unimpeded possibility

i think today is going to be a great day. the sun is out again and i can actually enjoy it. i've decided to go on a misadventure today. last night was wonderfully refreshing. for the first time in i dunno how long it felt like i had no obligations. yesterday we finished the set for " If we are women " and i had my last exam. as of right now i don;t have anythign major planned until next week( that being school and working with doug) sometime i have to find a job, but anways...
last night i was lying on my lawn waiting for spencer to come over, and it was pretty warm out for night andi was just lying there thinking that it could be the middle of summer right now. that everyday could be as wonderful as that moment. then in a little bit spencer ashley and jenn showed up, and it was nicet o kinda hang around with my old friends.i gave jen my number and hopefully she will call me or soemthign. then nathan and tasha showed up and we chilled on my grass a bit more. nathan told me they where looking for someone at spencers, it would only be like 10 hours a week, but i might apply there and just get another job or get it until i find a better one.

Sitting on the grass then, reminded me of eyars ago when robert turgeon used to be walking by with whoever and he would call or loudly whisper my name.. and i would come out and we would sit on my lawn just like we did last night.it's like there is so much possibily, you can do whatever you feel like on an impulse, thats what summer is like to me tht probably why it reminded me of summer. i remember thinking last night that " i could stay out all night wandering around , hanging out and it wouldn't matter. hahah i dunno i just can;t get over how liberating that feeling is....
anyways
then that crew( nathan jenn tasha and ashley )
then spencer and i walked back over to his house and we went on the swings across the street. got to talk and catch up.then went back to his house and just hung around, and listend to APC. and it was like we went back in time a year ago cuz thats what we used to listen to when we where just doing nothing. i had nothing to worry about and it made me happy.... " dont; worry be happy" haha
so this morning i just woke up and was so liberated, i guess you could say, and today for the most part seems like a " what ever the fuck i wanna do" lisa day. i think i will start with making myself gorgeouse. that always helps to put me on the right track.. " i'm free i'm free" i dunno. haha ai'm like in this weirdmind frame right now, i just wanna enjoy this bit of summer while i have it ya know... like it;s not gonna stay warm like this for very long and i wanna live it.

wow i've been doign alot of time travel latley yesterday and the day before i was a day a head, last night i went back in time like 3 or 4 years and after that i went back to last year and now i wanna live a couple months from now...i am indecicive... i supose there in nothing wrong with living in time ( past or present) as long as you don;t wander there to long ( right *wink*) eeeeeeeee i'm so full of anything that i could burst... but i tink i will start by taking a shower manybe going tothe mall or somethign... but whatever it is.. i wil be wearing flip flops and pink shades....( well not in the shower)

~It is easy to take liberty for granted, when you have never had it taken from you.~
~In the truest sense, freedom cannot be bestowed; it must be achieved.~
~Freedom is the oxygen of the soul~
~Freedom means choosing your burden.~
~We feel free when we escape - even if it be but from the frying pan into the fire.~