my day off... woot

ok ok .. so today is my day off. omgi know. it's been pretty good so far i've got to say. i remember at the beguinning of summer , beofre i got a job i just kinda did whatever.. now though i appriciate my free time.. i dunno anyways.
so that day started off with me taking spencer downtown so he could get his second tattoo. a polynesian(spelling?) band and a geco.. it looks very neat. but it was gonna take a while so i went and visited josh. which was awsome, i heard some good stories.
"my barnicle would tell great stories" hahaha you remember i think they are great and thats all that matters. haha but anyways then crazy kyle showed up and we was all chatten.

then i had to go and pick up spencer and we went and fell asleep cuz we where tired form geting up early. i love naps. haha youknwo when you are like a kid and you are like augh naps are for babies.. but then you get older and you are like omg these are sweet what have i been missing...

dropped spencer off for work that it turns out he didn;t have. i've just been chillen on the comp doing my reguar stuff.

i was hopping that james would be able to get away and we could hang out or w/e cuz he texted me wed to do soemthign but who knows. sometime i hope to go and see ben. i was hoping maybe today with james, but he already has many visitors tonight. next week hopefully

tomorrow... guess what is happening tomorrow.. i am getting my tattoo. at 4 at black and blue.. i am excited and i think that my rents have accepted it..
yesterday i told my mom that i was going to make an appointment and he was balah blah balah and he said that i didn;t love my dad any more beucase i was getting one.. he said it in like a not serious tone but kinda trying to make a sneaky point.. and i duno it really bugged me..

so here is my mini rant even though it does not compleatly pertain to me beucase i don;t really have alot of resistance against getting my tattoo.
i just don;t understand why people get so worked up over it. like why it is a big deal . like o the comment my mom made just go tme thinking. how does something like decorating my body effect my love for someone eles, or their love for me in return?
the way i see it , is that the tattoo i am getting is an extentsion of my self and my personalitly. like it means somethign to me, i drew it. it;s how i am expressing my personality. and i'm sure that lots of people with tattoos feel the same way . i just wanna show people who i am in another form. *shrug* i don;t even remember all the stuff i though i of about the subject.. but yea... what do you guys think? i know jordans had issues with people and his tattoo.. even though it is soo awsome.. i mean come on . it;s his family moto, that so kewl. anways yea


soo i decided i wanted to write down some of my favorite lyrics.. cuz i love lyrics.. but you don;t have to guess them, you can just enjoy their poetry.. however you are welcome to


1) nothing like this, felt in her kiss, cannot resist her, fell for her charm, lost in her arms, i keep a photograph. give me a glimpse, let me come in, be there inside her, here it beguins,here is the sin, somethign to lie about.

2) there's a trator here beneith my breast, and it hurts me more than you'd ever guess, if my heart could beat it would break my chest.

3) song of laughter shades of earth are ringing through my open ears, enciting and inviting me

4).. and you can't fight the tears that aint comming, or the moment of truth in your lies. when everything feels like the movies. yea you'd bleed just to know your live.

5) there's not much left to love, to tired today to hate

6) oh my beautiful lier, oh my presious whore. my disease my infection. i am so impure.

7)tonights tenants range from a lawyer and a virgin, she;s rising with her rosery tucked inside her lingere

8) there's evil in the air and thunder in the sky and killers on the blood streets. oh and down in the tunnel where the deadly arise, i know i swear i saw a young boy down in the gutter, he was starting to foam of the heat.

9) Desensitized to everything. What became of subtlety? How can this mean anything to me If I really don't feel anything at all?

10) follow me down to the valley below. the moonlight is bleeding from out of your soul.

11) don't open your eyes you won;t like what you see, the devils of truth steal the souls of the free. don't open your eyes take it from me. i've found you can find happiness in slavery

12)lets drink to the military, the glass is empty

13) would you cater to every fantasy i've got, would you hose my down with holy water if i get to hot.

14) i know there must me something wrong with me, out of all the hours thinking so how. i've lost my mind

15) she reads the minds of all the people as they pass her by, hoping someone will see

16) The way you hold your knife, The way we danced till three, The way you changed my life, No they can't take that away from me

17) and thats what you get for falling again you can never get him out of your head. it;s the way that he makes you feel, its the way that he kisses you, it;s the way that he makes you fall in love.

I guess thats all i got.. love these lyrics.. haha anyways ta ta for now. i'm going to go clean the pile of clothes that i call my room... of any by the way ..while i was writtign this i notices how awseome the cap of a 2-6 of campain morgans spiced rum looks .. it;s all metal and slogany.. i shall use it in art... one day ... just need to drink my lots of CM to get enough caps to make somethignout of ... hehe

fitting out

what up ... another day has past, well pretty much. worked, visted spencer, got soem pizza visited some more old friends at tidy's. they where haveing a martini party which i would have enjoyed greatly if it where not for my extream tiredness and work at 7 tomrorow.

tomorrow should be a pretty good day. work should go by quickly and then i am hanign out with matt and shari. they are my favorite co- workers.. i;m sure i have said that before. my furture looks so bleak right now. it seems like all i have to look forward to is work.
i guess the tool concert is comming up , but i haven;t thought about it much. i dunno

i am looking forward to school so much. it seems that lately i have noticed how i don;t fit in to the places that i used to, like groups and certain people's lives. i mean i can't excpect everyhitn to stay the same.. but for most of my life i've always felt a little outcast and for the past year or so that wasnt the case as much. but not being able to see anyone has really braugh me back to fitting out again. thats why i can;t wait for school. cuz i know i will it in there. i will have my friends around me and we willl be a group again. i dunno. mayhaps i am just lonely. after thinking about it , i don;t really have any friends that i can talk to, or rather that i see and can share stuff with... save for one who i dunno if i know anymore. i dunno if i am just being crazy but it;s like you are two diffent people or i just don;t knwo the person you are anymore. and it drives me crazy cuz all i wanna do is know,

i sometimes think i can see the future or know what will happen... i hope that i am wrong. august is definatly no fun. in fact this summer has not been the greatest.. it goes to re-enforce how i could never live with a regular job. i need to do something that means somethign to me , or i'd probably go a little more insain.

well i supose it is to bed for me early again. i'm so fucking tired.

sometimes i wonder if you would be better off without me... but id miss you to much...love

5 of 8

tomrrow 6 of 8...
augh work.. it;s not looking to bad since i am past the 1/2 way mark. was soo exausted today but i made it through the whole day. i had to i had stat pay. haha. umm after work i went to spencers and chiled there.. pretty much just had a nap wich was so nice.. for some reason spencer's bed is so comfy. then i came home ate, woke uup a bit and went to michelle;s to see her and jordan and swim a bit.
the river was nice.. lee showed up and we hung aroudn ate some hot dogs. went to the foundry to see if pam was working... she was not..

ende dup goign to fast eddies, matt joined us. we got the tripple play. it was good times now i am home and going to be in bed by 10 becuase i am soo fucking exausted.

dunno whats shaken for tomorrow

wednesday i was suposed to donate blood but i'm not anymore becuase im tired enough already. going to hang out with matt and shari from work .. they are my favorite people to work with... cuz they are awesome. haha .

ummm hopefully going to go make an appointment to get my tatoo this week... kylan make sure i do that eh .. haha. umm

but yes.. bed,,, night all

p.s. 4 weeks 1 day

juste parce que

so just a breif up date about the past few days.. the wedding was sweet, saved matt from himself and his tequilla. some how i always end up taking care of someone. i think it;s my mothering nature. kylan got all grumpy for soem reason at the end of the night. *shrug* next day watched some she;ds the man. baught some new clothes, went to a dumb staff meeting. went to see a salt water aquarium which was actually pretty neat. watched soem cleaks cartoons.

monday ... got up early to go to work. got off early met up with james and we drove to the cabin. had some sweet shinanigans.. naked dish washing for back massages. fuck you. skinny dipping with life jackets... mine was really small ahaha.. the first night was definatly the best... the rest was kinda slow was still good. i read my really sweet book.. i heart it... came home did my work laundry . went and saw spencer... today i am just wasting time bwfore work.. augh...

i get payed tomorrow .. sweet. thats all i got

Ten random things you might not know about me (or probably do):

10. I played fastball for 14 years, 7 of which where at a very competative level
9. I am an artist... i swear
8. my favorite colors together are navy blue and lime green
7. I have been in love twice
6. my least favorite color is orange
5. I always work to much and end up killing myself, well very close to it
4. I am going to be a crazy cat lady
3. I am slightly worried about my future's financail security the first few years out of school. i wonder if i will have enough skill and drive to be a h-core designor or set painter
2. the recent aditions to my wardrobe make me feel more mature and ready to take on the responsibilities of school/ fall// w/e...*shrug*
1. i think that i am lucky... not in the luck that you win things or fin dlike money or w/e.. but ther have been many time where i realize how very lucky i am and i realize i wouldn;t trade my kind of luck for the other

Nine places I've visited:

9. Istanbul, turkey
8. Pompe, ummm greece was it>? ... omg don't remember... the volcano spot
7. barcelona, spain
6. Cainns, fance
5. Piza, Italy
4. Venice, italy
3. The virgin Isands, US
2. can cun , mexico
1. TOFINO!, BC

Eight ways to win my heart:

8. make me laugh
7. Give me a massage
6. bring me mile and cookies
5. Listen to me
4. understand me, or at least try to
3. realize i don't like lots of "stange" foods and accept me still
2. Do something randomly nice for me
1. give me rum ... hahahaha

Seven things I want to do before I die:

7. own and be able to ride a unicycle
6. design the set/ paint one for a big time show
5. work in europe somewhere
4. fine someone to spend my life with
3. travel around the rest of the world
2. be as well loved as my granny was
1. paint a master piece

Six things I'm afraid of:

6. spiders
5. natural disasters
4. becoming pregnant before i am ready to
3. strange foods with many ingredients
2. people making assumptions about me before they know me
1. ummmmm pink fluffy... soft..... stuff...*shrug*

Five things I don't like:

5. people who are rude, especially for no reason
4. people who dont listen
3. complaining about something after someone has given you a solution
2. people who lie to me
1. selfishness

Four ways to turn me off:

4. trying to control me / mylife/ w/e
3. excess mushy/needyness
2. hairyness
1. bad breath

Three things I do everyday:

3. EAT
2. brush my teeth
1. do a dumb dance

Two things that make me happy:

2. working on a show
1. being with people who: make me laugh, i love, have the same interests, are awesome

One thing on my mind right now:

1. Finishing me sweet book before , augh work

justa eatin a sandwich

mmm subway.. dudud got back from work not too long ago.. omg some of the people i work with drive me nuts augh... anyways*dances* two days of from pet smart.... well kinda i have to go to a manditory staff meeting.. but it isn;t really work.. and ig et payed for it.... and there will be pizza.. then i work one day and am going up to quadra.*BIGGER MORE ELABORATE DANCING*

joing to joshes cabin. it;s hard to belive this is like the 3rd year in a row i've gone. ha ha and once again it seems as though the weather is going to be... meh. it seems like this trip will be different that it is planned to be... i cannot explain. it is merely a feeling. but regardless. i intent to have good times and i wanna bring my acrylics up to maybe do some paintings.. it would be fun
'
ummmmmmmmmm tomorrow is bonnie and jessies wedding. yay i get to dress fancy. hehe. umm man i couldn;t imagine getting maried now... epp scary . anyways should be some good time.
went shopping today baught two pretty tops, one which i will wear to the weedding and the other just rocks and another terry pratchet book to read camping
umm no one is around on line really.. which is weird ish . little lisa is all alone.. oh well i will go to bed. big day tomorrow... dudud

drunken updates

sooooo. here is my day of... which tured out to be super
so i get up and like what i see. hahaha woot... umm then i getup .. play dress up and then go to the mall . unfortualty i don;t find anythignthat i wan to buy ... exceot ashe;s tha mab .. which is an awsome movie....

come home wait around a bit.. for mr cronically late... augh ... and then we wathc the sweet ass movie... some extras.. then i try an find an outfit.. for the weding ..

go the the bank and then for some grocery shopping.. aclcoholic of course... then dinner and off to hangout with josh.. which was awesome.. cuz i actually got him all to myself and we talked about random stuff liek we used to. haha . good times. i lov e his honestly. then laura phones me and is all like come to this party and then i did .. which worked out geat cuz josh had to go to soccer.

so i went to this party at sara;s house.. i love sara she is sooo cute and i could just listen to her talk for ever.. and omg megan KT andnicole where ther.. and i hung withthem.. and megan was drinking. i am sooo going to get here drunk at a cocjtaikl party...it will be sweet... '

it was a very relaxed party then morgah gave me a ride home and now i am up datin with horrib;e spelling ... great times.

tha tis all time for bed.. the almost perfect way to end my day off.... hehehe wooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo
] thats all i got..
love to all
~:lisa~

sooo today sucked ass

but who's keeping track. i guess technically the first part was ok.. i did some sleeping in and hung around a bit. but then work .... oh and right before heading off to work i remember that someone had egged my car so i got o clean that off my winsheild and tomorrowi wil get to clean the rest of my car becuase some kind person thought i needed an incentive. FUCKER

anyways then i get to work and find i get to be on cash for two house the someone fucked up the shedualing.. then beth was all freaking out cuz she couldn;t finish the planner on time then i had to and then i had to cover two people's breaks and take loads of garbage and carboard out.. and i was pretty much just unpleasantly stressed
it's like eveyone at work gets me to do everythign because i am compitent. and then i get grief when i don;t take extra responsibilty. it;s not that they are really getting annoyed at me.. but joking is still frusterating... like when i stay late... but finish what i am doing and want to go partrick with be like all augh.. blah blah .. your leaving an hour early... even when i have already stayed like 2 past my shedualed time... whatever.. i am soo looking forward to school then i cna have a break...

in other news i have taken a liking to the shell gasstation sluchies.... they are cheaper and better thasn 7-11's...

i guess that is all.. waht omg.... tomorrow i have a day off....*dances*... that is all.

p.s kylan is thunder cat crazy....but i wil forgive him hehehe

Waitin waitin waiting for a phone call

i hate waiting... especially when it;s already late
SO Update.... friday got of work a bit early and decided i wanted to try my new book out.. so i went and baught some blue curaco and some peach shnapps and i had myself an impromtu cocktail party. had jordan and matt over, who kindyl braught soem hamburgers. awesoem. then laura showed up with ashmo mel and graham... it was goo tiems had by all except when i did somethign really dumb and embaressing.... so pretty much i ran full on into the sliding glass door... i thought it was open my dad ahad closed it... you can still see my face... augh

Next day was firework.. 9 am call. very hot sunny day .. on the water... i'm surprised i;m not more burnt however,.. my lips are crispy.. and that is the worse.. becuase i look really dumb and i can;t open my mouth.. augh.. that and my neck is pretty red. other than that it went well. 1more show and i can get my level one license.

umm yesterday , augh , work.. it was painful. cuz of my burn and gross lips.. but i did manage to move a whole skid of petigree stuff. i was very proud of me. then later kylan came over adn we chilled and rented " she's the man" .. cuz i think it is awsoem . definatly going to buy it as soon as i see it for a good price.. and then watch it.... twice ....

sp today was super early getting up.. and i had 485 price changes... ugly..needles to day i did not finish them. came home went to bed. got up took movie back , returned crappy head lamp form shitty walmart. changedmy fishdude;s water..
and am currently waiting.... running out of time... waiting....
*sigh*


i hate waiting

I'll probably end up dead

. That is.. if i don;t change how i do things.. cuz pretty much if i keep doing what i am doing i am going to die of malnutrition and exaustion. 2 low points in the past two days that i could not deny how unhealthaly i live . tuesday for the day i ate, 3 mini bags of chips, 2 choclae bars and 2 cans of pop.. oh and a footlong sub.... which contained chicken, cheese and sause... that night i went to bed at like 10 30 ... next day wake up at 9 ... and around 2ish, i am exaused... i took a nap. no doubt that my exaustion from working lots if amplified by my lack of decent meals...
sooo today... i make myself apples and carrots for work.. yay me... i just hope that i can keep things up.. cuz thats always what i tend to do, start something and then go back to my old habits.

In other news my fish loves me... he is making a bubble nest which means that he is happy.. yay..
once i have reached me monetary goal.. the next few 100 will be spent on my tattoo. it;s my end of summer good job gift to myself... i think i am wearing my dad down... he doesnt; much like the idea of it... neither of my rents do... but whatever.

i;'ve realized why it is easier for me to save money when i work... becuase i have no time to spend it. at least not lots of it. i deposited my pst check over a week ago and i haven;t even touhched it.*shrug* i guess it's nto a bad thing , but :( .. ilike spending money .. hahaha h

umm fireworks comming up this weekend. sat night. woot... 9 oclock call.. woot for like 14 hour call ..yay .. but seriouslyt it;s fun..
umm we hired more people at work.. wich will be good cuz we lost like 4.... 2 cashieres 2 core people.. augh. maybe i will get afew less housrs.. i wouldn;t mind that.. but with the lots of hours i've been doing i'm looking at a 650$ pay check tomrorow. i think my hours are maxed for two the past two weeks

ahaha not that eveyone who reads this will find it particualyially interesting but hey whatever.. there isn;t alot happening in my life

hmm tuesday i went to visit barb and brianna it was fun.. haha


6 weeks and 5 days left of summer... i think soon i will start to design and create... the piniada..
is everyone getting excited i am

little red

so let me tell you about my weekend...

friday night worked till close. then went to lauras and had an awesome times at her party. i got to see soo mant people that a graduated with . hun out with reston stole some of his beer haha we reminisced about wookworking in grade 8. good times had by all. walks to spencers and slept there. had to get up earlyish to go to the market..
it was crzy bust and only karol( spelling?) and i where there... sopo many people... but we did alright... everything was going smooth until the cinnmon buns took revenge...

i burned myself on the pan.. aught... one really bad 3rd degree burn...on my arm... folloded by a burn line across my check adn arm and another bit on my arm.. don;t ask me how i did it i am just very talented... aught... hurt lots

then i went to go see kylan who is all post mouth sugery... watched some thunder cats. right one then came to my house ... and i went to my store and baught a fish... it;s name is little red... after me... cuz matt from work named me red... the hair.. ther are two lisa;s so he had to tell me apart soem how

played dnd which i did not want to play.. finished that game... now i am takeing a break
had to ge tup and go to work today ... like almost always i stayed a while longer to do whatever. and have been hangin out with spencer..

this week commin gup is uber busy.work every day...
and then there are fireworks on satyurday for bath tub weekend... woot.. come if you can.
then work the next day .. hahah ...
at least it is pay day this week should be at 3000$... one more to go.


NOTE FOR ANYONE WHO DID NOT READ- september 15th is the "new", july 29th.. just remember that

augh my borthers girlfriend stole that shower when i wanted to have a bath .. bet you there is no hot water after... augh...

i love lamp

i had the nicest suprise today at work. someone who i hadn;t seen in a long time showed up and we where happy to see each other. It;s nice to know you still care enough to come and see me. best part of my day knowing that you don;t hate me.

becuase everyone eles is doing it

1. My ex: doesn't understand me
2. I am listening to: the dryer
3. Maybe I should: be a stronger person
4. I love: to paint
5. My bestfriend(s) is/are: spencer
6. I don't understand: how people can be such bastards to people they don;t know
7. Ive lost: my way, my mind, a little part of me
8. People say: more than they need too
9. The meaning of my screen name:" I can't escape this hell, so many times ive tried, but i'm still caged inside. somebody get me through this nightmare i can;t control my self" the way my life feels, traped because of what i do and how i act
10. Love is: a blessing and a curse
11. Somewhere, someone is: thinking of me
12. I will always try to be: a friend to those in need
13. Forever seems: inconsequential
14. I never want to: hurt the ones i love
15. My cell phone: is red, which i like
16. When I wake up in the morning, I: forget how/why i felt when i fell asleep
17. I get annoyed: when people try to control me
18. Parties are: sweet when there are lots of friends
19. My Dog(s) is: actaully a cat
20. Kisses are the best when: you can't help yourself
21. Today I might: pick some cherries for tracy
23. Tomorrow I will: stop by laura's *dances*
24. I really want: not to worry about so much any more, just to be happy and go with the flow as such
25. I am: tired, but i'll keep on going

SOOOO IN OTHER NEWS
yesterday i spent the day in tofino , with matt from work... guess what we did... WENT SURFING* breaks into song* " surfng in tofino" it was super awseom and fun. we left tuesday night after i wasdone work, spend the night at allisons( matt's firend) who is so nice. then we got up and went surfing for afew hours.... and also went on so many little hikes... one on radar hill was so long and very climby.. but i succesfully did it in flip flops. we went to some bog and wick aginnish....*cough*.... beach... saw soemsand dunes that was really neat. am so glad that we went. it was kinda random too . like thursady of last week we were liek we are going to tofino .. and then we did. i never do crazy stuff like that... especially since i have never hung out with matt. eee... go times had by all

oh and we went to this kewl store and i spend like 40$ on glass beads and a glass pendant and this other pendant..... i can;t help it i love jewlery.

it seems like i have not time to do anythign... andthign producticve that is.working like 5 1/2 days a week, lots of time sin the middle of the day. i am kind worried about all the stuff i have to do. my next day of*cough * auhg which is next wednesday

anyways thats all i got for now. i am tired of writting . i'm so glad i only work 6. 5 hours today, i'm to tired to do any more

waiting for work.. and ravioli

tihs about sums up the lather half of my day. this moring was the market then after i went into work to talk to tracy about the misteak on my pay check.. they said i had only worked 44 hours is two weeks which is way not true.. anyways. i got and in shari is there and informs me that 2 people( cashiers i might add) have not showed up for work today. so she is working 10 hours and traing sean to take for the rest of time the store is open.... i being a kind human being say that i will come in for the last few hours so . sean being anebie doedsn;t have t be on till. now you might be thinking. yea i guess you are cool for comming in when you don;t work lisa....
ah but let me tell you of ealier this week. 1. tuesday megan ask me to take her shift the next day so she can go on her vacation early... after some desicion i say fine... so i worked an extra 8 hour shift this week.... plus.... yesterday the same disaster befel the petsmart staff and . 2 people... 2 different ppeople.. did not show up for work. leaving me to work a 10 and a half hour shift.
at the end of the night there where 3 empoyees in teh whole store.. and it was pretty busy.
life hates me. needless to day i am tired

so i know that no one really needs to hear my annoying/ sad story. but i needed soemthign to do. i'm kind of out of short right now... very tired ext. the rest of the week was filled with some intersting moment, however i do not feel those need to be repeatedin any sense.

augh... blah... i just don;t know.

Fancy that i'm doing laundry again...

it;s almost like there is a pattern... but ther isn;t .. SO forget it
umm so the upatey in lisa's life... where did i leave off... oh well lets start at friday thats what i rember back to
so i worked 3-10 .. and thennnnnnn! i went out the bar with nathan and laura... jenn went but wasn;t really there.. so laura and i where chillen adn my cousin dawn shows up and it was fun fun fun. we hung out with this group of boys. they baught us drinks. one of then was 6'8 .. he was very tall.. he wanted me hahaha....... anyways dawn me and jordan thats the tall guy) all got hang cuffed together... becuase we where at the gay bar and ther are hand cuffs, and a pole and a cage which we took full advantage of. anywyas .. partyied till the bar closed. then nathan drive us home haha on the way we got stopped by 2 cops it was good times. we also stopped st timmys and i had the best bagle of mylife... it was so good
the next day.. was canada day .. woot i woke up feelinh pretty ok jeff came and we drove top down to campbelle river.. it was such a nice day. worked 13 hours setting up/cleaning up after the fireworks. the show was really great though. looked awesome. then drove home. jeff drove 1/2 the way beause i would have soon killded us... but anyways i get to do another show in nanaimo on the 22th of this month... thats bathtub weekend people right on right on
the next day i slep till one... work called i said i could not work... went to the store with spencer and we baught breakfast food
we then proceeded to cook the food.. shortly after i took a 3 hour nap
getting me ready for the Dnd that was already happening .. the rest is a blur... ohhh yea... i seem to recall, being upset and then being comforted until i forced myself to leave beause of work in themorning

so i worked the next day.. then went and vistied kylan.baught some candy watched soem kevin smith movies.. today .. work... tomorrow work , then work, and some more work...

saturday will be ther market in the morning, then possibly games of the board or lawn persuations...?
soooo if you read this and thing you might like to partake please inform me.

... punch and pie

doing laundry*dances*

Body:
PART 1
1. What curse word do you use the most? fuck
2. Do you own an iPod? negative
3. Who on your Myspace "Top 8" do you talk to the most? ummm dawn
4. What time is your alarm clock set for? 8:o1.... but that actaulla ylike 7 30
5. How many suitcases do you own? umm 3
6. do you wear flip flops outside when it's cold out? hellyea
7. Are you having a good day? good so far
8. What was the last movie you watched?waiting
9. Do any of your friends have children? yes ahah and his child's middle name is the name of a dnd diety hahaha
10. Who is your bestfriend? spencer
11. Do you ever take medication to help you fall asleep faster? nope
12. What cd is currently in your cd player? NIN fragile... left side
13. Do you prefer regular or chocolate milk? Chocolate
14. Has anyone told you a secret this week? kinda, but it wasn;t realyl a secret , i just said it was
15. When was the last time someone hit on you? ummm i don;t know
16. can you whistle? yes
17. Who was the last person to text you? Lee
18. Do you think people talk about you behind your back? probably
19. Did you watch cartoons as a child? oh yea
20. How many siblings do you have? 1
21. Are you shy around the opposite sex? not so much
22. What movie do you know every line to? empire records, labrynth, pricnes bride and get over it
23. What is the 4th text message on your CELL PHONE? I don't have 4: " if you didn;t guess i;m not ok"
24. What is your favorite salad dressing?ceasar
25. Do you read for fun? yeah
26. Do you do your own dishes? sometimes
27. Have you ever cried in public? umm probably when i was younger, but i would say no
28. Do you have a desktop computer or a laptop? Desktop
29. Are you currently wanting any piercings or tattoos? i want my lily flower on my ancle
30. What is the weather like? very sunny
31. Would you ever date someone covered in tattoos? yesum
32. Do you have an online journal? a blog.
33. When was the last time you slept on the floor? don;t remembe rit was a while ago
34. How many hours of sleep do you need to function? normally like 7 or 8.. i can get by with less thought... like 6
35. Do you eat breakfast daily?no
36. Are your days full and fast-paced? very much so
37. Did you ever get in trouble for talking in class? it;s a possablitly but i think not
38. Do you pay attention to calories on the back of package? HAHAYHAAH no
39. When was the last time you drove in a car for over 2 hours? umm umm *shrug*
40. Are you picky about spelling and grammar? not os much
41. Have you ever been to Six Flags? nope
42. Do you often dream when you sleep? all the time.... they are fucked up
43. Do you get along better with the same or opposite sex? opposite
44. Do you like mustard? only a little bit on hamburgers when i make them at home
45. Do you sleep on your side, tummy, or back? every side
46. Last person who called you? Jeff

PART 2:
1) Single, taken or crushin? single
2) Are you happy with where you are?yea pretty much... i will be happier when school starts
3) When you meet the right person, do you fall fast? yea i think so
4) Have you ever had your heart broken? yesum
5) Do you believe that there are certain circumstances where you find cheating acceptable? Negative
6) Would you ever take someone back if they cheated on you? o would consider it
7) Have you talked about marriage with another person?don;t belive so
Do you want children? yea i'm estiamting in like 10 years
9) How many? 1-2
10) Would you consider adoption? umm i guess
11) If somebody liked you right now, what do you think a cool way to let you know would be? show me by like actions and attitues.. i dunno
12) Do you enjoy playing hard to get ? somtimes
13) Be honest, do you play the "game" when you are dateing? i dont unsderstand the question.. i guess i can say that my favorite part of finding soemone new is " the chase" i guess that is kindaplaying ... so yes...?
14) Do you believe love at first sight existsts? lust at first sight does.
15) Are you romantic? yes!!!
16) Do you believe you can change someone? no. i think you can help in some respects though
17) If you could get married anywhere, money not an object, where would it be? on abeach somehwere
19) Do you easily give in when you are fighting?if it;s a verbal confilict i am likely to end the conversation becuase i hate arguing with people.. a physical fight howdever... i will fight till i will or cannot move any longer
20) Do you have feelings for someone right now? ummmmm geeeeee i dunnnnoooo
21) Have you ever wished you could've had someone but you didn't take advantage of your opportunity? yes , but i know it wouldn;t have worked
22.) Have you ever broken a heart? yes.. for me it hurts almost as bad as getting yours broken
23.)What will happen if you come home and find another person in bed with your significant other? i dunno.. i might just leave in a silent rage... or rage and get plus 4 to my strenght and con and go nuts.... hahahaha (pushes up glasses)
24.) Would you ever fight somebody over your significant other? ummm i dunno
25.) What would you say your boyfriend/girlfriend does better now than your last ex and what did your last ex do better than boyfriend/girlfriend now?wow that is a refusing questions... well going back intime a bit... and speaking technicaly here excluding certian memebers... i would say acertiveness and ... for the second bit understanding... now if i were to waver that last excerpt.... making me feel special and frusterating me...
PART 3:
10 FACTS
1. Hometown: N-a-n-a-i-m-o
2. Height: 5'5
Hair color:spicy red!
4. Hair length: Medium
5. Hair style: layerd
6. Eye color: blue-gey- sometimes green
7. Shoe size: 7
8. Mood: open
9. Sexuality: straight
10. cell phone:samsung... red!

10 LOVELIFE
1. Have you ever been in love: yes
2. Do you believe in love?: i think i would if i belive i have been in it
3. Why did your last relationship fail?: lack of understanding of each other's needs
4. Have you ever been heartbroken?: yes oh yes
5. Have you ever broken someones heart?: yea
6. Have you ever fallen for your best friend: HAHAHAH i laugh in your face questions 6
7. Are you planning on getting married?: yes
8. Are you afraid of commitment?: yes and no... and yes
9. Would you ever get married to someone of the same sex?: negative
10. Would you ever have sex with someone of the same sex? i',m pretty sure i wouldn;t ,,but you never know

10 OTHER
1. Love or lust?: Love with lots of lust toppings
3. Night or day?: night
4. Hook-ups or relationship?: Relationships
5. Tv or internet?: internet
6. Pepsi or coke?: rootbeer end of story
7. Wild night out or romantic night in?: wild night out
8. Saturday or Sunday?: Saturday
9. Colored or black and white picture?: black and white
10. Phone or in person?: person

73

Add up the things you've done.
Scale of $1-$5, depending on how many times:
$0- never
$1- once
$2- 1-5 times
$3- 6-10 times
$4- 10-20 times
$5- 20+ times

had sex-- $5
only went to first base-- $5
smoked-- $0
got drunk-- $4
went skinny dipping-- $0
kissed someone of the opposite sex-- $5
had more than one bf/gf at the same time-- $0
fell asleep in class-- $0
cheated on a quiz-- $3
been expelled-- $0
been in a fist fight-- $0
stole something-- $0
done drugs-- $0
dyed your hair-- $5
done something with someone older-- $5
cried yourself to sleep-- $4
said you love someone but didnt mean it-- $1
been in love-- $2
got arrested-- $0
madeout with someone at the movies-- $0
played spin the bottle-- $1
vandalized--$0
"borrowed" something from a friend, not intending to give it back--$2
skipped school--$5
had a naughty dream--$5
bitten someone--$5
created a sex cd--$0
seduced someone, intentionally--$4
gave oral--$5
recieved oral--$5



Wow i have alot of 0's hahaa, but there are quite afew fives there too.... however there are some things that must be righted... afew 0's that will rise... .... ... to a bigger number.. hahaha.

"So what if you can see the darker side of me ..."

*dances* a song by three dyas grace, i very much enjoy it... it's catchy.
woked today , all early and stuff. eww 7 am .. same dealyo tomorrow. then gettin gup for 9 two days in a row. tomorrow probably gonna go to a movie with meghan and kylan.. YAY meghan.
i 'm liking the summer but i am soo missing seeing everyone. dudud

got a hair cut..i think it looks cute, i chopped all the frizzy bottom off.*twirls* and now i have to rest of the night free, what to do what to do?, perhaps some of the sketches i'm suposed to do for doug*shrug*

I finished my art class!, no more boringness.
duudu
I'm excited for gregoirs party! i have to be fun and crazy to make up for my lack of un and partyness. i've comne to the conclusion that i am pretty lame at parties/ partying.. am i too responsible/( i dunno what you would call it) uptight i guess? i just always seems like i have somethign the next moring that requires me to not be hung over or i have to drive home..
i find that everything fun happends after i leave or go to sleep. ive decided it my goal to not be unfun.*nods* i hope it works hahaha *points* if any of you see me being unfun slap me....
hahaha this should be interesting. hahaha cuz i'm sure some of you would slap me... buti like that about you ...
anyways..

kylan is pushing for wednesday nights at the foundry... are people interested?
i think maybe not everyweek... i am trying to save money, even though i am fairly bad at it.
( you see i will beat you ...*shakes fist at sky*) i dunno

i've not nothing eles presently... however if i think of somethign interesting i will let you know...
ha

Augh soo tired *balrun*

so today is monday.. i worked at 7, until 3... lame todya is not over yet so i will stop with it now.

last time i left of sick and miserable.. much has improved. saturday i went to the doctor and got soem anti biotics then , to the market and worked hard makin my wraps. i enjoyed having somethign that i could focus on. keeping all the orders in my head .. it waslike some kind to extreme challenge....>> THE WRAP CHALLENGE* thunder crashes*... no? then kylan and i , sat around... and decided to go to the mall.. yay mall.. i baught a new bag.. THE SWEETEST ONE EVER! it;s canvas and big with pockets.. and i baught a new outfit.. a really pretty white skirt with lace at the bottom and a touquise tank top... yay 21$ outfit. i am super shopper.
Sat night. i dnded it up until 2 in the morning...
sun got called into work 1 1/2 hr early... worked then went to the long wood for ashleys birthyday
she didn;t have photo id so i ordered her a drink... so i ordered like 2 drinks right after another.. then anotherone.. haha everyone said i was an alcoholic.... hahah .. anyways...
then today early waking up

buuuuut.. ashmo just called and i am going to go and meet up with her. walking. hahah can you believe it.. aguht... ANYWAYS... oops caps... hahah love ... later!

*sigh*

Partying on the wrong side of Miserable

So i am sick.. lame. yesterday i was in bed for most of the day. today i supose that i feel better except for my throat, it has gotten worse.*sad face* i have no energy to do anythign so i am so bored. ithink i will watch movie disney movies or something... that is untill 2 when i work for 8 hours... it won;t be that bad , i just don;t want to have to talk. lee might come in and look at reptiles... i think he should get a camelion... cuz they are kewl.

hmm i get payed today .. that will be sweet. hmm i'm not sure what i should by my dad for fathers day. it's always so hard to buy things for him cuz he already has everytign thathe wants.. except a new boat.. but i can hardly afford that. i was thinking some stuff for out bar.. like a drink recipie book... with a kewl type of alcohole... i dunno though.

tomorrow i get to work at the errington market. i enjoy doing it. i've always liked to doing concession work. i remember when i was younger our ball team used to put on a tournimnet to raise money, and we got to work the consession. i know, i'm a loser. then after that it is Dnd. gotta get my fill somewhere.

sunday is ashmo's 19th birthday. we are going to the long wood. i hope i feel better.
Only two more boring art clases to go. then i have my tuesday adn thursday nights free again.
yay. the only good thing about being sick yesterday was not going to art class... however ... i might rather be not sick and go to class, as oposed to being sick.... i am so lame and unproductive when sick. drives me nuts... i hate not doing somthing.

thats all i got i guess. 4hours to waste till work...

naked bathing suit

... thats what i am wearing.... it;s a tan bathing suit that makes me look naked. hmm hmm
what is new.. it is nice outside.. yes! it;s suposed to be warm for a week!... eeep excited
on the weekend i went to gabriola to meet up with everyone. it was super fun... I found a stick called excalibure( spelling?) . when nathan and i were stumbling along the beach.. it was plus 2!
wathced the sun set with spencer and nathan. it was goo beautiful , i wished that i had my camera but it was in the car and i was so not going to get it
went to bed too early though... tears... all the fun happened after i went to bed.. but i had to .. i had the hugest headache in the world... it was propably from all the sugar in what i was drinking.
rasberry sours, z=up and soem other apple liquire that i baught.... it was sooo good.. but sweet... haha i don;t think i was really drunk.. maybe just sugar buzzed. hahah anywaysh

came home sun ... did soem stuff... eventuall yplayed dnd ... it was pretty good. my dice are not being shitty anymore.. woot

monday i had to get up at 6 to work at 7... eeew for 8 hours ewww...... not used to 8 hours at a regular job..... i'd rather work 16 hours in a theatre, or on theatre than 8 at a regual job... but o well .. it actuall ywasn;t that bad except that i was tired... lame. i don;t do morning well

hung around after ... made some cd's for my dad.. dudud...dudu.. ashley came to visit! as did spencer, he was chanced to my house by his 3 brothers.. hahahha *wink*

Today - i got up and cleaned myroom and the computer room which was very messy... i feel better.. hung around inside... outside . i have my dumb art class today so i can;t go to the movies with meghan and kylan .. I"M missing meghan.... *Cries* i'm so proud of her. andher theatre stuff... she is amasing.... i'm glad she is my work buddy anyways

tomorrow is the last pipers... if you can make it come.. beause i said so ..

amber . hehehe i am in love with the song poison right now haha .. i know you will like that

kaitlyn- some day i will come to you.. p.s. i keep trying to log on to the satry players forum but it never sends me an activiation e-mail :(, not even to my junk box... can you like deleat my account so i cna make a new one or somethign... to see if it works????


thats all i got

I am filled with silent rage

in other news, i quite enjoyed dovers rendition of " a mid summer nights dream" it was, though very coarse, quite funny... shortly i will be going to a party...

earlire today i painted while.. doug.. every 30 seconds took a picture of the painting... it looks kew l on the comp.. cuz it does

I appologize for my lack of good typing and recolection of events

*see title*

yesterday after my art class i met up with ashley and jenn and jen , and nathanand jackie and mel, and we went to timmy's.,. then we had a sun ritual to try and bring the sun for camping.. so far so good. then we came back to my house and watched getover it.. so we could watch the musical rendition of a mid summe rnights dream.. i love taht movie

also this week, i got a new computer it is very sweet..

tommorrows forcast calls for working for 4 hours then a trip to gabriola where i will party hardy and run wild and free... Free you hear me FREE, Muahahaha it;s alive ALive

thank you and good night.

Time and space...

do you understand?
friday, saturday, sunday , monday, wednesday, friday , saturaday sunday, is not time and space.
if your claws don;t loosen i will chop your arms off to get free.. and that will hurt.

soo friday kylan and i rescued amber from dunudn dun the evil qualicum and we met up with geoff and jeremy and watched x men 3. i really enjoyed it. then i wasted and hour and a half getting a rie back to drop amber off then to kylans house to pick up my car.*twirls finger*
Then upon returning to nanaimo i save spencer from certain death, at adams... haha kinda we hung out and watch a bit of chicago. *dancey dancey*

saturday i had to work 12-7 then came home and played Dnd, i was very tired and did not understand, Lisa loses 6 wisdom from work. next day a kinda of repeat of the same thing i work 12-6 however. and then go to play Dnd getting tired now...

today i get up to work at 9. i am sick. and tired.... lisa loses 5 con. her charisma also falls 2 points....

yes i am being a huge nerd and only some of the people ( actaully quite a few) will understand. hahaha woot.. p.s i should make up a character sheet for myseld.. that would be supper nerdy..*YES!*

last night i had a weird dream...OH and this only adds to it.( i might have played to much dnd in the weekend).... bugt no there can never be enough !....anways... at one point in my dream i was like talking to nick.. and we are on this beach, near this lake. and then some how he get goes into the water and these 3 or 4 lake monsters comeout of the water. at this time nick had changed into this character from out game, a hobbit. which looked like him..b ut alot shorter... so there are these monsters comming out of the lake at me and some how i get two longswords... or somethign like taht.. and somehow i know taht hteone in my left hadn is plus 5 and the one in my right hand is plus 4...(these are some pretty hard core swords) *shrug* so anyways i think i can take these monsters, but wait.. i do;t have dual weilding.. i am not profficalnty with both hands.. so as they get closer i ffigure that will just use the plus 5 and everythign will work out... that all i remember..
yes ..Oh yes ... i know i'm kewl

hmm this could be a big post... so for the rest of the week i work tomrrow and tuesday ... friday i am going to see spencer and my other littler actors haha in their rendition of " a mid summer nights dream" i can;t wait . haha it will be wonderful ! saturday i work again then i am going to gabriola. and party/ camp it up for a night. cest tres exciting. then after that looks uncertain.. but i kinda like it that way, so many possibiblites!

oh btw last thursdays i did my fireworks coause, i can how work with big display fire workes. ahah i ever got to light one off haha it;s supper nifty!

i beleive taht is all .. good day to you all

yyup

Two Names You Go By:
1. Lisa
2. Pink

Two Parts of Your Heritage:
1. Irish
2. French

Two Things You Are Wearing Right Now:
1. painting pants
2. white tanktop

Two Things You Would Want in a Relationship:
1. happiness
2. understanding

Two of Your Favorite Hobbies:
1. painting
2.DnD

Two Things You Want Really Badly At The Moment:
1. for everything to be ok
2. to not be getting sick

Two pets you had/have:
1.stirfry the kewlest Cat ever
2. kenny.... my brother

Two people who will fill this out:
1. laura
2. gregoire

Two things you did last night:
1. returned homr from victoria
2. Went to bed at 8

Two Favorite Places to eat:
1. Pipers
2. A andW

Two People that live in your house:
1. dad
2. Brother

Two things you ate today:
1. honey comb
2. grammy bun sandwiches

Two people you Last Talked To:
guy at the bank
people from work

Two Things You're doing tomorrow:
1. Working
2. playingDnd

Two things you should be doin right now:
1. rinsing dye out of my hair
2. sketching

success x 2

and those would be
me finally finding the cd i went all over town looking for and
be fianlly finding the DVD i had been looking for
so i got up and started working on my thing for doug, read rosses script again.. it's gonne be prety intersting. it doens;t seem like thre is alot if acting though .. but i mean.. first draft or w/e right... antways... tehre are soem really "powerful " images,. hahah anyways then i wanted to listen to the sky song .. " some kinda wonderful " ahaha and then i wanted the cd .. sooi went all over town .. even down to Aand B to try and find it... it was no where... But at my last hope i went to the used record store... and tHERE IT WAS...

Also on my travels i found the movie get over it... i really like it and had looked every where for it before..w ell almsot everyhwere... i forgot about music world and there is was they have some pretty good movies for cheap

the rest of the day , involed sketching and printint and uploading things and dumb art class.... grrr...
tomorrowi am both lookinghfarward and dreading.. i guess i actually just wish i could zoom right through to thursday. tomorrow will probaby to fucking full of drama and emotion that i will be so tired and want to go to bed early. especially since the next day i have tyo get up super early to go to do the fireworks thingy
tomorrow is my grannys funeral and then i have a meeting and then some more stuff

I wonder what the rest of my week wil be like? will it stay the same or change who knows. oh but hey where are some song lyrics from my new/old sky cd
oh.. i also dled some porcupine tree i like it

"All I want,
All I ask of you,
All I need,
Is for you to be holding me forever,
You're my superstar, "

"She said "You can call me baby if you'll let me hold
your soul, "

"And if the darkness is all you see
Well then you don't know what your missing"

soo tired

I'm soo tired right now and i don't know why.. i just got up. and i wasn;t even in bed late. i have to work in 45 min. woop* twirls finger* yesterday was pretty alright. i went to work and nothing exploded it was my first day and all.. then i went and go tsoem passport picutres done cuz on thursday i am going to take a fireworks course and get my certification so i can work on site legaly with fireworks and stuff.. it is gonna be so awesome. went and hung out with spencer for the afternon/evening.... then i returned him to his job at the fireworks and i was cohursed into staying... i got to stand out on the dockwhere they light them off sot they where almost right aboved me... best fireworks show i've seen in a long time. haha very magical. haha anyways i have to take a shower and get ready for work.. more update later probably

i am friend

today i woke up very rested... i had a wonderful sleep it was warm out so i didn't need may covers and such. wokeup went and did the grade 10 thing at school.... came homehung around until spencer came over.. i got my income tax return in the mail... woot 93$... so i decided to go buy earings.. haha so i dragged spencer to the mall on this beautiful day. hopefully he can forgive me.; ) and i baught a blue pair, and a pink pair of earings and i baught spencer and i best friend necklaces,,, i am friend and spencer is the best. because he is.
came home hung around until dinner and art class.. which was not horrible cuz we actualy got to work on our projects. now i am home and hungry ...

here is my survey

How many songs? 508

Sort by artist
First artist:2gether
Last artist:the used
Sort by song title
First Song: (-) Ions - tool
Last Song: YOW

Sort by time
Shortest Song: Introduction - panic at the disco - 36 seconds
Longest SongThe buffy musical - once more with feeling 50 :33

Sort by album
First Album: 13th step - APc
Last Album:With teeth - NIN

How many songs come up when you search for "sex" - 1
How many songs come up when you search for "death"? -15
How many songs come up when you search for "love"? - 10

wow 15 for death ... and only 10 for love... lame... hahaha o well. so tomorrow is already the weekend eh .. time flies.. ummm yea i wonder waht next week will be like.. i dunno what my shedual is yet.. it;s weird only working afew days a week.. what do you do i with the rest of your time...
i am dissapointed with myself for not being able to do certian things. i really hate taht part of me. and i know that it really is a detriment to my personality, hopefully i will be able to over come it. hahahah i should also stop saying waht is wrong with me and just act to fix waht i know is bothering me ... but i am scared.

All of you guys taht comment are wonderfull/. you say the nicest things. i find it hard to belive sometimes the opinion that you guys have of me..... it makes me feel like i super .. person .. i gues. fuck i dunno. haha we are talking about the same person right.. me.... hahaha... i guess i just know the truth.. dun dun ... i love you for it anyways.. hahaha. its makes me feel special.
later

it was my first day of work today.. itw as full of walking around the store( petsmart, for those of you who don;t know) my next day is sunday... the next few days should be ok.. i will hear if i get hired at spencers gifts

today is my moms birthday, i painted her a picture of her favorite flower. a double delight rose.. i think she likes it, i'm sure she must.. she upset though because today my granny her mom passed away. it;s both her and my aunts birthday today, it must really suck for them. i am equally sad, however after seeing her yesterday i am glad that she isn;t suffering anymore. if it wasn;t for my tendency to repress emotion, i'd probably be a mess right now.

hope to see people at pipers, i could use some cheering up

Today is probably the last day i will ever see my granny alive... i dunno what to think. i have never lost anyone like that before. it;s very depressing

there it goes again that feeling i can't understand
i'm trapped in a wide open space
all directions call my name
but i cannot answer

I speak
and you hear nothing
I am
silent and you understand
paridoxical understanding revealed

*sigh*

OMG funnest day ever

or at least in along time. sooo jeff and ace picekd me up at like 11 40 ish , we were heading down to do some crew work for b2b.. we thought we would be setting up a big tent but instead we moved like 80 risers and someother tings from one location toantoerh... we ended up only working for like 3ish hours but hey i still got 64$ .. not bad eh not bad.. since we only worked till like 3 30 /4 we decide that we should go for a pick nic so me jeff ace and robyn baught soem food at QF and went to little qualicum falls...but before we got there we went the wrong way and then had to back track ... 1/2 hour later we make it to our destination. we went over the fence and had out little picnic on some rocks by the falls. haha and then we were like lets hike the long way back.. but we ended up going the wrong way and went on this crazy trail which we had to back track on ... haha so over all the whole day we got lots 4 times two where smaller and unsignificant but the others set us back a bit. man just so much fun.. it was just a nice day out too.. and just movin stuff was great fun... i loved to spontanious picnic .. we would have gone climbing if robyn had had his stuff in the truck .. i love that... just hey this would be fun... robyn and jeff tell the best storries too haha they have done soem crazy shit

anyways.. past few days... kids fest that was fun. after a boring day of decorating, hanging out wiht the guys and meghan was awsome.party at tidys. got to hang out with all my old friends and drink it up with them. saturday didi the market thing with kylan and went to the techie strike barbicue.. then to the wheatchef for michelles 19th birthday .. i hope she is doing ok today we gave her lots of alcohol... and tongiht after my great day i am going to a girls night at alleahs... i dunno if i will drink cuz i am thinking i wanna come home.we will see we will see

well that is all

it's not that i'm just sad about stuff and wanna feel happy, i need to make decisions and changes and i'm to affraid/stubourn/dumb to do it. i'm displeased with things about my life, some which i can;t do anything about but other which i am afraid of reprocusions.

today i am doing a gig, kids fest. i was very exciteda bout it before but today i couldn't give a fuck. i just want to stay in bed and sleep. i wish i could just cry and feel better

thank you for trying, but i have to fix my situation, i know what i want but i'm fighting a brick wall.(You just don't understand, i'm sorry)

p.s you are a mirror that reflects my sunshine.

When life Catches up with you.

i'm really overwhelmed right now. there are lots of different things going on and i'm trying to keep them all in perspective in the picuture, but it feels like there is too much. waiting for people to get back to me from jobs and there is just so much going on with all the people i know. so much is uncertain right now and it;s starting to strain. i wann a colapse and not deal with the world, cry till i cant anymore, hide and maybe everything will go away, even though i know it won't... i hate it when life catches up on you, i've never been very good at dealingt with it

thursday

so today is thrusday ... how could you have knwon.. never mind.. i'm not really looking forward to today. it seems like just a big mess of things that i have to do, even though there are some really kewl things that i get to do .. well kinda.. firstly at 10 i am meeting with another manager at petsmart.. haha yea thats right..*shrug* i need a job,, anywhere !... i'll probably get one there.. well hopefully. that then at one, meeting with doug, tlaking about the "power play". probably gonna miss leons little meeting about the other play thingy..* dissapointment* which is at 1:30. then i might end up waiting around inthat end of town for my art class at 6. which is kinda bust becuase like the most time we get to work on art is the seoncd half of the class.. which means i have to listen to the teacher talk for and hour and a half.... lame.

yesterday was alright, went to petsmart and had an interview which went well. then sata rounda lld ay in the sun. now it sounds fun .. but i was so bored. i'm not used to so much time. kylan picked me up and we went to pipers. there where lots of people but yo uknow that feeling when everyone is around and you feel alone.... thats kinda how i felt. i dunno why. but for along time i just sat there listening to other people. anyways then we went to lee's and watched house and some other Tv, went to the gay bar after. sang some karioke. it was pretty ok .
i duno i was just on a bit of a downer, i burned my lips so that was no fun and i was just dissapointed. silly me for getting my hopes up. afew drinks later on the way home. i was fine.

i guess tahts all i have to say. excpet that pam is so nice and crazy for buying everyone drinks. i love her.

new tool today , new tool today .. new tool today

yay i made a toung twister! new tool albumn out today. thats prettykewl.. yay.. i want it but i think i will wait to buy it... trying to save money... cuz i don;t have a job yet... i have some odd jobs that will be bringing in some money.. but i will have to work hard to save it.. cuz i like to spend money.. : S eep .. umm umm umm

Today
Dentist today = lame
starting art calls today = very kewl , but its always a bit uncomfortabel for me to start somethign new. even though i will school this class... cuz it;s for like " people with some artistic ability and a genuine interest in art" andi will just school it. the only thing is. i dunno if i am suposed to brin anythign tonight. cuz yea i dunno. so i am gonna go back to the book store and see if there is anything new in that little book dealyo. ... is the book store open?
anyway.. i also gotta do soem other stuff at the college, like bring back the left over satyr players money from the campinh trip, and figure out all the student union stuff without ace, becuase he is just no help. i'll ask mike or something. and go get a enw parkina pass... hehe maybe when i am at the college i will see soem of the perspective first years :D hehehe .. cuz they are doing interviews this week.

lots of birthdays comming up and special events the require money, michelles birthday, mothers day , my mom's birthday ext. however i am doing a gig next week that will bring some money in so that sould be good.... which remeinds me i have to go to the bank..... bastart bank wanting to charge me service fees... lame...

i really think that it was interesting how everyone did those silent comment things... it just shows that when we have the abilty , there are lots of things we wanna/ are able to say.

yesterday i started chris's campaign for Dnd.. my name is Bryla... bri for short... i like it, i think it is pretty*shrug*
this is me waitsting time.. lalala .lalala. lalala. lala. *dances* lalall lalal
alal

well thats enough of that ,see you on the flip side, :P
p.s. PIPERS TOMORROW!!!* pipers dance*

STeal ....!

this is on ambers and barbs blog if you would like to check theirs out

The deal is you're supposed to make 15 really truthful statements about people in your life, and never tell who they're about... soooo sneaky

1.you are one of the most influentail people of my life, i learn so much from you and am glad that we are alike

2. i admire your talent. you will go places because of your williness to work and the natural flair you add to every part you play.

3. i miss you sometimes, i will never forget the time we spent together though i wish i could change parts of it

4. you always noticed me and your simplest action braught joy to my life. i wish i could show you and have you belive how very wonderfull you are. if only we could have been

5. you are soooo awsome. i don;t think i can make as big an impact , as that which you have made on me, but i will try. i hope you are proud.

6. it think you are amazing and beautiful, talended and cursed. your indecision worries me, let your intuition guide you as it is the only thing you are certian of, how you feel. find words and speak what you feel, or things willl never change

7. i love your style, i am sure only you could pull it off, your so kinda nd out going, i really hope that i spend more time with you this summer, and i am sure that i will. be careful of the rest of the world, it mightnot be as kind.

8. you areso fun to work with, your genuine kindness is refreshing yet your seemingly positive veiw makes me wonder if you are just trying not to hurt anyone. i am glad i have gotten to know you better and hope that the trend continues. your awsome

9 . you need to get over the past and mature alitte, realize how others feel and control your actions. we have good times together but things will never turn out the way you want them to if something doesn't change.

10. i remember you when you where sweet and kind. and i wonder what happend. i think you ego got in the way and swallowed the best of you. you have talent but are throwing it away

11. i miss you. we had such a good thing going and then it just ended. i want us to be like that gain. i think if we try it will be. i know umwhere underneither the tough you are still you. i admire you for going through waht you have had to deal with, i wish i was there for you when you did .

12. i love your honesty. your so funy without even knowing it. so much tallent there. i love hanging around with you. and am looking forward to another good year

13. you've helped me through so much. i often dunno why you put up with all thr trouble i've given you. but your paitience show how much you really care. you make me feel special and i love how you are for me unconditionally. i hope i cheer you up and make your life better


14. you are often annoying and egotistical. you never accept other peoples abilties. i think you are loud and crude to cover your own weakensses

15. your silence amazes me. your insite into things is sometimes very humorus. i hope that when i am older i am as talented as you are and know as much. i'm glad to have gotten to know you and to work with you more.


i think this is fun. its interesting to see what you will say about people. of course it isnt; exactly what you think , but it gives a hint at it. ya knpw helps you short out how you feel about people... well thats all for now.. perhaps later i will post a bit of an update about the rest of my life.

tad ram rod

hello kiddie winkies. whats going down in the hood?.... yea i'm a big geek what it too ya....Punk!

anyways jsut chillen right now, waiting for people, dinner, time to pass. today was a day unlike yestersay, which was really fun for the most part, went to whisky creek for icecream , and spent the day in the sun, at night played some risk at gregoires, old school risk so i actaully had a chance to win . and i did.. you can now call me empress of the world. blue and black forever. dududu . however a weird occurance happend. i guess from sittign on the floor or whatever my like joints started to hurt... it started with my knees and bacl then then my whole legs ,back and a some of my arms where hurting, tres weird.

today i got many inturuptions of sleep so i got up around 9 somethign... went to brunch , then i thought i would get off my ass ans go get a job. lame. haha . so i went to the mall and applied at spencers gifts. Ran into nathan and ashley and jen .. chatted with them .. then walked aroudn the mall with nathan for a while haha went to chapers and had story time with nathan... RamRod!,,,haha " always" then i went and applied at white spot, it think they where looking for people so that sould be neat if i could get a job there. close and a stuff.. yea... other than that i havent; done much today ..pipers tongiht,.

Show opening tomorrow, that should be fun .. get to dress up all fancy like.. heh yay for fancy... go and look at the beautfil set that i helped to create, tear ,,,tear

on a random note... larua is home i saw her at the mall .. it made me happy.. call her or say hi if anyone gets a change... thats all for now.... byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

unimpeded possibility

i think today is going to be a great day. the sun is out again and i can actually enjoy it. i've decided to go on a misadventure today. last night was wonderfully refreshing. for the first time in i dunno how long it felt like i had no obligations. yesterday we finished the set for " If we are women " and i had my last exam. as of right now i don;t have anythign major planned until next week( that being school and working with doug) sometime i have to find a job, but anways...
last night i was lying on my lawn waiting for spencer to come over, and it was pretty warm out for night andi was just lying there thinking that it could be the middle of summer right now. that everyday could be as wonderful as that moment. then in a little bit spencer ashley and jenn showed up, and it was nicet o kinda hang around with my old friends.i gave jen my number and hopefully she will call me or soemthign. then nathan and tasha showed up and we chilled on my grass a bit more. nathan told me they where looking for someone at spencers, it would only be like 10 hours a week, but i might apply there and just get another job or get it until i find a better one.

Sitting on the grass then, reminded me of eyars ago when robert turgeon used to be walking by with whoever and he would call or loudly whisper my name.. and i would come out and we would sit on my lawn just like we did last night.it's like there is so much possibily, you can do whatever you feel like on an impulse, thats what summer is like to me tht probably why it reminded me of summer. i remember thinking last night that " i could stay out all night wandering around , hanging out and it wouldn't matter. hahah i dunno i just can;t get over how liberating that feeling is....
anyways
then that crew( nathan jenn tasha and ashley )
then spencer and i walked back over to his house and we went on the swings across the street. got to talk and catch up.then went back to his house and just hung around, and listend to APC. and it was like we went back in time a year ago cuz thats what we used to listen to when we where just doing nothing. i had nothing to worry about and it made me happy.... " dont; worry be happy" haha
so this morning i just woke up and was so liberated, i guess you could say, and today for the most part seems like a " what ever the fuck i wanna do" lisa day. i think i will start with making myself gorgeouse. that always helps to put me on the right track.. " i'm free i'm free" i dunno. haha ai'm like in this weirdmind frame right now, i just wanna enjoy this bit of summer while i have it ya know... like it;s not gonna stay warm like this for very long and i wanna live it.

wow i've been doign alot of time travel latley yesterday and the day before i was a day a head, last night i went back in time like 3 or 4 years and after that i went back to last year and now i wanna live a couple months from now...i am indecicive... i supose there in nothing wrong with living in time ( past or present) as long as you don;t wander there to long ( right *wink*) eeeeeeeee i'm so full of anything that i could burst... but i tink i will start by taking a shower manybe going tothe mall or somethign... but whatever it is.. i wil be wearing flip flops and pink shades....( well not in the shower)

~It is easy to take liberty for granted, when you have never had it taken from you.~
~In the truest sense, freedom cannot be bestowed; it must be achieved.~
~Freedom is the oxygen of the soul~
~Freedom means choosing your burden.~
~We feel free when we escape - even if it be but from the frying pan into the fire.~

all pro golfer

dudud , umm just thought i'd say thanks to everyone for saying nice things. just watching some family guy and relaxin with kylan, dudududu we went to the driving range earlier, ahaha I AM STILL THE DIVET QUEEN HHEHEHE last night we went tenpin bowling, i won both games hehehe hmm what eles is new. Ive been working on the theatre one production of " if we are women" tomorrow me and mike and megan are going to start the painting on the set. today i made a chicken out of that blue foam stuff....itlooks like a chicken...

anyways, pipers tomorrow thays gonna be fun. i can;t thinkright now but i just thought that i should update... dudud thank you and good night

p.s. "electic boogaloo"

It breaks my heart...

remembering how things used to be. not that it could be changed , i couldn;t see me in any other place right now. but it still breaks my heart to remember all the friends i left behind. they are all gone save for one, who thank go won;t let me go.
i went to coffee tonight with spencer, the last of my close friends that i used to have. which was fine until ashley and jenn and nathan came. ashley used to be my very best friend and now i can;t even talk to her. before tongiht i don;t remember the last time i talked to her, but i am sure that iwas an akward encounter. you know those friends where you can tell what they are thinking before they evern say anyhtign , you can just look at each other and know... well that used to be us. and now i don;t even know what to say. it makes me so sad. i started crying on the way home because, i just felt so lost and outca st.*sigh* I'm not saying that i dont' like the people i know now, i guess i just want to feel closer to more of them. i have kylan and he is great, i just wish i was closer to more peopel i guess.
i dunno what i am saying anymore. sometimes even though i am in a big group of people i feel so alone because no one really knows me( except for kylan) because no one ever listens.
i dunno , i guess it doesn;t matter, and things wont; really change unless i change, and make people listen... cuz people are just inconciderate.
i think thats all
p.s. fuck doing my essay tonight
p.p.s thank you klyan and spencer for reminding me that i matter to someone

The perils of procrastination

( correct spelling not included)
so i seems like everytimei have to do soemthign i go into super procrastination mode.. lame. i have my theatre history essay to write and i am currently... not writting. it.. havent;e ven started. anyways i also have a stage craft final on thursday that i shold do a little review for.

yesterday was the last day of classes not that we rewally had classes. we had our interviews though.. i guess mine went well. i don;t really knwow hat to say about it. also yesterday was the opening of Woyzeck . that went well i guess. i played the vcr , i guessi havetat againg tonight . hhmmm intersting . more crew hours anyways. hahaha ..... bloun OMG i am gonna miss the second years sooo much . life won;t be the same without them.
it;s kidan weird... cuz next year we will be the people that the first eyars are gonna miss.... it;s kinda crazy to thina bout . i can't wait till we see all the first years... but ... i'm gonna miss ou second years.

hmm


hmm
hmmm
i have nothing to write about but i dont; want to work i guess i willl take a shower ....maybe that will get me started in teh right direction .

End Of Year Camping

wass so much fun.. i should be cleaning up right now... but i got distracted by the fancy electronic box.. and i was like.... blogggggggg. so hre i am
like i said camping was super fun , boo erns to those whoe did not come, you are the ones who missed out..... i don;t feel like going into much detail... but there arwe afew sweet things i will meantion. yesterday whern kylan geoff and i got bacl from out trip to town , we where given "gather-er names" or wahtever and i am shiny tomahawk , umm i got to make camp fire toast... i love making toast over camp fires even if i don;teat it...
oh the first night when we where all aoournt the huge fire singing... that was awsome.. ahaha pams erection *thumbs up*, when we were all toasting things at the end of the night..... alex's rendez vous with the sheep.... i have picutres.

umm lots of other littl things over all a great time.

Oh just incase anyone doesnt; know yet, i am the president of satry players next year woot, can;t believe that i actaully got it.. rocks...

tomorrow is that last dayof class, and i don;t even really have class,, haha interviews with mike, leon and ross, i'm excited for those, i wanna know waht they think of me.. woot pot luck thingy too

oh i get to be an opp for woyzeck, thats super kewl. except that i have to get up early tomrorow but it;s weet cus i love love love doing shows. it;s worth it..

i needto get bacl to work before my rents return ( my brother is gettig them now) see ya all later

p.s. we must keep touch in summer

it looks sunny, but i know the clouds are hiding

today i intened to get up kinda ealy to work soem more on my essay ... and i guess it is still early.. but i don;t want to. SO I WILL WRITE A BLOG... haha....i lose. man the next week is going to be so chaotic. today i have to do my creative habit project that i have have been neglecting all year.which is due tomorrow moring at 8 30 . eeep
also today is the voting for the satyr player elective next year. i really wanna be president. and while at the same time as thinking i have a pretty good chance, i think that there is someway things won;t work out for me. i dunno why but it seems like it always happends to me. hmm and then i was thinking.... what if i did get to be president.. would people start to listen to me? i dunno why but i find that peopkle always tend to cut me off , because they think they have somethign more important to say. so generally i just give up. i'm actaully a really smart person with lots of good ideas if you actually listen. o well i guess i've gotten used to it.

I just know i could do a really great job, if i had the chance. that the main pit in my stomach for today ..wanting something so much , but trying not to be to dissapointed when i dont get it. I also have the read through for that theatre one play today ... it better be over by 12:30. OMG thas probably waht will fuck me over... i think life hates me seomtiems ...
anyways... so besides all that. i still have my essay to do fro english .... and then my essay for theatre history... and then my digital media video project... whichi is looking ok...

Camping is comming up this weekend. i am excited.. i made the sweetest map... so proud of it.. hahaha i hope everything works out great and no drunk people get lost in teh forrest...
after that weekends .. only one class left...OMG i still have to make my resume .. lame... and find a job... and stop spending money.. and go to the bank and actually se how much money i have... eep.. *scared*
anyways i should go cleam my house,,,,

p.s. i've decided i am going to be pretty today

new post new post lalala

so this is me delaying working on my essay , currently i am talking to my brother about Dnd...we are big nerds eh ... *sigh*... but damn ... anyways....essay in english... i have like no sources soo... yea.. don't wanna . so the past little while hmm lets go fron thursday... ddint; go to english ... went did soem stuff at my hosue i think.... then went to kylans and watched soem movies... stayed the night... the next day we went to lunch for my cousis birthday...yum lunch ... then kylan and i went on a long pointless journey ... which was frusterating... came back to my house... watched a movie fell asleep went to bed.... at like 9 30.. haha i know we are lame... we were gonna go out to the bar for my cousins birthdat as well but.. man just sooo tired... the next day .. we went to see ice age...yay kids movies.... OMG i just feel soo sorry for that little critter who wants the acorn... cuz he like never gets it... *cries* then after that we went on another drive to look for the camping spot .... augh and it turens out that we where going the right way the day before .. i was just to frusterated and impatiant and turned around. :Lame ...so we went off roading in my Miada.. tear it;s all dirty now... came home... made a very yummy dinner. made soem cupcakes.... chilled
kylan left, spencer came over and helped me to make a sock puppet. then i drove him to his house to ice a cake and then to a party..... lisa came home had a bath went to bed..... got up ... went to go skating ... no skating... came to nanaimo.. Got A&W yum yum .. played DnD... yay i finally leveled..... woot i'm a big nerd...

so thats pretty much a quick run down of my over so exciting past 4 days.... going camping next weekedn should be fun .. yaya fun... but befopre that i have my fucking dumb stupid english essay to do ... i think i will do very badly..... but who the fuck cares right now.... lame....
um umumumu read through for " if we were women "" on tuesday... i'm kinda excited fort aht.. lisa's first kinda profestionalist kinda show.. ... augh that rememinds me i need to do that poster for woitcheck,,,,,,or however you spell it...
to everyone who read my blog today ... i;m sorry for waisting your time... maybe i will invest in a better moer action packed life sometime
NOTE" no amimals where hurt during the making of this post
~love lisa~

long time no type....

haha ha i am i amusing... no i'm not . umm so close to being unsick, today is friday i spent like 3hours makigna rough edit of my project. blah... now i have a erally bad head ache... lame.. going to the festival shows tonight, should be interesting. baught a rose today, a single rose isn;t that expense, it make me wonder why people dont give them more oftem ... i should do that randomly...im sure i could make someones day. anyways, weird weather today sunny and raining... very windy...dudud my rents are leaving tomorrow for their like 2 and ahalf week trp.. you knwo what that means...
i'm gonna have to take care of kenny... *sigh* hahah man my head hurts.. i have just decided that i am going to paint my toe nails all pretty...
i have nothing new or interesting to say.
except that i miss DnD...
and my head hurts...
and OMG MY SCHOOL YEAR IS ALMOST OVER*cries*....
i'm going ot have to find a job....

IT:S OVER

so the show is over. yay... stirke took like 2 and a half hours/// i got to use my new drill...it;s name is lucy.. umm kylan and i where boring and did now attend the party after. we where uber tired and had to play soccer the next day ... we were ginny pigs fro joshes physcology experiment, doing it next sunday too.
monday OMG i finally painted somthign it had been forever... i did two painting that are pretty spiffy .
my body finally gave out after the show soooo i am sick. yesterday i had the worst sore throat ever... i;s kidan there today... but i got alot of sleep so hopefully that helped... i didnt; go to digital media this morning because when i woke up i felt sooo shitty.. and iw as like " well fuck that" whats the point of goign to class to learn if you can;t function anyways... so more sleep for lisa. hehe
wednesday tonight which means 1/2 price appies at pipers.. right on right on.... yea i think tahts all i got

"Holy fuck"

so i am in bed... i hear my kitten on the door, i let her in ..... i am now awake , i hear a crunching sound outside... i think to myself" hmmm that sounds like snow ... and then there was... i'm sorry i knowi tell bad stories... anyways... so lets see ONLY TWO MORE SHOWS yay ... *dances* what will i do with myself... i always wonder this... gues i'll get a job.. nothin much happpen in the past little while.. on wednesday me sara megan lee jordan and kylan went swimming and then to pipers pub for 1/2 priced appies... omg such a deal.. and then food is sooo good. we had sooo much food.. soo going back there. saturday is closing... it kidna up in the air weather we are partying at pams or jordans friends... personally i would like to go to pams ... just cuz i like being sith a smaller group of people that i know. and trust.
augh i have a doctors appointment today for my knee. i think it's for sure that i will be getting some sort of operation on my knee.*sigh* find out today anyways
well that all .. ttfn .. ta ta for now

finally 19

took along itme to get here. haha and it doesn;t feel much differnt. haha this past friday was my birthday..went out to dinner with my rents and spencer, then we had a showing of the orestia that night so no huge party... but after the show a group of us went to the foundrt and people baught me drinks hehe..a fireball muffdive from pam
bailys mufdive from becky
techilla shot from biff
a doctor peper from the bar tender
a china white from dawn
and a porn start from grammy/ kerry
all in 20 min haha.... needess to say i was a little drunk on the way to kylans a house... where we proceeded to have a small get to gether... the was chilling.. and some nake hot tubbing. that which is becomming the norm at get to gethers at kylans... i woke up the next day feeling pertty good... hehe had some a&w went to do my project.. had a nap... another show... balh balh... spent the whole day today lying in bed watchinb movies... it was so nice to have a day off. doing absolutly nothign... sleeping in too .. that is sweet. and omg i hardly know whoe to contain myself.. but ... . i have 3 nights off this week too... jeese god knows what i will do once the show is over.. guess i will start to look for a job...eep hahaha
anyways guess i'll go do stuff..

p.s. I got a cordless drill and a (red)staple gun for my brithday .. and i have decided they need names... any suggestions?

The rain smells beautiful tonight

just got home from a very long day ... started at 930.. and it is now 1:15... there was lots of paper macheing and paiting for lisa.... but it was so night to leave the theatre building cuz the air outside was so clean ... it was most refreshing... i just felt that i needed to share that. no i very much need some sleep probabl a shower since i am all painty.... but i really don;t have the energy ...

mmmm mini eggs

yaya for mini eggs they are soo damn deliciaose... whats up . sorry for no posting but i haven;t been home. the next three weeks i might as well just stay at the theatre. its reading break right now i'll be working everyday anyways... so .. where's the break .. i see no break. I AM ALMOST DONE ALL THE PROPS... omg, i'm actaully just finishing some now.. ok so i am taking a break to write a blog but whatever....

the last little while has been busy i guess it seems liek i haven;t done much.. but i thin i just can;t remember Oh friday was out hot date... i wore my new clothes . yay .. hehe.. hmm the nights have been spent working on props and watching bits of rehearsals.. on tuesday i said yes to a certain someone. umm Oh tomorrow i get to start painting things for the oresteia. augh after i finish some paper mache junk... it always comes bacl to haunt.

today i have been collecting sticks and working on torches. spencer came and helped me..hadn;t seen him in like forever. haha sorry we couldn;t do somethign more intereseting.. but i quite enjoyed your comontarty haha.. just.. never do it again.l haha
um um um .. i got a enw digital camera it is tres kewl. oh if anyone had any ideas of what i can do for my still image project tell me... basically it;s like a slide show with music and stuff but i dunno what to do it on. i can do it on anythign but myself. just leave me a acommnet if you have any ideas. super

anyways i better get bacl to my stick glueing / torch making comopetition " no one has ever made six before"
byyyyyyyyyyyyyeeeeeeeeeee

sleeping in

well i guess i didn;t really sleep on that much.. but the point is i didn;t go to digital media. it was just review. anyways so i really haven;t posed in forever. so i will start a while back.. the rest of the one acts went super.. we raised like 600 somthing $ in donations which is super hmmm then i guess the satureday after that is the next fun thing... there was a party at kaitlyns which was super fun, well superfun at the begiunning but anyways except for the fact that i only got like 2 hours sleep it was good..

the next morning me alleah and kylan when to mgm. mmm food.. then to thea theatre and then i went and played dnd... which was kinda back cuz i was hung over.. and like falling asleep but whatever. lets see... hmm then this week started, i guess it really wasn;t that long that i posted. it just seems like it. time goes by pretty fast.

yesterday i went to my first production meeting.. it was neat. i am really excited to be making props... not only making.. i'm in charge of them... woot.. they are gonna roxor.... and i found out that i have a 400$ budget.. taht fucken awsome... i'll probably use like 100 max... i cost less than 60$ for me to do the one acts. there really arn;t that many props, well i'm sure eliza will come up with some more.anyways

toga party this friday, then alleahs down with love party. then a build day... busy weekend for lisa. i have a presentaion for acting comming up i better get on that. then there are more builds5 more to be percise. i am gonna have sooo many crew hours.reading break is comming yup... i'll probably still be workiong on lots of set stuff though. but no classes! hehe muahaha... umm i don;t think i have anythign interestign say anymore..
but whatever

oh i had the kewlest dream last night.. i woke up feeling happy.

Busy Busy Busy

figure i should update. so i got up earlyer than usual to work on my english essay. which should be done by today but thanks to alexes barganing skills , we can hand it in on thursday. i 've written about 1/2 of it.. and i supose if i tried i could make it to theatre history.. but i do;t wanna and i would only there for like na hour cuz i have my crew call for the one acts.. they are going good.. yup .. yup.. if you haven;ts een it yet come and see it.. um um um um .. so no alot of time... i've also just decided that i probably wont; go to english today either... *shrug* i am just bored anyways.. i dunno exaclty when i will fisnish my essay .... becaseu there is just no time this week for anythign... febuary is going to be nuts.. right after the one act festical we start on the oresteia and allt he month i willl be making props and working on awsome set stuff i am uber excited,but i will probably be dissapearing for amonth or so ... haha 3 parties comming up to... man theater life .. hahaha... um um umu one day i think i am going to buy myself a perfesional massage.. my back is just so messed and tense and my whole body aches *dies* OOO maybe for my birthday ... just over a month now.. wow haha finally 19. anwyas lisa = hungry.. so i think that i willl be jetten . lalala

*sigh*

so it sucks when people forget about you... especially your friends. it;s a funny thing when you are alone and you start to hope they forgot about you.. and didn't just decide that they had something better to do... it sucks/hurts either way. it;s almost 12, i;ve been staying up with the hope of some human contact for tonight... even if it is only for a short while... as i am already tired. i've just been reading all night.. my eyes are very tired and are kinda having a hard time focasing. i went to tim hortons becuase i desired something sweet. there where a bunch of little people... well like 14.. but they are still little.. i felt pathetic becuase i was alone.Ha .. as i was leaving the house my dad asked where iw as going... i told him to tim hortons for coffee... and my brother asked... "with who" with and insinuating inflection ... and i said no one..... i just want a doughnut...
horibble story i know.. but i never have been good at telling stories. not the my tired bored state helps.
i should be getting a message soon. feels like the from the only person i can really count on to be there for me
you and your little poems..haha thought if you think about it.. it was kinda creepy. but i like it very much.
i know i'm somthign to someone..
oh dear . going down hill........... thump. starting to ramble because i have nothing to say .hmm hmm

i saw underworld evolution last night i really liked it.. haha kinda i guess cuz of the love story.. i'm a big sucker for such. i like happy ending what can i say. i also went to the doctor yesterday so apparenty there is most likley a peice of caralige floating around in my knee.. i went to get X rays.... umm... had chinese food for dinner but we got it from somewhere diffenent and i was dissapointed with the sweet and sour pork... there was too much sour not enough sweet. * shrug*
DnD tomorrow.. yay for being nerdy.it will be fun ... though definatly not as fun as last sunday *grins* perhaps i will level though... Nerdy nerdy nerdy.. more nerdy talk

monday i have acting class with ross again... lame... i hate ross. um umumum

waiting still 10 after 12... waiting. please don;t dissapoint me... i don; think i can take any more today

tomorrow

CITT tomorrow ..that should be f.. u .. n fun ! hehe .. a techie convention yay . anyways. hmmmmmmmm baught some new shoes today ... 5$ they are pretty ok . not quite what i was looking for but for 5$ i can;t compain... but i can;t complain about the 5$ that fell out of my pocket somewhere int eh world....lame... lame.. so i will pretend that they are 10$ shoes...... *shifty eyes* been busy latly... doing stuff... i really gotta get cracken on the props stuff. umm oh while shopping i also baught a belt to put my hand cuff belt buckle on .. but i can;t figure out how to work it exactly... man am i dumb... belts are expensive eh.. it cost me almost 30$.... eeps.... there was also this lovley coat on sale that i would have liked to buy but,,,,, more money... so yes..... umm umm umm .. i dunno nothing very interesting.. just thought i would up date.

oh... for anyone who cares... the grade 11/ 12's final show is next week i am gonna guess thursday and friday .. they are doing coarse shows i'm gonna be there you should go

ANd.....

the week after that Jan 30 , 31.. Feb 1,.2.... mal- U theatre * cough* thats my people..... are putting on our one act festival .. ever night is different so come more than once... but for sure come wed or thurs cuz thats when my play is... i;m not in it... but that doesn;t matte... it;s the best,....

the shows and the nights they are on ...
Mon
- choice for life
- what color animal are you
-jacks pants
- this is a play

Tues
- choice for life
- its tought to be some body
-naomi in the living room
- this is a play

Wed
- jacks pants
- sherlock holmes
-DELIVER US NOT
- naomi in the living room
- the line that picked up 1000 babes

Thurs
- it;s tough to be somebody
- DELIVER US NOT
- sherlock holmes
- the line that picked up 1000 babes
- what color animal are you

you guys should so come and see my play.....*shakes fist*
if you wanna know what any of them are about just comment and ask me ttyl *heart*

stop proving me right, my thoughts to be correct, fears to be true
my head is heavy, aching with the tears i won't cry. the dropplets
that hide behind my smile
my sneer

I am wonderful, amazing, beautiful
thank you for saving me from the heart i though i had
from my hopes of happiness

there is no point to this , none has been shown
I never want to feel invisible again

Cest Fini

after 3 days of working on it , it is finished... the most amazing bonsai tree to be created out of card board, papermache and fabric!.. oh i can;t forget he maccoroni noodles... holly fuck i don;t know how much of my life i wasted making it but it looks awsome... if you think otherwise i am gonna slap you.

my face and hair are soft.

i feel soo tired, i got lots of sleep but i am just so mentally exsaused it's not funny. my head just kinda hurts enough to not make me wanna think about anyhting . it;s like everything is foggy. i wok eup this morning feeling really crappy. i came to the reviation that i was a big bitch last night... not like mean bitchy but annoying bitchy. i feel bad and am sorry for it.. i think i'm subconsiouly trying to sheild myself from greif..... i dunno if that makes sence but it sounds good right now so i will leave it.... dudud talked to laura yesterday and on like fed the 4th i am gonna go and viste with her in victoria and stay the night at her house. hehe it will be fun if i don;t get lost trying to find where she is... i'm not very good with directions and victoira is big and scary hahaha i know it;s not that big... but i am really bad at dirations... i need to clean my room . there are like clothes everywhere... i can get everything all sorted out as soon as my mom finishes my dresser

la di da.... i wonder lonley as a cloud that floats on golden daffodls... hahaha anyong remember the comercial with the girrafe....anyone * runs and hides*

i think tomorrow i will go and buy some raspberry juice... it;s driving me nuts that i have none....
OMG i have grammy buns. fuck yea...

so i think i have nothing eles, well not that i had alot anyways... intesting to say

g'day to you

yesterday sucked

i thik i want a coffee. so i don;t really feel like going into it, but yesterday sucked big time. omg the weirdest thing.. spencer phone me at like 1:45.. why... spencer i don;t understand. i can;t belive that i actaully picked up the phone.. like i tink it was on vibrate... anyways i had to lookat my phone this morning to make sure that i wasn;t a dream. apparently itr wasn;t... why did you phone me then?? i'll probably see you before you read this .. but still confssed lisa

today i have my first digital media course.... eep it should actaully be my second but i missed monday. cuz i am dumb. so i hope every thign will work out ok. i'm gonna be all alone. i hope know someone... anyone i better get started on making props and gathering them tonight, i was gonand o it yesterday, but didn't... i'm so worried and frustrated about getting a shedual put to gether for my one act play. seeing as i don;t have full sheduals from jc or ace and kylan wants the rehearsals not to be at night... but there isn;t like any time int he day , i'm suposed to get a work shedual from him today but somehow it seems i won;t get it and we will waiste more time being inconsis. i think i hate stage managing... i supose it;s my fault i knew that before when i did it for ace. it;s one of those jobs where you feel stepped on .. well at least i do cuz i don;t like tp create conflict so i will try to do what everyone eles wants to do. and wow do i just love being stepped on and taken advantage of and left unapriciated ... the list goes on... and less than a month too , i hope people have been memorizing there a scripts
O god today is not shappin up to be the best day either