it looks sunny, but i know the clouds are hiding

today i intened to get up kinda ealy to work soem more on my essay ... and i guess it is still early.. but i don;t want to. SO I WILL WRITE A BLOG... haha....i lose. man the next week is going to be so chaotic. today i have to do my creative habit project that i have have been neglecting all year.which is due tomorrow moring at 8 30 . eeep
also today is the voting for the satyr player elective next year. i really wanna be president. and while at the same time as thinking i have a pretty good chance, i think that there is someway things won;t work out for me. i dunno why but it seems like it always happends to me. hmm and then i was thinking.... what if i did get to be president.. would people start to listen to me? i dunno why but i find that peopkle always tend to cut me off , because they think they have somethign more important to say. so generally i just give up. i'm actaully a really smart person with lots of good ideas if you actually listen. o well i guess i've gotten used to it.

I just know i could do a really great job, if i had the chance. that the main pit in my stomach for today ..wanting something so much , but trying not to be to dissapointed when i dont get it. I also have the read through for that theatre one play today ... it better be over by 12:30. OMG thas probably waht will fuck me over... i think life hates me seomtiems ...
anyways... so besides all that. i still have my essay to do fro english .... and then my essay for theatre history... and then my digital media video project... whichi is looking ok...

Camping is comming up this weekend. i am excited.. i made the sweetest map... so proud of it.. hahaha i hope everything works out great and no drunk people get lost in teh forrest...
after that weekends .. only one class left...OMG i still have to make my resume .. lame... and find a job... and stop spending money.. and go to the bank and actually se how much money i have... eep.. *scared*
anyways i should go cleam my house,,,,

p.s. i've decided i am going to be pretty today