed out movemnet peices... lots of people though ours was sweet... yay .., they liked my coreographing even though i don;t know how to dance... haha i geuss i can move still.. * insert lisa moving* except kylan and i got A&W .. yum ymu ... hen equally long boring rehearsal.. oh but we did fin out our part... i got the shittyest one in the play.. i am only on the stage for like 3 min maybe.. lame.. aso i am probably gonna drop it and go do techie work for the dover haunted house and musical .. linda said i could design the back drop!!!!
anyways thuesday had to go to rehearsal again .... gggggrrr beause i was in act 4 i had to go ... lame i maybe did soemone for 20 min.. then sat for the rest .. at least i got soem knitting done..but ew sitting for 2 and a half hours.... went to chris's after and tried to watch " all the great books abridged" but i was tooo tired.
friday went to dover.. finally got my play burned on to a dvd. no now i just need to get soem "Pictures" of it for my portfolo ... met up with kylan, we watched my play then the scarlette pimpernel then baked a cake.. then i showed him my scrap books while i got ready.... to while.. I wanted to look nice!!!! danmit ... anyways.. we went to moxies for dinner cuz it was spencers birthday... ( people present.... rick , robyn. nick , glenn, triin,. kylan, spencer. me cora....) i ordered chicken stripps.!!! then we went to the show. it was good, except by the end i got really tired and not so much into it... but it was ok still spencer held me up... thank you :) .... after the show we went to erins... well first i had to stop by my house adn get more slutty... apparentyit was the theme of the party. anyways. spencer got really drunk and it was funny. ahahah cuz he is cheap... nick also got drunk which was also pretty funny cuz haha well it; nick... and boy.. i never saw him smile soo much . hahah i also go tkinda drunkish . which was fun.. ahah don't worry everyone adam was there to give us all a ride. hahah it was nicks flaut.. silly nicky, then at spencer we where tryin to get nick to bed. and he ws funny haha i dunno; anways .. friday was a fun filled day
satureday was lame... felt kinda hung over but what was really lame about the day was that i had to play slowepitch with my crappy team... *sigh* waste of time.. but i did get a tripple.. man i smoked that ball .. then went to spencers watched movies with people and ate pizza( me nick triin, robyn glenn adam spencer... ) ahah we read soem of this " how to get iton book" that adam got spencer for his b-day . hahah itwas very amusing.. it;s a very think book. hahahah
and today *sigh* an end to the shinanigans.. i have to write and essay.. which actaulyl shouldn;t be to hard. but yea.

things i need to do some time.. possible soon
- get new glasses .. i have lost my other ones..
- update my portfolio
- read spencers new book hahaha it never hurts to be enlightened
- do laundry... i'll probably do that today
- paint somethign new
- extract myself from the crucible without causeing a ruckus
- draw megan a happy picture

i think thats all ...

p.s. i was so moved when i got 5 comments form people. it made me feel special *heart* you all

TODAYTODAYTODAY

OMG fuken going to see NIN TODAY... THIS POST DESERVES TO BE IN CAPITALS... I AM SOO EXCITED. AHHH I DON;T EVEN KNOW WHAT TO SAY .. I I I I I ... SOOOOO STOKED. I JUT HOPE I DON';T GET STOLEN AND RAPED AND SOLD IN VACOUVER.. AHHHHH I HOPE YOU GUYS TRY AND BUY ME FROM THE BLACK MARKET IF THAT HAPPENDS.. I JUST .. AHHHH YAY



OMGOMGOMGOGMOGOGM... CAN YOU TELL THAT I AM EXCITED???
lOVE AND KISSES ~LISA~

2 days

until NIN that is... haha ok so tonight was nolan's birthday at tidys. that was pretty fun though i feel kinda sick now... i don;t know if it was themixing for 4 differnt types of alcohole that did it or those grose pizza things that i attempted to try again. i thought maybe they would be better in the oven... lets say i was wrong and i hope inever eat them again. ahaha it's so weird whenever i have something to drink , when i go to bed after i always have these dreams about still being at the party and then seeing more people show up that have no relevace to anythign going on ... like as iw as seeling earlier .. amber from my program walked in.. and then jordan d...i wonder who will be next???? anyways before the escapades of tonight i went to school(dover) and worked on my DVD version on deliver us not... then went to the mal and met up with michelle , chric and kylan. from my program. we hung around the mall then went down to value villiage. i aught a white dress with gree polka dots on it.. sweet eh.. anyways i'm kinda tired so i will go.. woot 2 days

hi Kids

soooo, i am waiting. .. i hate waiting. tonight we are going to be nerding it up playing board game... i don;t really feel like playing them.*sigh* spencer is suposed to be comming over to play.. i hope he remembers.. i also hope he had abetter day today ..
hmm waht is new.. went for coffee with nicole on tuesday.. and then later on we all went out to see charlie and the chocoalte factory... cuz it was amber's birthday ( she is in my program) umm lets see.. me chris. jordan . jeff. amber. michelle and kaitlyn went . after the movie we went to fast eddie. it was fun yay for getting to know people better. i've decided that michells and chris are my favorite people in the program . haha we stayed at fasst eddies past close cus we are silly and slow.. then we hung out , oustide for like at least 1/2 hour.. man where we kewl. haha group thurst.... then i braught chris home and made him watch moulin rouge. cuz he had not seen it.. that boy needs soem serious movie education
dududu
NIN in 11 DAYS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! OMG ... hehe

twidling thumbs

so i am just sitting here waiting trying to get a hold of spencer... but i suspect andrea is on the phone which is lame. just been reading soem blogs and art and shat. i dunno .. suposed to hang at tidys today have some cinniman .. umm .. drink.... haha
so classes where good. omg some are sooo boring though... well i guess all of them have been so far but hopefully once we get into them they will be alot more funn. i am most excited for stage craft. augh my arms hurt and i don;t know why. lame ... hmmm... haha we had out theatre mixer last night.. that was pretty fun.. woul have been better if i was drinking with everyone eles:P o well . haha then after chris and i went and sat on the beach and there was lightening and it was behind the clouds and it look "sooooo beautiful" haha.
today i went to dover.. it;s weird going back and everyoine is like hey... and you feel kinda speical .. i dunno. it was neat decided that while i have timei should go to stage craft on wednesdays and fridays. haha and help out with musical theatre when i can.. i have time i might as welll be as involved in whatever theatre i can... i dunno how difficult my classes are going to get or what.. so i dunno,. but i hope i will be able to keep it up.
augh i am annoyed that i cannot get a hold of spencer :P:P:P:P lame... i will trya gain... 5th time....
ring ...ringggggg. ringggggg.... rin.... ringggggggggggg " you have reached 756..." nope no answer...
spencer says" yea just call my house i will be home..." mmmmhmmm well even if you are home darling i can get a hold of you... *annoyance *.... pause.


5-10 min later...call 6

dududu wastingh time eation rockets. yum yum yum...guess i will clean the comp room.... well thats done... took a whoel 4 min ... dudidid o well
shouldi try calling again... is there any point... i have hope i will try again

short blog

this is a short blog... size doesn;t matter you guys. it is 147 and i have to be at school at 10 30 ... rightnow i am doing laurndry . so i don;t look grubby on my first day of school. yay..school... damnit i forgot me book ... o well.
anyways for any of you that care i offically quit the walmart today. handed in my badge and dicount card( tear no more discount) and lame vest... on another note. i baught some socks new shoes and pants for school.. the pants are very very long... i don;t know what to do with them yet.* shrug*... yay theatre history then stage craft tomorrow... augh so i lost my glasses and i will probablty need soem.. so i should get some new ones... new frames i think... hmm i don;t have much to say. ace and i had a spa night tonight.. i waxed his feet and .veeted my legs( wow that stuff stinks) and we did foot soaks and facials... then i painted our nails and we watched horatio hornblower... he is so hard core.. umm i've decided that all my jobs from here on in should be related to theatre or back stage work.*shrug* it's more of a dream really..
anwyas i will go get my stuff ready for tomorrow so that i can sleep in later... *excellent* thought it will probalbly get up early from excitment toodles

for kate

la dida di da.. it is sunday 2 days till school. yay i am excited ahaha i wrote my shedual all kewl in my sketch book and did this sweet picture of a lily in the water and it;s reflection. also i did some sittign around. umm lets see what eles is new.. i finished the painting greg comissioned me for ... if you would liek to see it goooo. here...
http://www.deviantart.com/deviation/22485822/
ummm yea other than just kinda hanging out adn watchign movies not mcuh has happened... hmm i went to see a show on thursady .. kincaid played.. it was pretty fun. just hung around outside most of the night ehhe.. augh but i got like elbowed in the back in teh mosh pit and it hurt for a while.but hey ya take your chances... umm oh going bacl afeew more days i got my car sterio installed.. yay it is neat and hip and kewl;..
oooOOo ok so i have wanted to quit for like ever right cuz i hate the mart. so i got up today and made myself a little resignation letter and was all ready to hand it in today and like and hour or two ago my supervisor calls to see what is the deal with me, working and such ... cuz i was taking time off. anways and i told him that i was going to hand in my resignation today ... so that kinda confirmed it... now i have to .. no backing out.. yes... haha haven;t told my rents yet... i'll let them find out later. hahaha ... my mom is gonna be so pisses but watch me give a damn. hahah apparently i am pretty enough to be a waitress at the cactus club *shrug* thats what ace says anyways.. and i shouldn;t become a dish washer.whatever.. hmm of yea last night i went swimming with ace and lee and sarah.. then we played dance dance revolution.. or soemthign liek that.. it was so h-core I am soooo not good at it.. hahah oh and like the day before that.. i baught a 4 pound bag of rocket candies.. muahaaha. omg i love them .. i pretty much garantee i will go through them and buy another bag before haloween.
isn"t it disgusting how soon they put holliday stuff out. o wel

hmm ok i think that is all .. haha perhaps iw ill fill you in later on the walmart situation .. my gloriouse exit.. i dunno hahah a

more boring posts about me :P haha

Your Power Color Is Gold

At Your Highest: You are engrossed in passions that mentally stimulate you. At Your Lowest: You seek thrills and neglect what's important in your life. In Love: You see dating as adventure and approach it with an open attitude. How You're Attractive: You passion for life makes others passionate about you. Your Eternal Question: "Am I Having Fun?"

What's Your Power Color?

found on cora's blog

So yea i am bored and was reading people's stuff i found this on cora;s blog and thought i was intersting enough to share... do you think it is me ?

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free.

In love, you feel the most alive when things are straight-forward, and you're told that you're loved.

You'd like to your lover to think you are stylish and alluring.

You would be forced to break up with someone who was emotional, moody, and difficult to please.

Your ideal relationship is comforting. You crave a relationship where you always feel warmth and love.

Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.

You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred.

In this moment, you think of love as something you can get or discard anytime. You're feeling self centered.

What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

sunday august 28th ... a day not as exciting as any other

... if that makes sence at all .. i dunno well at the moment it is not exciting becuase all i have done in gone to staples to look at printers... we are gonna get a kewl on with a scanner.. neat eh.. umm and then we went to A&B sound and looked at car sterio's ... got one ., it;s looks neat.. umm gonna get it installed on tuesday at 10 30 .. it will take an hour so if anyone wants to come and hang out with me for a while down town on tuesday morning please tell me . i would love to have some complany maybe we can go for coffee or a stoll down on the waterfront... dony all rush at once... please people one at a time one at a time... first come first served.... i'm here all week
so yea no i am updating becuase of several requests.... i was away camping give me a break... ahh yes camping... that was an ... interesting time. enojyable i guess.. excelt for the bad moods and hostilitly and pesterding... i went with josh , caitlin, kyle, ben and mike. caitlin was pissy most of the time.. which seemed to agrivate josh which made it akward for the rest of us. umm kyle ben and mike declaired me team leader.. basically i was a scape goat if anythign went wrong and a desicion maker when they couldn;t decide.... they insisted i was power hungery.. but they are silly boys.... umm i taugh them how to play canasta... it was ok .. difficult and painful.. but once they got it we were fine.. play for so long one of the days. last day we had a big game with all of us.. it was sooo painful... mike and ben kept cheeting which i could handle except caitlin woudl get all pissy at then and argu and complain..... needless to say i was not impressed by her attitue the whole trip. went swimming lots and fishing with glow sticks... we caught soem tree;s... i think josh liked his present.. i shall have to ask him

other than camping... hmm what is new.. hahaha spencer got his hair cut and it is really short... hehe... nick is suposed to be comming back from his fishing escapades some time this week.... i made 14.75 at a garage sale we had yesterday ... tonight i am going to see " A my name is alice " with nicole and her mother....
umm i sent out my stories to a bunch of people ... hopefully they liked them.. if you did not recieve them ask and i shall give.... i am uber excited about school this fall..i keep asking ace questions an i am sure he must be sick of my asking by now. but still uber excited...gonna get my books tomorrow hopefully...then i can look through them and get even more excited.. apparently there are only going to be 30 people in the whole program ... thats not so many.. and out of 17 first years they are like all boys... * wink wink * hahahah umm i need to clean my room... but not today ... getting my car sterio installed tuesday but you already know that ... and hey does anyone know when we are suposed to go and pick up our year books... i really want mine...
anyways i hope that this satifies you post hungry few... and please if you knowwhen we are to get out year books... tell me *wink* *heart* ~lisa ~

New And Improved

so i was reading other people's blogs and they looked so neat soi deciede to update my look. it's just like getting a new outfit... right spencer. hahahah not so much is new... haha i just thought i would mention my new style.. justincase you didn;t notice
oh last night i played toss and giggle( slow pitch ) haha it was pretty fun. i got a tripple. ahaha show those guys to movie in on me.. haha.. i guess i am kidna playing with that team now.. it's kewl theya re all really nice people. i wonder how much i will get to play with school though ... hmm better go do the laundry so i have soem clothes....
pfft... not that i';m sayingi need to wear clothes. ahah who needs em . ahah .. umm ahh ... nevermind.. haha

balancing boys

haha i thought it was an interesting title... but seriously.. thats what it feels like i am doing... man and i'm not even romantically involved with em .. so here is my ahh... spencer wanted to hang out at like 10 tonigh when he gets back form his party.. josh left me a message saying we could hang out tonight after like 8:30 and that he was gonna call me tomorrow... but ace also called me today and we are going to a movie tomorrow night.. but that should be find because he works in the day and we will go to a movie at night ... so i can hang out with josh in the day time.. but tonight if josh still wants after soccer i will probably end up going over to viste for a while then go see spencer at 10 30 ish.. we have to watch a movie that i baught on a whim..... i should never buy anything on a whim.... i seem to loose lots of my money that way ... or going out for food.... i like food, haha
omg .. ok so it;s my dad;s birthday today. and my mom made a turkey ( it was in the freezer and i said she should cook it beacuse ,,, well i love turkey sandwitches.....) anyways... .i baught him sincity for his b-day .,,, such and amazing movie... lovelove love it... we are going to wath it now acutally .. heheh yay it;s so visually stuning.. anywyas.. i'm excited atm .. i guess i like seeing all my guy friends.. but another thing i am stoked about is giving josh his birthday gift... hehe it is so kewl . i hope he likes it.. so much work though... anyways i'm off for now.. byeeeeeeeeeee

wasting time

Have you ever.

( ) smoked a cigarette
( ) crashed a friend's car
( ) stolen a car
(x) been in love
(x) been dumped
( ) shoplifted
( ) been fired
( ) been in a fist fight
( ) snuck out of your parent's house
(X) had feelings for someone who didnt have them back
( ) been arrested
( ) gone on a blind date
(X) lied to a friend
(X) skipped school
( ) seen someone die
( ) had a crush on one of your internet friends
(X) been to Canada
( ) been to Mexico
(X) been on a plane
( ) purposely set a part of yourself on fire
( ) eaten Sushi
(X) been skiing
(x) met someone in person from the internet
(X) taken painkillers
(X) love someone or miss someone right now
(X) laid on your back and watched cloud shapes go by
(X) made a snow angel
(X) had a tea party
(X) flown a kite
(X) built a sand castle
(X) gone puddle jumping
(X) played dress up
(X) jumped into a pile of leaves
(X) gone sledding
( ) cheated while playing a game
(X) been lonely
( ) fallen asleep at work/school
( ) used a fake id
(X) watched the sun set
(X) felt an earthquake
(X) touched a snake
(X) slept beneath the stars
(X) been tickled
( ) been robbed
(X) been misunderstood
( ) petted a reindeer/goat
(X) won a contest
( ) run a red light
( ) been suspended from school
( ) been in a car crash
(x ) had braces
( ) eaten a whole pint of ice cream in one night
(X) danced in the moonlight
(x) liked the way you look
( ) witnessed a crime
(X) questioned your heart
(X) been obsessed with post-it notes
(X) squished barefoot through the mud
(x) been lost
( ) been to the opposite side of the country
(X) swam in the ocean
(x ) felt like dying
(X) cried yourself to sleep
( ) played cops and robbers
( ) recently coloured with crayons
(X) sung karaoke
( ) paid for a meal with only coins
(X) done something you told yourself you wouldn't do
( ) made prank phone calls
( ) laughed until some kind of beverage came out of your nose
(X) caught a snowflake on your tongue
(X) danced in the rain
( ) written a letter to Santa Claus
( ) been kissed under a mistletoe
( ) watched the sun rise with someone you care about
(X) blown bubbles
(X) made a bonfire on the beach
(X) gone roller skating
( ) had a wish come true
( ) worn pearls
( ) jumped off a bridge
( x) ate dog/cat food
(x ) sang in the shower
( ) had a dream that you married someone
( ) glued your hand to something
( ) got your tongue stuck to a flag pole
( ) kissed a fish
(x ) sat on a roof top
( ) screamed at the top of your lungs
(x ) done a one-handed cartwheel
( ) talked on the phone for more than 6 hours?
(X) stayed up all night
( ) didn't take a shower for a week
(X) picked and ate an apple right off the tree
(X) climbed a tree
( ) had a tree house
( ) are scared to watch scary movies alone
(X) believe in ghosts
( ) have more then 30 pairs of shoes
( ) worn a really ugly outfit to school just to see what others say
( ) gone streaking
( ) gone doorbell ditching
(X) played chicken
( ) pushed into a pool/hot tub with all your clothes on
(x) been told you're hot by a complete stranger
(x ) broken a bone
(X) been easily amused
(X) caught a fish then ate it
(X) caught a butterfly
(X) laughed so hard you cried
( ) cried so hard you laughed
(X) cheated on a test
( ) have a Britney Spears CD
(x ) French braided someones hair
( ) gone skinny dippin in a pool
( ) been threatened to be kicked out of your house

so yes... unfortunatly that took up less time than was needed to we wasted... so here is what is going on with lisa... i have been commision by two different people to do are work for them... like omg i'm famouse hahahah mmhmm. on a side fo that.. ace has suggested that he can set up a show for some of my art work at the theatre this yea .. isn;t that very neat... umm whateles is new.. ummi dunno i am going to play magic cards with josh and spencer today . haha omh i'm kewl.. guess iw ill bring settlers to ... everyone say hello to the biggest nerds in the world hahaa.. nah there are probably mre nerdy people than i. for soem reason my whole body aches... i don;t know why ... it is kinda disturbing.. lame.. umm
** la du la di da...*musical interlude*
... i don;t think there is anythign left to say

Camping adventure

Yay for camping.. this was the second trip of the summer for me.. the first being gabriola where i made the best corn on the cob i have ever had in my life... but anyways. yea friday morning i picked ben up and we got food then went to meed josh up at rathtevor.. but found that when we go tthere we could not get a site till 12 30.. so we had to wate around.. no problem .. we played settlers.. then we finally got the site.. we set it up chillen and went for a wlk on the beach .. i made a penis out of sand.... i don;t remember why .. but it was becuase of soemthign josh sais ... ( on a side note: I would want my barnicle to bring me milk and cookies ) andways then i had to go to work. but after work marie was coming to get me and then we had to rush back by 11 so that we didn;t get locked out of the gate.. i didn;t leave work till 10 40 ..we made it there in 10 min ... 10 to spare.
next morning I made bacon and eggs for breakfast... thern was some sitting and magica card playing.. then we( we being the people camping ... me josh caitlin marie ben and chase) all went to play soccer..( dumb idea when it is that hot out.. and it was only 11) played for a bit then went to get soem icea cream up at the store... i decided to walk. josh ben and chase ran and marie and caitling drove . it was kinda like a race... i lost.. but was close to beating marie and caitlin.. i was proud. josh walked back with me and he regailed me with his few drunken stories... I miss that kid. he is so entertaining dispite what he says* sigh*... once returned .. THE BEACH .. we made a sand "castle" and when i say "castle" i mean we dug a hole built walls around it and dug a mote.. and waited for the water to come itn.... ok so it started out all fine then for soem reason josh and ben decided to start their own hole and it became a contest... so marie caitlin and i where building out "castle" and then boys where digging a hole.. apparently it was bette than our ppsh ... and wel chase just stood aournd... andways .. it was fun.. i was inside when all the watch came in . tehe ../
then after the beach ... dun dundun.. i had a shower.... that was very cold and the water had to much pressure so it like hurt.. antways.. then food and chilling and settlers and magic cards... eventually we got to playing strippoker I started loosing right away.. i don;t knwo why i always wanna play ahaha i'm so bad at poker.. anyways at the end... marie chase and I were compleatly naked.. caitlin had her underwear left. ben was in his boxers but he had won lots of chips so i;m sure he could have baught back some clothes and josh had only lost his shirt.
this morning i made a green deck adn we packed all our stuff... went that was done adn joshs dad was there.. we started to play a game of magic but got kicked out of the site...
the whole time well generallty we where kinda worried taht the "ranger" would find out we had more than 4 people camping on the site( 4 was the max for one site... ) ahah especially when we where playing strip poker and the greater number of us where fairly naked

now i work tonight.. then have 4 days off. then work friday .. then next sunday ( the 14th ) and then once more on friday (19th ) then i have 3 weeks off. at least i should ... if anyone wants to go camping.. call me.. i can make really good corn on the cob.. i also have a camp site the we prety much don;t have to pay for .. and is secluded and sweet. peace out....... hate in . hahaha i dunno where that came from.. it;s pretty lame .. but w.e

lisa life up date

soo i am sitting here on this friday evening.. it;s a nice night out.. the events of the past week goes as follows:
- seussical shows go very well. castparty is fairly decent.
- 5 people show up to take down the set. lame... i recruit spencer then take him out to brunch as a reward
- lisa works 3 days in a row and decided she has had enough..... calls in sick next day which is convinient becuase she can now go to rasmus's good by party.. rum is my new favorite.. i had a delightful time
- skipping back to wednesdays , spencer takes me out to dinner as repayment for brunch* shrug* then we watch lord of the rings " return of the king" which i believe that i haven;t watch ... turns out i on;y didn;t see tha last 20 mintutes... o well
- ashleyu slept over tursday night.. so friday morning we proceed to mal to get soem school finacial buisness done... lisa is excited to go to school in fall
- lisa and ashley the proceed to go get lisa's ear peirced.. i am now 105$ poorer but oh that much more fasionable.. haha i now have a rook peircing it looks sweet i like it... it didn;t hurt but there was a horrible crunching noise.... ask ashley about my face... ahahaha
- went to the lake... somehow it magically got clouddy and i couldn;t swimm anyways cuz the lake was gross for my ear.. we decided no-one eles would come so we left.. afew min after leaving will calls me
- once i am home fore about 20 min.. i get a call from nolan... he is at the lake... silly boys.. just can;t show up on time.. anyways..
- been chillaxen with spencer. haha looking through my year books good times..
- tomorrow will probably go to my family reunion and stay the night.. ahaha will probably drag spencer along so i do;t have to interact with my family... i find it akward talking to people that i don;t remember but remember me.. haha i well...

this concludes my week overview... thanks for watching *heart* lisa

a good night

hehe so all day i was tired...just lack of motivation or w/e , and then i got to work and everytign worked out nicely.. and i got everythign done.. and on my break i baught the fragile.. as NIN cd.( sooo excited to see them btw) and then i find out that i am getting a raise...! nice and i am hungry so spencer and i are going on a search for food,.. i want pizza but ia bout i wil find it

i wrote a sweet poem... if youi care for that kid of stuff please read and enjoy
http://www.deviantart.com/deviation/20483068/

anyways i'm out ... need food

july 6th

my heart hurts
i'm so tired i could faint
i think i feel dizzy
from the fumes of tha paint.

one more night of work
then three days of rest
i know out of anyone
i'll use this time best

been listening to seusse
now there is rhyme in my head
now your reading my post
to see what ive said.

so thats enough of the rhyming.. i had another verse lined up.. but i couldn;t finishit... so it got cut. umm arts alive is going great who ville is done. just the jungle left,shane and i have pretty much done it all .. oh and tom our little helper hahaha it;s neat getting to know him again kinda.. i dunno it;s weird. um umum... yea like i mention is my little poem after tonight i get 3 days off of work .. that will be a nice break seeing as at the moement i am compleatl drained... i might have to stay till 10 30 in stead of 9 30 .. which woul dbe lame.. but umm.. no it;s jsut lame... tomorow going to seee war of the world with spencer... that should be neat. augh... soo tired... i could sure use like a massage ..*cough cough*.. any takers??*wink wink * augh.. :P umm it seems a little surpressed now but there where people who where all grr and i dunno ya try and help and give advice when people ask... but then they don;t take it... i dunnoi guess i shouldn't bother to much with other people's lives.. takes to much energy... which i have none of right now.. i don;t even really know if my sentance makes sence becuase i stopped half way through and then started again withough readin it.

sometimes i feel a little alone, but othe times as if i'm all that matters in the world.. thats a nice feeling, even if sometimes i don;t think i deserve it. i like everyone to know they are appriciated even if i'm not. people's misconseptions bother me... it's really not how they think. something more but something less, quite possibly a mess. damn that doctor suess and his rhryming technique. there is no way i can fight this , i'm just feeling to weak. so here is the conclusion to my story of the day.you've seen afew thoughts in an interesting way . this is not much time left , i'm sorry to say , but i must go to work. will post again another day

grad u ma ation

so grad today .. neat... umm yea it;s been 13 years... yea next year going for 4 more... what a waste of time hahaha. o well. dry grad will be neat , i've decided that i am going to win one of the big cash prizes that would please me... hmm guess i should get ready soon.. augh school at 10 30 .. for sandwiches i won;t like... free food never works out for me.there is always to many veggies. or weird sauces.* shuddter*
tomorrow is canada way .. I will probably sleep through alot of it. as i am stayng up all nght.. then i am going to a party at my cousin dawns house.. btw if anyone reads this in time and wants they can come.. just ya know ask me about it.. should be fun. umm yea i am le hungry so i think i will make a scrambled egg sandwich .. yumm hehehe





p.s. I am le here...
please don't forget

look around ....

ever feel kinda tossed aside, cuz something better came along... yup i'm kinda down right now... it was silly but it made me sad. i hate akward moments also.. your all like what do i do? *sigh* i'm also bummed about shane taking my idea for mr A using it as his own.. yea yea yea i know none of you care, but it was what i wanted to do for him, my gift, i had it all planned out then out fo no where it gets snached away from you... make you feel violated. trust me if it happened to you .. you would be just as dissapointed.. what i give is all i got... kinda.. now i need to think of somethign eles... DAMN IT ... i'm so not happy anymore... i just wanna curl up in a ball and lock myself away... stupid moods , i know it's not really true but it feels like no one would ever notice....

"look around and you'll see that at times it feels like no one really cares "
well katie P might.. i am doing props with her.. it is going to be super fun but i can;t even be excited any more... i should be fucking jumping wit joy.. i have one more day of highschool left and today is fucked becuase of two stupid things that shouldn't matter... but.. it is the little things that count.. thats what gets me.. * sigh*
augh.. i better cheer up befor nicole and ash mo get here... i'm helping them make things .. and i have to make things.. and food and go to work and finish journals and resume.... i duno how i will get it all done.... feels like my suport left me... i'm just being stupid..sometimes i hate myself.

somedays i hate myself..
someday i hate you
i know there are many days
when you probably hate me too

some how i see through all the good
and focas on that bad
it usually happends on the days
i'm feeling really sad

there's no one here to comfort
they've all forgotten me today
i'll sit alone till i'm over this
and then be on my way

does it seem like nothing bothers me?
i'm not really made of stone
sure it's nice once in a while
but i hate to be alone

please remember...
though i'm smiling on the surface
i'm crying deep within
my heart isnt breaking
thats how its always been

i like chips

thats right .. i'm eating some right now.... umm just about to go to bed,,, thought i would write a little something somethign ahaha .. i had a free day today .. no ball or work ,, woot woot.. so i spent the time after school dying soem suits for my pay and braiding 50 foot umbilical cords... it takes like 30 min to do one.. i still have one left btw.. augh .. spencer came and helped me.. then we went and visited ashmo.. and then spencer and i hun out.. haha i went to save on and baught marichino cherries.. they are yummy ummm yea i dunno 9 more days of school left can;t wait till it;s over.. year end actig show comming up excited for that.. and gonoriah... that it gonna be fun ahah OH AND ASH MO"S B_DAY . haha i can;t wait to give her her gifty.. i hope she likes it... anyways off to bed for lisa...