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i hate it when the blogger sign in decided that your sign in infor just isn;t good enough to sign you in ... and it;s all dumb and stuff.
umm today was allright.. i was very worked up this morning then i had art and i just became full of hate for my dumb teacher, aughjdhfaskhfklash.... then i was find and happy and then happyer that my class was cancled.
soo that was my emotional veiw of today... approprate because it was indeed emo monday
sadly i don;t think that geoff got the point. i dunno about you guys but i dressed up to mock him. yea it;s fun and all but i'm still miffed at what he said. and still wouldn;t mind punching him in the face.*shrug* but o well
i probably won;t get angry enough to do it at the right time. it;s a shame . i;ve always wanted to punch someone... they have to deserve it though

hmm other than that there are lots of things i gotta get done. which is lame and stress filled .. i am excited for citt. um um umu

OMG i had the best meal ever today. it was a roast with mashed potatoes and gravy.. and broccoli.. mmmm one of my fave meals... so good. .aksdaksj;l

i kinda wanna have a nap now, but i wanna go see kaitlyn, cuz i miss her. it;s weird i was over there for like a week or 2 and then i haven;t been and yea... sad.

anyways thats all i've got

muahahahahahha

61 Odd Questions.

1.) Do you talk in your sleep?
sometimes

2.) Red Jello or Blue Jello?
Blue

3.) Whats the song thats getting on your nerves right now?
i don't think there is one

4.) Favorite Food Group:
meatand potatoes

5.) What's your favorite color(s)?
blue, red

6.) Window seat or aisle seat?
aisle

7.) Ever met anyone famous?
i don' think so

8.) Do you feel that you've had a truly successful life?
umm it's been pretty good, but i hope ive got a ways to go

9.) Do you twirl your spaghetti or cut it?
actaully i grab some and hold it up then bit off 1/2 of it and suck that up... it;s proably not the most atracive way to do it

10.) Who do you like - Ricky Lake or Oprah Winfrey?
neither....

11.) Basketball or Football?
baseball

12.) How long do your showers last?
15min

15.) Are you self-conscious?
sometimes

16.) Have you ever given money to a bum
i dunno , it;s a possibility

18). Where do you wish you were?
on a beach somewhere

19. Have you ever ridden in an ambulance.
no

20.) Can you tango?
nope

21.) Last gift you received?
i cannot recall

22.) Last sport you played?
probably soccer.. haha which is funny

23.) Things you spend a lot of money on?
food, gifts for people, clothes/ random wants

26) Favorite FAST food restaurant?
A&W!

27) What food will you not eat?
tofu, i don;t understand it and it scares me

28) Can you sing?
ummm kinda sometimes .. not while i;m driving

30) What's your least fav. chore
washing the dishes.. it makes me hands all soggy

31. Favorite Drink.
rootbeer, or apple juice, or raspberry juice or cocktails

32) Are you a vegetarian?
Hahahahahaha

33) Do you believe in Heaven?
no

34) Do you miss someone?
yes

35) Have you ever come close to dying?
Nope

37) Are you eating?
i was... but now no

38) Do you eat the stems of broccoli?
yes if they are conneted to the tops of the broccoli...

39) Do you wear makeup?
yes

40) Whats your worst fear?
natural disasters or getting pregnant

41) Would you ever have plastic surgery?
nah
42) What do you wear to bed?
depends, pj pants and tank top/t-shirt.... or nothing....

45) What kind of shoes do you wear usually?
brown shoes
46) Do you want kids?
yes , but i am already scared for them

47) Future child's name?
i like boys names for girls... like alex or jo...

50) Do you snore?
a little bit i think

51) If you could go anywhere in the world where would it be?
venice or hawaii

52) Do you sleep with stuffed animals?
negative... i sleep with a rock

53) If you won the lottery, what would you do?
i would build a theatre, or just work in theatre for the rest of me life

54) Gold or silver?
Silver

55) Hamburger or hot dog?
thats a hard one... depends on the mood i like em both

56) If you could only eat one food for the rest of your life, what would it be ? potatoes, cuz you can cook them soo many ways... mashed , baked,fried, fried potaote sticks

57) City, beach, country?
beach

58) What was the last thing you touched?
before the keyboard, the mouse

59) What did you eat last?
nachoes

60) When was the last time you cried?
the 19th , i had a stressful day

61) Do you read blogs?
*blush*,,, i do sooo not look at everyones blog like 3 times a day

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1. Honestly, what color is your underwear?
i'm not wearing any ... take that question 1

2. Honestly, whats on your mind right now?
all of the work that i have been/am .. putting off, and how it is gonna suck to actaully do it
3. Honestly, what are you doing right now?
these surveys.. yay survey...

4. Honestly, what did you do today?
worked

5. Honestly, do you think you are attractive?
yes, but not all the time
6. Honestly, have you done something bad today?
no i don;t think so

7. Honestly, do you watch disney channel?
no

8. Honestly, are you jealous of someone right now?
ummm no actaullay

9. Honestly, what makes you happy most of the time?
eating, being with friends, cupcake, sex

10. Honestly, do you bite your nails?
only when they get cracked and then i bite the rest off

11. Honestly, what is your mood right now?
ummm upbeat i supose thoughi am exaused

12.Honestly, have you had an eating disorder?
umm not really, but i guess you could kinda say yes... but no

13. Honestly, do you want to see someone this very minute?
Yes...

14. Honestly, do you have a deep dark secret?
indeed

16. Honestly, do you hate someone right now?
umm kinda, it;s probably not realy hated though

17. Honestly, who/what do you want to hug right now?
kaitlyn, my kitten , spencer

18. Honestly, are you loyal?
yes

19. Honestly, are you in denial?
a little bit

20. Honestly, wouldn't you rather be having sex right now?
umm no actually i'm kinda tired

21. Honestly, who is your best friend?
spencer and kaitlyn

22. Honestly, have you ever consumed alcohol?
no...

23. Honestly, do you like someone?
maybe...

24. Honestly, does anyone like you?
the answer is yes
25. Honestly, is it going anywhere with them?
i like where it is

26. Honestly, did you answer all these questions honestly?
yes i belive i did


so that was some fun to get me going on this post, cuz i need to update but i don;t have a lot to write and well i needed something to distract me from actually doing my art project. i have to make a colage but all the pics i already cut up are at school. so i have to start all over again. augh.. i remembered that i had to do it last night and then i got to work all day.. wee then tomorrow i get to finish my other art project...

OMG tomorrow i get my stove back , yay i can have real food. yay anyways this weekend has been quite agreeable. though packed with much work.i am excited for lots of things comming up, mostly moving out. oh i dunnot thing i actaully mentioned to anyone.. but after or 1/2 way throug the summer or w.e i am going to move out, and possibly live with kaitlyn. which would be very sweet, i think that we have agreeing habit and temperments. anyways i would love to move out asap however it would be wise to work a while in the summer and save up some funds. i am also planning the things that iwill need and i shall stock up on them before i move out so i have everthing. *nods* good plan eh...
anyways i dunno whateles i want to write... if i think of somethign i'll come back . but right now i am having a bath..

on my drive home i listened to my thoughts,

and i think i'm going deaf.don;t you hate that. when there are just so many things going on inside your head that listening to quiet music seems too loud.
uuuuggggg*clutches tummy* i just can chow down 2 papa burgers like i used to. i want my kitchen back , then i can eat real food again. soon Soon!
things have been really up and down for me the past little while. it;s like at one moment everything is perfect,but the next moment none of it exists. it isn't allowed to. and as much as i try to stay positive that things will be better again. it is hard for me to make that transition sometimes. i've been finding school particularially draining this year, or this semester rather. like mondays and wednesday with the overlapping classes, or the rushing to meetings after other classes. it's like everything is going so fast and i am stumbling to keep up. running for my next minut of peace my next moment of " happyness" hahaha i am so dumb... w/e never mind

*sigh/ deep breath* btw this isn;t anything but me letting things go. i'm not that great at etting things out there, i'm getting better but still , i'm pretty bad at it. andwell writting things helps me get them out.

you know what bugs me.. when you have something that you want to say, and youthin kabout it.. and find exactly what you wanna say, but when the moment comes, the words just don;t seem right or you forget. that happens to me all the time drives me nuts, thats kidna why it's better to write things. though when i actually have somethign important to say i never do because that would be kinda cheesy/ silly. *shrug*

my world on blood

you are my blood.this high that you feed. this high that i feel. it eats the pain of life . the troubles of reality. i am free and my wildest dreams become reality. but then i can see it comming. the crash. the world stops
colours are not as bright. the world has become dull as if covered in a haze of dust. this dust covered reality i see. i dream of those colours, until can drink of that blood again...
and be free.

i enjoy how writting something can make you feel better, even if only for a little while.

this is my new post

today
hmm weird, for some reason there is a line under my typing, i don't knwo hoe to fix it omg. anyways. today . worked. not that hard though. i was kinda bored for parts but o well. it is over now. came home and had a nice bath*nods* yea all right. i have nothing really super duper to say.

yesterday i went to the film festival at the school. there where some pretty sweet ones. i wish i had awesoem ideas like that. o well . came home earlyish and went to bed cuz i had an ugle head ache.
i've been thinking alot about things that i wanna do, for a while now.like for next year and stuff. like i used to have a plan, but then the world changed a little and now it looks like there is something better. well maybe not better but differnt that i think is best for me.*shrug*... ok bare with me... i have this intuition( belive it or not) that i know when things are right for me. it doesn;t work for everything.. like it;s more like i know if i am ready for something. normally if i get this its like, whatever it is becomes so clear as to what i should do. and in my head it's " this is what i am going to do" there are no doubts, i just know. anyways. we will see what my rents think. and really it;s not that big of a change it;s just what i want/feel i need.
i dunno if some of you will be excited or dissapointed in what i am doing or really if you care at all. but i'm putting it out there.. without putting it out there i guess... i gotta have some surprises.

oh yea. soooo also my parents aregoing away from feb 23- mar 10th. away for my b-day on the 3rd.. they better bring me back soemthign *shakes fist* no jkjk.. like i need anything. but mayhaps we can have that girls night or a mini/ casual cocktail party, cuz i don;t want my house wrecked and don;t wanna have a big party with many drunks, however i love cocktails and it would be silly for me to drink alone. ahaha right right..
just putting that out there too


yar

emo post......: P

i am soo tired. i dunno why. today started out great, like driving to school i was in the best mood in the world, when i got to school i fluke dout and got a spot at the top. after stage craft thought things just kinda went down hill. rushing around to get things done, going to a long pointless art class. i got to learn how to use a ban saw... never used one of those before..ha. kaitlyn and i made some props but we where both like dead. so now i am home maybe i will read or something.

>>> this is a drawing i did last year in english. i like it. i kinda wish there was a bigger person than me that could just pick me up and carry me in there hands.. like. i dunno if that makes sence but for me , in my exaused state the thought of not haveing to walk around and stuff is pretty sweet. anyways i was just looking through my art and decided to share it.

i cannot wait for this week to be over. i will have no more dumb rehearsals , or plays like that to worry about. however i do have media stuff and art that i will have to do. augh.
i just want to relax, i want to have fun. so many things just agrivate me. augh fuck i want my glasses. driving me nuts.*sigh* i am unsure as to what i should be doing, how i should act sometimes. there are things about life that are funny. i hope that you understand me a little better now that you have been where i am been. or maybe not. i wonder sometimes if my life is all in my head...

i better go lie down now, before i hurt my self with philosophy.
much love
~lisa~

My little mouse is very hungry

went to the mall yesterday with kaitlyn, cam back with some sweet shat. some new earings, a necklace that is a big black heart, ohh so symbolic. hahaha. 3 long sleeve shirts 2 foxy dresses. and the sweetest head band ever.
oh and new underwear. there is somthign magic about new underwear. it just makes you feel hot. and of course when i finally got home i tried on each pair in front of the mirror... and boy did i feel hot. got 2 pairs( blue and pink) of lacy boy shorts, some satiny ones, and one that says" my little mouse is very hungry. i know most people don;t actually care about my underwear but i figure unless i get really lucky, i won;t get to show many people or share .. ya know. anyways now you know and now they may live in darkness in peace

" my little mouse is very hungry:" so cute. the poor little guy. sooo hungry. if only he had some cheese to satisfy him. a nice stick of cheese for a nibble on> * evil grin* i know how you feel little buddy. i could go for a stick of something to nibble on myself.

today at work, was alot of work. my day started out very well i was quite happy, happiest i have been in along time. all i had to worry about was work. but then i got tired of working , and it was less good. rushed to stupid rehearsal to be there for 1/2 hour. lame. and now i am home
i am kinda excited for tomorrow. i get to year my new clothes... in particular that i am excited for is my hair band. i pretty much love it.

and now for some retorical ranting
why why why must i be like ya know... sometimes. with the wanting of the not getting yeesh. *cries* and me with the more difficult of the stuff with the akward angles, augh. and the dumbness.... i guess what i am really saying is this sucks.
.. poor little guy. why you gotta be like that with the goodness and ya know, it;s not your fault i just gotta control the animal, but sometimes he gets all caged up, and could use a little run in the yard ,some excersize. hahaha oh lisa lisa lisa what are we going to do with you.

anyways i apologize for that. everyone has their vacation days from reality. i'm in cuba right now... mmmmm.... warm....

i will see you tomorrow, yay.
*dances*.... some more *dances*
dududud
omg this post just doesn; want to end.
i'm not bored i swear.
goodnight and LovE

the monster

there is a monster. it is green. it is ugly. it has stone skin that is cold as ice. the monster thinks only of the monster. it is fed with sadness. it grows stronger with fear. it is weakened by happiness. however it cannot be killed. the monster has a mind of it's own. it will not listen to reason. it crushes hope for fun. it will eat your soul for breakfast.
there is a monster. it lives inside me.

tortured artist

Oh my soul is dieing
my dog has run away
now my lovers left me
i just can't face the day

my paintings are not beautiful
my tallents gone array
i need a bowl of ice cream
to help me face the day

i need to dye my hair again
the black has gone away
can't stand it when my roots show through
how will i face the day

no one listends to my whining
i'm sooo misunderstood
people should appriciate me
i won't face the world today

blacks my favorite color
my life is not okay
i'm such a tortued artist
why bother face the day

random thought

Who is that stranger looking out at me
seeing beyond the borders of simple sanity
does she see what i see?
why can't i recognnize this person? me

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i just thought i would get some writtng out. some of those are old, some are new. i dunno about you but i think that i can have some pretty poetic thoughts... well you might not be able to tell from these but the other things that i write sometimes. they are pretty deep. slightly tortured.. even .. prehaps... i guess i can be a true artist ... since i'm all tortued and stuff. anyways. it;s always night to have people read waht you write sometimes. like i'm sure there are quite afew of us who have a book. not really a journal or diary but more of a place of refuge. where when they get to be to much all your thoughts go to live in writting. do you ever look back through your book? i do. you can see how you where feeling. what changed. what was important to you when. it's crazy to think about it, well for me. looking back 4 years in time( thats how long i've had the same book, it;s almost full now) and knowing exactly how i felt. imagine that in 10 years or 20. it kinda blows my mind a bit. just a little thought i don't have a lot to spare.

i am working towards something. i don't know how i will do it. i want to control it. i want to defeat the monster. however i don't any weapons. WHAT WILL I DO WITHOUT A GREATSWORD... jkjk.. i don't mean anything, or expect that you come to a final conclusion. i will try with all my will power. it's not that great though, like plus 2 or somthing. but that doesn't mean i'm not trying. there are times when i wish things could just be easy, but i guess that if they where they wouldn't be worth fighting for... right.

i would like to wish all that read this a delightful weekend. i hope you have good sexy times.

loVE

p.s. je t'aime petit gâteau

" famous people aways get sex, thats the main reason it;s good to be famouse"

" we are creatures of the underworld , we can't afford to love"

so today was a pretty good day i slept in , went out to see a movie.. children of men.. man that was intense. sad at some parts and kinda sticks with you. still good though. then went out for coffee and then sent spencer on his way to work. *sad face* i then came home and had a sweet dinner and watched movies with my dad.. yea thats right. we watched moulon rouge and the italian job. haahaha the funny thing is( well i think it;s funny) is my dad put on moulin rouge then i wanted to watch the itallian job...
i remember when i first went to go and see moulin rouge. it thought it was so amazing, like just the way it was filmed with the camera angles and stuff. and i loved the songs. what can i say i;m a sucker for musicals. anyways i thought i was so beautiful. i decided that i was a a bohemina revolituonary becuase i belive in truth beauty and above all things love!
" love is like oxygen , love lifts us up all you need is love"
hahah of course this was in grade 9 before i had actaully been in love and had my heart broken for the first time. *shrug* aaaa what wisdom comes with life experience.

i was walking today. and i had a thought. suddenly i fell to my knees in pain... no jk
i was thinking that normaly when you change( like we are always changing like little things about our personalities and stuff, ) yoyu don;t notice it. it;s so gradual that it;s like " OH wow...."
but today i just felt like a part of me was differnt. not bad different in anyway. i can't exaclty descrive it, but i think i might like it. i just wonder if it;s like a thing that is ust for now or somethign that will stick around. anyways

here are some wise words given to me from chocolate.
"let us enjoy our love, as long as we may"
" treat your friends as you would your paintings and show them in their best light"

i dunno exactly what the second one means but i like it becuase it talks about my paintings*wink* haahah and the first wel thats just chaulk full of relivancy.

and now i shall leave you with some more wisdom and mushyness from the moulin rouge...
because it;s beautiful...

" the greatest thing you'll ever learn is just to love, and be loved in return"

" never knew i could feel like this , like i'd never seen the sky before, want to vanish inside your kiss, everyday i love you more and more, seasons may change, winter to spring, buti love you till the end of time"

yesterday was ok

had a dentist appointment, went through some old pictures for my portfolio and stuff.i found some really great other stuff. it made me happy, but now i miss it, it makes me sad
today does is not going to be a good day i can feelit right now, i work 1:30 till 10 and i already feel like shit. it's like i am always waiting... but when something arrives, it leave right away.

just picking up the pieces

so... it;s been a rought little while to say the least. today was a bit better got some misunderstandings sorted out. hopefully things will stay alright. i feel really dumb about some things now that i am calmed down. i didn;t really mean all that i said, i was very upset. i wonder what tomorow at work will be like. things often become negative when i am left alone to my thoughts. but for now, i;m alright
aught 2 more days of work. dudud
i baught a cocktail book today, i have to read through it and pick out soem recipes to try, and once i work offmy christmas expenses maybe i will continue expanding my liquor collection.
i can;t wait for summer, i miss the warmth and fun and stuff. but i will be really sad that the progam will be over for me.. it;s gone by so freaken fast.... HALF THE YEAR... gone already.
time flies,. i remember when i was little, it took forever for things to happen and now they are just here and gone. it;s fucken nuts
anyways
umm thats all i guess, i wanna thank the aka house for putting up with me for the past little while, i like haning out with you guys. and stuff i guess
( i swear i had somethign eles but i forget now)

by-ee

last night as i slept i held your heart in my hand

how amusing life is, i thought last newyears was sure to be the worst... sure was wrong there wasn;t I. i don;t know what to do now.i cannot hide forwever, I have one week to pull myself together before i have to face her. the pit in my stomach. i don;t knwo waht people know, i know i haven;t said anything to anyone. i wonder if she has. probably. and those people are probably all for it, on your side, thinking i deserve what i get. maybe i do, but that doesn't change the feeling my world has been turned around. then ripped form me.

you better make him happy. because he deserves it and all the world. he is the most amasing and interesting person i have ever met and i love him with everypart of me.
i'm sorry but
all the love i have for him, is how much i hate you
it;s nothing personal. i like who you are, just not what you've done to me
it;s alright, i have a week to get over it
i hope you try to understand what it's like

1X

music is an amazing thing. it can make you realize thing and change your mood and view and give you insipiration to do great things. i am compleatly lost when it comes to creating or knowing the "ways of music". but i appriciate it greatly.
it;s intersting to find somethign that just fits into your life. that explains it. somestimes you find the soundtrack to your life, and you realize that someone somewhere eles understands what you feel. you get the breif reasurrance that your not compleatly crazy. understand that i have no idea what i am talking about, there is just this thought in my head that makes compleate sence and it;s makeing me feel better. not that many people would care to know that i haven;t been feeling "better" as it where however, for now i have a little drive to i dunno, i guess look at me differntly.. that sounds so lame. i need to help myself before this goes to fari'm already scared of it...it;s like subconsiouse punishment or something. and i dunno how it got started.*shutter*
i cannot wait for school again. i need my family back.

"On this bed I lay, Losing everything, I can see my life
passing me by, Was it all too much, Or just not enough,
Wake me up, I'm living a nightmare
I will not die, I'll wait here for you"

i'll never forget you

so today was christmas. it was fairly alright, i have found that over the apst few years i have been loosing my christmas spirt dropping to an all time low this year however there where some moments that while not neccisarially being christmasy made it a day that is worth remembering
~ the best present my brother has given me. he wrote a short story dedicated to me. it;s a fantacy one about a battle. this might seem not the more exciting thing but right now he is writting a fantacy novel and i think that it is really great , like he is perfest for writting it. anyways he is already famous to me so i think it is great
~exchanging gifts , recieveing something that i will cherish and getting the longest hug ever. i hope you are happy with your gift and you remember what is written by you and myself. we are wise people, maybe just not all the time.
~ and finally a crazy short film that was produced by myself and my twin who is 6 years older than myself. i hope to have it here for you as soon as she DL's it. it features holly, blue chapstick the cheerio and a domino. talks of a sequil are in the making.

i hope everyone had a great day.
LoVE

i miss you a little you could say, a little to much , a little to often , and a little more each day.

and it;s time for a new post

sooo the past two days have been super busy work wise. but i have 4 days off now yay. after dinner tonight i am going out with matt to the crazy mall so hje can do his christmas shopping and i can pick some stuff up.
the past two nights i went to see the christmas carol, the second time was better. i dunno why exactly but shmea. hehe i gave everyone in the cast and crew a carnation, becuase i know that it;s night to get flowers from people after a play ummm .. then i hung out with spencer. it was nice i had a really good time. better than i would have had at the closing night party, i am sorry that i didn;t go , but i haven;t really been in the party type mood latley.

tomorrow i am going to visit kylans family becuase they love me. hahaha and then it;s megan's birhtday tomorrow! i am excited gonna buy that girl some drink and have a real good time.
the omg it;s christmas. that kewl. i am excited to give my gifts rather and get any really. i like seeing how happy people are when they get somethign they really like. i mean i like stuff , but yea

then on boxing day .. i really wanan go like hardcore early morning shopping so i might go with matt, or if their are any girls that wanan go.. i am just suggesting cuz they like trying on clothes and stuff. but yea. umm adn then kylan and i are going to so save kaitlyn form her current location, after staying over for a night. then yea..

anyone have any suggestiong for newyears? my da just ripped up the kitchen floor tonight, so i'm sure we scould still have people over to celebrate, but it definatly has to be a smaller thing. if anyone eles and any suggestions .. yea..

things are looking up, it;s a great little world we live in
i'm happy as a pup since love looked up at me.
~crazy for you~

it just popped into my head.*shrug* that was a great musical.*heart*
anyways

I can;t even esape it in my dreams ...

work last night was sooo ridiculouse. we had out main shipment of stuff come in yesterday and one of the managers made a bet with the other managers that we could get it done last night , and if we did we would get pizza. sure ok so rick and i go at it.. hwoever there are like 5 skids like 8 feet hight and two others that are just these boxes filled with small random stuff like fish food and dogs bones and toys or w.e and they are all mixed up in no particular order.. so
i started at 4 and worked straight till 11( minus a short break for food) anyways we worked sooo hard and we got all the 8' skids done and 1/2 of the bigger dc boxes skid. no to mention facing the store and me cleaning up the back so that some of the over stock , new and fish tanks could go up onto the steel. i'm sure this is not intesting to anyone who reads this.. but i can't even explain how tried i am even today.. and i get to work more today

i miss the theatre. i am so jealous of those to get to be their now. working and then going to bed then not seeing anyone and working again is horrible it compleatly drains me of anything that i would call joy.*sigh* i can;t wait for christmas to be over too. christmas songs are go depressing when you are not all "up and happy"... they all talk about santa's gonna bring me what i want, or stay here it;s cold outside, or all i want for christmas is you.. " and hearing the same songs like 2 or 3 times in your shift... not just the same songs but the same versions ..i would say that i hear the same songs about 3-4 time and hour... times that by 7 hours

i cannot wait for tomorrow. today is going to be another long day.

help me i am in hell -NIN

so things have been alright i guess, been working lots which is good for the money however it is very exausitng. umm other than that not o muc has been going on. stuff happens ya know, there is so much going on in my head that i dunno what to do with myself. i have no motivation but i want somethign to distrat me from my thoughts. I have so much self doubt now.

i thought it would be for just a little while,
but it turned into forever
all i wanted was to fix some things
to try and make it better

i am lost in a sea acidic thought
that pours into my veins
it;s eating me from the inside
till no happiness remains

i'm so good at telling other people how to do things, but so bad at making my own dessicions.
there are somethings i just don;t understand. why did you give up, it just wanted to be bettter.
i wish i could scream, but whats the point.
*sigh*

help me i am in hell

today and yesterday..

so today was pretty nifty. braught some stuff over to kaitlyns the we braught the bottles back. then we went to the mall and i got almost all the rest of my christmas presents. yay i was uber excited to frind my dad's gift! yay. then kaitlyn and and i came back to my house and watched some epidsodes of dilberts. then we came back to the aka house where i am currently now

YESterday, meghan kylan jordan and i went to see urine town which was AMAZING, the set and acting and tech and everythign was so good, the musial it self was a litle de[ressing at the end but hey that happends.. the script was so well written. bti of trouble getting their, wha with the power out at duncan and a huge line up for gas. we made it to the show with 10 min to spare. aha. then after the show ross gave us a bit of a tour back stage of the belfry. then to deny's . i had chicken strips and mashed potatoes and gravy. it was alost my dream meal.. then when we got back to nanaimo kylan and i went to visit jill to watch a bunch of episodes of scrubs.. which is uber fun and awesome

the following chunk is part of one of the episodes that i thought was an amazing speach. it would be a good monologue or something anywas it really gave me warm fuzzies. you should read it... read it....!

Dr Cox- Relationships don't work they way they do on television and in the movies. Will they? Won't they? And then they finally do, and they're happy forever. Gimme a break. Nine out of ten of them end because they weren't right for each other to begin with, and half of the ones who get married get divorced anyway, and I'm telling you right now, through all this stuff I have not become a cynic. I haven't. Yes, I do happen to believe that love is mainly about pushing chocolate covered candies and, y'know, in some cultures, a chicken. You can call me a sucker, I don't care, because I do believe in it. Bottom line: it's couples who are truly right for each other wade through the same crap as everybody else, but the big difference is they don't let it take them down. One of those two people will stand up and fight for that relationship every time. If it's right, and they're real lucky, one of them will say something.

i'd like to thank jill for finding that. i stole it from her blog. cuz i think it is awesome

but yea thats it

LoVE

dududu

sooo just thought that i would make an update. slept in alot today,, well not alot just till 11. but i woke up and was all like tired/ then by the time i knew it it was almost 1 . and i made my way to drop off spencers suff then made my way to brianna's. we did christmas crafts. yay. i made the prettiest decorations. thanks brianna for having us over. dudud then i came over to kaitlyns , we went and got some food then lee came over and we are watching some christmas things.. like right now we are watching married with children.. it;s interesting my must say.

dudud i am excited for for tomorrow. at night i am probbly going to go to the swish chalet with people for dinner and then go geoffs show. wednesday gonna go to vic with people to go see urintown...

i think i will stop now because i'm really noy paying atention... better update later

LoVe

holy cow it;s 12:50

time sure passes when you don;t do anythign all day.. this is the longest i have been chatting on msn in forever. it was enjoyable though

after the exam today i cleaned up the green room. and then came home OMG,,,
ATE PIZZA WITHOUT CUTTING IT INTO TINY PIECES yay
so close to actual eating!
then i had a bath
went to the mall for some shopping.. tried to find jill but failed.. found a nathan who now works at lush howcute...
came home and have been on the comp ever since..
yea i aknwo i am lame but whatever
so eya i really have nothing to say .. becuase i didn;t do anythign today

christmas party tomorrow yay .. mmm yummy food... ya gifties!
see everone tomorrow

new post new post

so this is just a quickie to up date. ummm stage craft final today dudud hope i did alright. theatre history tomorrow. dudu du .. came to aka to watch some movies.. watched never been kissed.. then i made mashed potatoes and then we watched pride and prejudice. i misse the warm fuzzies of meeting someone and all that jazz. i miss feeling that i am loved and special. i like girly movies, but at the same time i hate them lots. cuz i watched them and now all i am left with is a longing for someone to love me...*tear* mush mush mush

now to get away from that.. i realy have nothing eles to say. dudud
i want a hamburger and chinese food and chicken fingers and chips....
SOOON.... soon

Being nice to people doesn't make you friends

being a good hostess doesn;t make you friends, being good at art, or cleaning up after people or knowing how to solve problems doesn;t make you friends.
i know for a fact. if i did i would have more than i can count, for unless i am heinously misteaken i am a nice person. why do i not have friends? aquaintances i have many but who can say that they are really my friend? who really knows me? i think some how i must be deficient at making friends.i'm just tlaking about people to hang out with or spend time in a group, i'm tlaking abotu the people who you can spend all day doing nothing with, who you can know how each other is feeling, someone who undertsands .perhaps it is my own actions that has prevented it. i know there are people who are my friends and no matter what happens they will be. even if they move away to victoria.. which funnily enough most of them did go. augh i don;t even know what i am saying right now. all i know is that right now i am so lonely. even though i did see people it was as though i spend 3days by myself. i just wish i was closer to people, that people wanted me to go out to dinner or to coffee or shopping with them not just becuase i have a car or they feel obligated to, but becuase they might enjoy my company. what a strech eh. fuck.
i came to school today and everyone noticed my fat cheeks. is that what it takes? idunno. we are probably just so involved in out own lives, myself included to notice anything eles in the world.

i'm sick of these stupid swolen cheeks, i'm tired of looking in the mirror and starting back at a monster. here is my new trend

I hate these cheeks. i hate being cold. i hate being lonley. i hate not knowing what peopel think of me. i hate that people don;t think about me. ihate being excluded. i hate how i feel right now. i hate when i complain. i hate when i cry. i hate not seeing you. i hate being selfish, i hate how other people are selfish. i hate stupid arguments.i hate suborness, i hate bad tempers.i hate being scared. i hate how i need you so much. i hate many kind of vegetables. i hate luke warms drinks. i hate it when it;s sunny and cold. i hate it when the snow melts. i hate it when dollar stores aren;t really a dollar.i hate when i procrastinate. ihate not knowing the time i hate how my mom nags me about stupid things. i hate not having any girl friends to talk to. i hate the pain i get in my knee.i hate when people try and make themselves mroe important than you. i hate nto playing fastball. i hate pork steaks. i hate not liking strange foods. i hate the way i will forget all this tomorrow, continue on as i always do , and have all this happen again...

now before i die of negativity

i live vanilla. i like cinniamon, i like candles. i like sleeping. i like masks. i like theatre. i like venice. i like shopping. i like glass work. i like to swim in lakes. i like camping. i like mushroom picking. i like to go hiking. i like building sand forts and defending them against the waves. i like making cocktails. i like painting i like cooking and baking. i like driving, but not for too long. i like the sun when it;s hot out. i like watching movies. i like the color of my hair when it is first died. i like regular orange peko tea. i like rum. i like writting on big stacks of paper.i like chapstick. i like rollar blading. i like sitting around all day with people and just hanging out. i like makign spaghetti sause from scratch and then just eating it. i like taking picutres. i like looking at pictures of my self. i like walking places with a purpose. i liek adventures. i like eating raw cookie dough. i like dumb teen movies. i like hot hot baths. i like it when it rains. i liek storms. i like painting my nails french maniture style. i like dressing up formal. i like bare feet. i like flip flops. i like fastball.. and even slop pitch.i like hugs, i like cuddleing, i like kissing ,i like sex. i like likeing on a bed and listening to music. i like walks on the beach in the fog. i like holding hands.... someitmes.... very rarley. i like organizing things. i like lilies. i like giving gifts for no reason to people who deserve it. i like that kaitlyn likes dinosaurs. i like kaitlyn. i like ceasar salad. i like meatloaf. i like mashed potaoes. i like bread and gravy. i like how my kitten brings me sticks. i like being under blankets. i like my james bond. i like your mystery, i like massages. i like musicals. i like being in musicals. i love hippies even if they are dirty. i like my eyes, my body, my sense of humor, my feet and laugh.


i don;t expect anyone to read that, but i certianly needed it to feel better. thank you for your paticance.good night

OMG FUCKING ASLKHDLKFHASd

sometimes i hate this stupid blogger. it is all like "unexpected error" whe ni try to leave comments".. it isn;t do ing that to other people is it .. cuz they have left comment i see.. i seee!!!


sooo
to kaitlyn - there where three of us who finished the snow for , we were hard core and lee got eaten by a yetti. i love you.. i've tried to leave 3 comments

to jordan- i think your picture idea is wonderful, it;s a nice collage and i hoep it works out for you

Megan- that sucks that your boss left you off the shedual... i cannot wait till you come back! yay megan!!

amber- you forgot that you like to bite people... alot.... haha

....
i hink thats all for now.. but geeze annoying..

so anyways.. today has been very boring.. i have all all day to do whatever and have aonly watched one movie ( who framed roger rabit).. or and a bit of ace venturea .... oh and the 2nd 1/2 of flight of dragons.. but thats like it.. where did my day go.it is lame.

now i am just bored and puffy, and a bit mroe puffy and some bruised. there have been soem good pit of today though. i got my glasses back.. and i had mashed potaotes and gravy for dinner... mmm mashed potaotes.. i think that i am going to have some bread and gravy in a bit..
ahh the wonders of gravy how i love thee

tomorrow kylan said that he would come and visit me.. yay a friend. i will probabl ymake him take to the garage sale at my grannies... which i think o have told all of you about.. if you don;t knwo it;s on the forum. then i dunno.

i'm not looking forward to monday.. idunno why i just aint, thats right i said aint..
well monday night should be good. but i don;t wanna go to school. i'm all puffy... *sad face if i could make expressions*
haha i am le kewlmm bread and gravy

ummi guess thats all i got for now.. .
ttyl !lisa~LOVe

my little chipmunk

so yea, i got my wisdom teethout today so now i'm just hanging around with my ggod friends ice pack, gauze and Mr T3.. hehe. I am hungry which as well can be expected. and it is uncomfortable not reallu being able to spit. p.s i hate freezing.

in other news i have found one of my favorite movies on utube. "flight of dragons" when i was little my mom had taped it off of tv and i can really watch that tape anymore, but io found it and have been watching it. i suggest that if you are bored search for it then watchit.. it's in chunks so you will just have to look at he numbers to get it in the right order.. hey is it possible to down load those video's, i'd like to put it on cd. haha next movie to look for... the chipmunk adventure, horay for chilhood favorites. ummm yea

haha looking at kaitlyns name makes me laugh, ( i love her.. she kicked me in the face) it reminds me of willow( the awesome movie we just watched) and val kilmer.. man was he good looking in the movie... (however not so much now) and a fighter too, weilding a sword.. i supose thats the way to my heart. i supose there is a little piece of Iris in me hashaha. oh how i miss her

dududu, now i am bored. i thought i was goin to be sleepy but i am not. dudu. hopefully tomorrow is more interesting, i will have afew visitors i believe. if anyone wants to stop and come watch movies with me i am alll up for that. call first maybe... or text i'm kinda hard to understand.

OMG.. i am going to eat mashed potatoes when i eat.. those are soft.. wooo hoo..

LoVe

snow day adventure

sooo today was another snow day which was sweet. yesterday was too so meghan , kaitlyn , kylan gregoire and lee came overand watched movies ans stuff. twas pretty sweet. anyways whats really important is the awesome igloo for things that me meghan kylan and kaityln made.
dudud also been doing my art project which is a self portrate and someother things . it looks pretty good.

dududu tomorrow i get to have my wisdom teethout... sweet augh.
as much as i like the snow i am glad that the snow is going...lalala
i will post better later i just want to put a pic on for my profile.. dududud

What to do

what to do. blog woo who... woo...yea..... ... great
umm wow snow is fun. hung out a bit with lee kaitlyn kylan and michelle. school today. umm went to go hang out with spencer watched black afew episodes of black adder. umm .. and now i am home. i dunno what to do now, if i have some paper i coulf start on my art project, but i probably wont. coul dhave a bath and read then go to bed early. or hmm nope thats probably it. i wanted tp up date my post for a while but now that i am i dunno what to say or don;t really feel like describing. so i'll go do whatever and maybe be back to fix it.


This is a picture that was taken and given to me another time that it snowed... notice the heart snowflake.. pretty eh
is this a test? I hope that i pass

Damn you waking up early*shakes fist *

so i woke up early lame. i am fighting a cold or throat thing or soemthing. and when i sleep stuff build up in my throat and then i cna;t breath..... so i have to get up .. lame..
also. my cat comes into my room everymorning at the same time. last nighti was smart and left it open a bit so i wouln;t have to get up, but i woke up and couldn;t breath and had to anyways...lame

so i am wasting time here is my 100

1. i have lived my whole life in nanaimo
2. in two different houses
3. I cannot wait to have my own place
4. i am afraid to movie all the way to calgary.
5.i don;t actually like my name, i think its boring.
6. my favorite flower is a lily
7. which i have a tatoo of on my left ancle.
8. i drew the design myself, in eliza;s theatre history class
9. i also drew kylans fluer de lis
10. i am almost always cold

11.my slippers are chickens
12. i have a cat named stirfry,. and a beta fish named , little red
13. my mom talks to both of them.
14. cats are my favoite animal
15.I really like playing card games , like canasts, becuase they remind me of when my family used to go camping for two weeks everyyear
16. i love the out doors.
17. i like to go mushroom picking( the legal kind)
18.i love hamocks
19.i would rather be in a cold room wrapped in a blanket than be a comforable temperature.
20. but i like summer better than winter, by far

21. i love it when it rains really hard
22.i think that romanticaly i am a wretch to put up with because i never know what i want, but i think that i am worth it for the most part
23.i have honestly and truly loved two people in my life
24.i love the story of alice in wonder land becuase everone is mad.
25. i have had some of the best friend in the world, but most of them are gone now
26.i have had so many stiches and burned my self so many times that i have lost count
27. i broke my color bone after flipping off my bike trying to carry my ball equipment home.
28. afterwards i went and played football, because i didn;t know. it reall hurt
29. i played fastball for 14 years of my life. 7 of which where played at a very competative level
30. i played 2nd base and was relaly good at it.

31.i don;t know if i have ever felt truly excepted by a group
32. i am always tired, even if i sleep enough.
33. my favorite juice is minut made rasberry juice from concentrate
34. and i always putin more water than i am suposed to , my mom bitches about it hahahaha
35.i only like 5 differnt vegitables. corn brocollie, potaotesm peas and carrots, and sometimes lettic , but only if it's in a ceasaer salad
36.i', really bad at being kewl and trying new things, like foods.. expesially foods
37. i have given blood three times,
38.i am o posiive
39. when i am not lazy. i'm a really good cook
40.i have a realy crazy imagination and freak myself out lots of times

41.my favorite chips used to be old duch BBQ, but now hey giv eme heart burn so i don;t eat themas much
42. now i really like mrs vickies sweet chilie and sour cream
43. i love sweet and sour pork,
44. i have eaten. moose, deer, elk, bear, couger, grouse, rabbit, buffalo, crocodile and dolphin.
45.i like to paint my nails fench maniure stlye
46. i am an artist.
47. my fave thing to by artys about is painting.
48. i have sold many of my paintings and given soem away. if you want none let me know. i do commisioned works :P hahaha.
49. i paint my best most intersting work when i am upset
50. although i want to and know i can, i am scared not to find work in theatre

51.i have a really hard time expaing how i actually feel about things.
52. many times when in a group of people , nobody listens to what i have to say, either they are ignorantof others or to rude and interupt me
53. i pick up after other people.
54. i almost alway take on way more than i should. and it almost kills me
55. but i am still here so it must be fine
56. i want to go bungiee jumping.
57. i can legal handle, shoot, and buy, display firworks( those are the big ones)
58. i have traveled alot. and i really like it
59. however i could never go back packing around europe. i would starve.
60. i used to be really strong but am not so much any more. but i;m still pretty strong

61.i used to never cry
62. my intuition is generally right
63. however i generally override it withthinging and make the wrong choice.
64. i like to randomly do nice things for people
65. but i hate doing things when i am asked forcfully or told
66.i always dream in color and remember what i deam
67.i belive in the supernatural, even though it freaks me out
68. i really like to read
69.some times when i look at myself in the mirro i see differnt versions of myself
70. some of them i think are very beautiful, some are not

71.there are very few people that actually know me, and it makes me sad
72, i don;t have any close girlfriends anymore
73.i love to watch movies
74.a nd eat popcorn with extra butter
75. i suck at math
76. my favorite colors together are navy blue and lime green
77. my favorite fabric is satin
78. i am very good with duct tape.
79.i wish i could spy on people's minds and see what they think about me. so i could get an honest answer
80. i love to cuddle.

81.i have grown up on rum and coke, and straberry daquires
82. in the summer my family will all be haning around sitting in the patio just before diner or something and we will all agree that we should make drinks.. it;s so sweet
83. my parents are awesome, even though my mom is crazy. i am glad that i am parts of them. and i think it is so kewl that i can see those parts, but can also find my own
84. i'm afraid of commitment
85. i like human hearts. they look so kewl
86. i don;t ask for alot
87. i compain less, far far less than my brother wheni am sick
88. i have wondered what it would be like to swirv suddenly on the road or into trafic or off a street onto another street. i wouldn;t so it.. but i have wondered
89. i think i give good advice for the most part
90.i am very trust worthy

91.i love potatoes. especiallymashed with gravy
92. i want to have kids when i am older
93. but the though of being pregnat scares me to death, especially if it was before i was ready
94. i was never invited to many things, or was never thought of to be one of those people that had to be there, so when people specifically invite me to things i feel special
95. i'm kinda a loner
96. when i was younger i used to play magic cards and pokemon... and now i play dnd
97. my brother is writting a book and it is really good so far. i am proud of him
98. i want to do something that will make people remember me
99. i'm a big flirt and i honest to god can't help it, it;s just how i act i really don;t notice
100.. i don;t belive in god. i like since and the theroy of evolution makes sence to me.
p.s billy nye is awesome , he is the reason i like science

well i hope that is intersting enough to read. ahah wow i have to get ready and go to school. eep
LovE

956

afew hundred more to go.. yes it is the dreaded theatre history paper.. that i am fairly sure everyone.. except for meghan is writting today and tomororw. i hate to say it but i really am not taking it so seriously.. i mean leon didn;t even hand out criteria about it so .. yea
my essay will be suficient

not much is new.. i went to the dr yesterday . a specialist and i will be getting suergery sometime .. in afew months maybe?
other than that, the surgery for my teeth is cumming up soon.. yes not this friday but the one after that i will be getting my wisdom teeth out. so i will be all puffy and drugged up for afew days. feel free to visit me . i know that kylan is going to come.

u hmm . yea not alof of event... kylans birthday comming up that should be fun fun fun. dudu
thinks have been decent latly yet kinda blah. i dunno. ya know.. it;s just not what i need rightnow. i'm getting to it.


ummmmm wow i really got nothing. i just felt that i needed to update so i did . go team . hopefully i will come by with some more good stuff to wash away this crappy post..

much love

title

so tis saturday i spent the dayin bed getting sleep.... hmm i shall start yesterday

so i read this book that i am using for my theatre history paper. it was kinda boring.. well interesting but i didn;t wana do it.. anyways. i ended up wasting time on the comp. eventually after dinner i went to hang out with amber kaitlyn and alleah. then amber and i headed outto go pick up barbra and brianna. made a quick stop at thrifties and then went to the foundy.
for anyone who was way out of the loop. yesterday was brianna;s 19th brithday. she had never been in to a bar or pub so we took her. i baught her a crispy crunch and then later made her take a muff dive from my crotch. she was reluctant to do it.. but i am sure she was glad that she did. cuz later on i heard her telling the story to people at the pary. it gave me warm fuzzies knowing that she will have that memory of me haha.
anyways.. geoff and steph also showed up. and after a quick stop at the liquor store we went to the party.

barb geoff and i decided we had to make our first drinks strong... geoff won.. he was the most hard core.. he also got drunk the fastest.. which braught much humor.

mroe people came and stuf andf stuff. I ended up spending most of the night with megan which was awesome because she amuses me so.

16. it seems like i have known you worever and i guess i almost have. it;s a shame that we have never been really really close.. but i am sure after that birhtday that i ate the cake with my face you made sure to keep your distance. i think that you will be great at what ever you do. i truly believe you will be successful with your writting if you keep at it.. ther is actully no doubt in my.
mind. and success doesn;t mean making millions of dollars, it;s doing something that you are proud of. money and fame are just a bonus. i really hope that we keep in touch and then we can be crazy old ladies together. i love you.

there you are. as promissed. anyways
so some of the highlights of the night...
- infiltrating the "kewl group" in the kitchen
- making up a story that my name was alysia but i wanted people to call me lisa becuase in high school there was another girl with the same name and she was a bitch so i didn;t want the same name.
- being megans body guard, the chapstick body guard
- telling people about my camera fanny pack and waving it around
- hanging with the orange heads... no offence.;)

downers of the evening.
- being green and getting upset
- wakingup at 3 30 and not being able to get bacl to sleep until 6 30( total amount of sleep recieved.. about 3 ish hours)
- hearing the sexual experiences of at least 3 couples, some of which were very graphic, one of which was using a blanket that i braught... it must now be washed
- being trapped, by bodies and cold and miserableness and watnting to go home

so the night was good the morning was bad. at lwast i got soem good pictures. that if anyone wants are now posed on the forum.

so yea.. i left as soon as i could and came home to sleep. it was lame though cuz i had to get up 3 times to let the cat in and answer the phone and the door. why does stuff like that always happen when you really need the sleep.??/ augh... anywayss i'm alright now... sooo hungry .

will be doing my art work later tonight.. thats all i got..

my kitten loves me

she is sitting with me. stealing my blnket and making my feet go numb, but i love her

sooo today is friday. big party tonight, which i have been excited for. i'm not at the moment however so i hope it picks up. should be working on my essay right now.. but i am now. oops

wed night at the bar was kinda lame. there was a sucky person being the dj and our table was by the door. which was cold and the ciggarette smoke gave me a head ache. also on wednesday a group of us went to se borhat.. itwas so funny.. yet wrong in many ways.

thursday. fun with knots. moveing wood with leon and watching cartoons. best work op hours ever.

later that night at 70. dj night. ummmit was ok for a little bit. but i didn;t feel like dancing. and there was only us there. so we left after like an hour and a 1/2. went to timmys then to allens and watched the .... you knwoi can;t remember the name.. some time warioir... o dunno.. moveing city, cyborgs, australia*shrug* i fell a sleep. then kylan took me home and i went to bed... until...


now. i love this new blanket that i baugt.. soo much ... *heart*heart* heart*
oh yeah, and yesterday guess what came in the mail... my credit card! it's all mine muahahaha.

This is the time i should..

be reading a play. ..
be looking over my lines...
be researching for my essays....


but i'm not.cuz i just got up and it;s raining lots so i;m wrapped in a blanket. i love weather like this ...it;s got so much character. i dunno .

sooo ydesterday after class, i did a whole lot of nothing. i sat on the green room couch and was a big lazy blob.. then when i finally got my ass up to go to the library there was like no books for me to use. lame.

Woah i just rememberd some more of a fucked up dream that i had. i always have the most fucked up dreams. i wonder sometimes if that is why i am tired when i wake up. becuase generally i sleep for at least 8 hours. so whats thea dealy-o

hmm i really got nothing, but instead of doing somethign productive i will do these just like everone eles.


1. your so awesome. it;s really a shame that i never see you anymore. it always makes me happy when you sneak up or run at me and give me a hug.

2.i miss you , ya know. you and i have this weird relationship. it's this knowing what you want, but can never have. some times i think we deserve to forget about the rest of the world and just.. well i dunno waht we would be. if only things had been different, i could have loved you so much, yet i'm not sure what i feel for you now. maybe it;s some kind of love. w/e it is i cannot wait to see you next. my barnicle

3.i like you, though i suppose not some times. you are nice and smart and wonderful and sometimes i think i am threatened by it. but i wish i wasn;t and could just be your friend

4. you work so hard and are so wonderful andf sooo funny and i want everything to turn out for you. your so amazing. love

5.i hate to say it, but the last little while around you has been kinda akward. i know it isn;t my place to judge. i really hate how we are not as close. we where a pair and now, because of me mostly i feel like i'm missing something. sometimes i don;t think you are the same person. you probably are and just different circomestance and bringing out stuff...though i guess it isn;t that diffent just a little more extreame, or you are changing which is kinda good you could use one. anyweys i miss you, but things i have heard kinda made my stomach turn.

6.why do you aways have to be so difficult. we have talked, though together along time. you know what you. knwothis is not for you. why keep with it. i don;t understrand you. you say you should trust your feelings but you never do. i wish you could just be happy.

7. you are the one they want. i really like you and think you are awesome. so i understand why. i dont really know you but i wish that i did. i guess i am sad or jealouse or something, becuase i always seem to hear you name being called or said. and i realize is isn;t me that anyone wants

8.i like you, you are fun and crazy and alots of wonderful things, but i kind feel sorry for you sometimes. hwy do you do the things you do. i hate to say it but each time i see or here it, i lose a little respect. it;s nothing personal but it just kinda happens

9. what happend?! i miss the good old days when it was the three of us. i see you and we kinda hang out and you give me lots of hungs. but it is not near the fun we had before. we must go on an adventure.

10. i love you and i wish this could last forever. there are many things working against us such as time in out lives and the place that we are. you know what i think and it is true it will probably not change. for your piece of mine, this is for you. if i could do anything it would be not to hurt you, you better know that. i have been happier lately, it;s like before.. kinda. *shrug* anyways. you are hot stuff. and i like it when you show me how much you like me.*wink* i like the way we insult each other as long as it doesn;t go to far....fine

11.you are soo annoying.i want to beat you with a big smelly stick so that you know.

12. OMG your so hardcore and smart and fucking hillarious. if i do half the things you have done i will have lived a full life.

13. i'm glad we have gotten a bit closer this year. you are fun and nice and happy. i would like to do it more... hang out that is.. and maybe now that the play is over we can. i know i will see you around lots. but we should take and adventure somewhere. maybe on friday we cna have a tlak again .

14. your so od but i guess that makes you do. i can see that we have alot im common, which is kinda od scary yet assuring. even though we are very aike i know im different. my life willl be more interesting than yours and that will change me alot. io'm glad that you are you though, even if you talk to the cat.

15. ew creepy creepy creepy. give it up . i cannot belive you talked to him about me. it would be nice if i never saw you again.



yea thats it. nobody hate me if i said somethign you don;t like. though i don;t think i did. but yea. i guess i will get up and go to school . au revoir

OMGOMGOMG

what what... i don;t have to do anythign today...hell has frozen over i'm sure.

woot play is done. strike when pretty fast.. to bad i was stil uber tired and had lame work. sounds like i missed a pretty good party. very "good" for a lot of people. haha .
i'm looking forward to the parties comming up, thursday at the bad and brianna;s b-day.
then after that kylans... we must make jello shooters... if you do it twice it;s tradition..
anyways, last night was nice. had a bath went for coffee. ... .. watched a movie. why arn;t we like that all the time? itwas nice like the good old days.. i miss them.

so my rents are back, whoever reads this pobably did not know that they where gone. my dad braught back a jug of rum it is 1.75 litres... wanna know how much it costed... 21$ american .. thats less that 25 canadian.... thats alot of rum... i was like oh sweet is this for me .. but he said we have to shar it..
but i get to keep the jug after. and it is a relic, i shall keep it foralways

does anyone realize that we only have like two weeks until the end of the semester. paper time eh. ep ahaha

also comming up i get to go to the doctors alot... yea i'm sorry to say im dieing... but not yet..
really i have a dentist appointment soonish.. my knee apointment finally, and my wisdom teeth out.. lame.


so i really want a new music player. i am minus a crappy cd player and hoever crappy it was, it still game me muisc.. so i want a to be hard core and get a new i pod. they however a fairly expensive.. and i just can;t decide what color i would want.. green pink blue or black... if you think a specific color would suit me , please tell me. *shrug*

thats all i can think of. haaha and it really isn;t much .. *shrug*

i'm sorry .

closing night. thank god, i need a break. strike tonight then another party. unfortuatly i will most likley not be able to enjoy it as it will start late and i have to work tomorrow morning at 1030.

i cannot wait for "this" whatever it is ... to be over.
until then, please forgive me
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i am the prize in a race between two rivals. they are the same in many ways yet their ignorance of the other separates them. i am a bridge who is held up by two sides. i am the connector they shall never meet in the middle. they hold me up with love and affection, yet i am held down. without these sides i would fall, however the more they grow and shrink to meet i am twisted. I have beams that go deep within these sides, i stab deep within their being, the damage is already done.

trip to vic

so friday after james and kyle got off work we started out on our journey. out first stop was the liquior store. kyle baught some beer, i baught rum. then we where off. kyle started drinking uon the way up and after about 4 beer's kyle really really has to pee. so we find a gas station to pull over at ( which we find out later that we where minuts away from out destination) kyle runs in ... no luck no bathroom. so james and i , sitting in the car, see him run past .. hop a fence and go a little ways to a tree... it was like some park in some seniors viliage. ah the memmories..

so we make it to joshes house, unfortunatly neither joch or caitlin where there. so we went to get food and pop and chips... and search for josh at thrifties where he works however we did not suceed. went back to the house. josh came home shorty after and then we went and watch caitlin very exciting volly ball game.... 8couhgcough* .. exciting..

after that, thankfull it was over soon aftwe we got there. we all piled into james car... me james kyle josh caitlin and serina( joshes sister)... there wan;t enough room so kyle sat in the back...
then .. to the liquor store again! mmm booze..
got back home and played a huge game of fuck you.. got really drunk.. stayed up til llike 2 ish.. then got up at 7 30 the next day to drive home.

left kyle behind cuz he was going to take the bus, and james drove me home. picked u omy car and went to the build.

came home tried to read , fell asleep. kylan came and braught me chicken wings and more sleep.. i am up an dand there is work...

the end

quickie

so i just waiting for james to phone me so we can head out to vic to visit josh.. dudud i hate waiting. i finished by book. What i am to do!... blog.
there isn;t alot that 's been up. yesterday i was all blah becuase i was planning to go to vic and stay till saturday night or sunday morning.. how ever mike was like" well you shoukld REally be there on saturday".. and *sigh* i just got all dissapointed. Very sad lisa. i still dop get to go but only visit for a while tonight. josh works until 7. and i have to be back in nanaimo at like 9 30.. i mihgt be there by ten,

stupid designer. useless thats all i can say. she wasn;t even going to come this weekend.. *shakes head*grrrr* sooo tomorrow will be along day for lisa.. doing painting stuff and some light stuff with mike. o well o well.

work the next day.... Design run on monday that should be neat

so kylan comes over after rehearsal yesterday and he is all stressed out becuase apparently people don;t knwo their lines yet. and no one was learning then when they where not on stage... Boo earns to those people( i'm not saying it's everyone). just over a weekand a half till show opening! take it seriously people, the crew is doing lots to make you guys look good on stage. just remember that.

well now that i have made all the actors angry at me, i shall change the subject

went shopping yesterday . baught soem new shoes, some more mugs fro the green room> some, well all , oh which i think are very fun.

well thats all. see everyone tomorow at the build.. which is basicaly alot of painting now.

new post ... the last one was quite depressing

i'd like to stay away from that if at all possible. last littler while...
saturday- went to the build but was useless due to head huritng ness. weent and baught a book and read it until, spencer came over and we watched natural born killers and mean girls*( what a combo, thats waht happens when i have free choice) and i finished my aryt project. which i love love love... i am getting it framed.

Sunday - worked all day. i got stuck on cash which i hate however it was not realy bad becuase i was kinda training some one and i got her to go on till when it was slow.. and i got to work with patrick, he is the most fun manager to work with. then later on kylan braught me chicken wings made with love and honey garlic.. i mmm yummy.. inhaled them.

monday .. eww early art class. we did life drawing today .wich meant that we had a modle in today. and older women abround 40 somting probably. it was nice. i quite enjoyed it. i did a pretty good forshortened drawing to. and soem others

then ... then then then... our play went up..umm the theatre didnt burn down and no one threw tomatos. yes succes.. but seriously.. no one seriously fucked up and they all had costumes. and there was wonderful tech which is all i could hope for.
then thea his and acting.. i was dis interested today

went to spencers we went and baught soem movies watched... and i am now home going to go and possibly finish my book that i baught saturday.. it;s so gooood

i think that i remember that i have a stage craft mid term tomorrow. but i am very much not worried * shrug*

dududu.. do you ever feel special when you can type decently while not looking at the key board? i am doing it right now and am very proud of myself. are you proud of me to? jheheh e
aside from my horrible spelling... i;m iliterate didn;t you know that. leon just found out today...
never mind hahaha


ummm this week this week.. most likely starting painting the set. going to decorate masks. hopefully.. and and and it was tenativly planed that james and i would go and visit josh in victoria. i wanna see him in his place down there. that kid does to much and maybe i can help him relax a bit or something.... that and i miss him a bunch . that crazy kid* heart*


well i guess thats all i got . until further notice....

the worst day ever.. well maybe

yes that was today ...

first let me start with the events of wednesday night.. we all went to the gay bar and someone thought it would be kewl to break into my car..
lisa's car minus a passenger side window.

moving on today. for the past few days i have been sick and the trend continues. my first errand of the day to go and pick my pay check up from work... and of course i find that i am unable to get it beause it is locked up and the manager on duty does not have keys.. come back at 3 she says.
at the same time in the store i get a really weird pain in my neck. dunno wtf it was. however it lasted until i reached the school then it just turned into a head ache.
next i went to the back to deposit my pst. i go through the drive through.. negative the macine will not take my card.. i go inside to the atm and when it print out my recipit, it says that my updated amoun is unavaliab;e.. shigh...
so far these things have just been a pain in the ass.. i continue on my way to the school where i intent to finish my art project... however right after i leave the complex i run a red light.( first time that i have ever done that) it was the new light they put on hammond bay. i didnt ever see it till i was through... oops

so i make it to the school.. my neck pain has now turned into a headache.. i make some spaghetti.
take it and my apple juice into the theatre to get a peak of the rehearsal...
what do i do as sooon as i sit down, throw my spaghetti on the floor( i'm sorry for my bad spelling of a much loved pasta) so i pick that up.. an just give up and sit down...
rehursal ends... Oh shit... of course since my car has no window i am using an alturnative. well i forgot to put my parking pass in it.. Guess who gets a ticket!

15 dollars later, i mean it;s not that bad.. but waht a day ...
i was sitting talking with leon telling him the events of my day up just before the ticket( taht happens after) and he;s like well you knwo what day it is...
friday the 13th... i'm not superstitiouse... mayhaps i'm being taught a lession.

anyways.. isupose it was really just the morning that was a real mess.. other than me having a horrible time finding a new pair of jeans. kylan michelle and gregoire cae shopping with me.. along out travels we saw. alleah and geoff, JC, jo the firstie and tasia the firstiee... i think there where soem more lesser known people.

the highlight og my day was buying meghan a present because i know that she will love it. i cannot wait to give it to her. there will be much joy.

other than that it took me far to long to pick out movies today. building tomorrow will be good if i feel better and i still have yet to finish my art project. it will look good .

*sigh*
good night

i found this the other day when i was bored. i did it like a year and a 1/2 ago or something. it was a computer quizie thing. i think it still describes me today.



you are a WECF--Wacky Emotional Constructive Follower. This makes you a Candle burning at both ends.

You work until you drop, and you play until you can stand to work again. You have so much enthusiasm that you can find it hard to control on your own, and you appreciate the guidance that channels your energy and lets you be your best.

In a relationship, you require lots of attention and support. You often over-contribute and end up feeling depleted and cheated. You may benefit from more time alone than you grant yourself.

Your driving force is the emotional support of others--especially affection. You can run on empty for miles if you have positive energy behind you. Without it--as it occasionally must run dry--you are depressive, listless, and difficult to motivate.

You need a lot of affection. Get it any way you can, but never at the cost of your self-respect or well-being.


so you see? creepy eh..
augh i do not want to work to day, i have to get ready very very soon.
last night having dinner with everyone was fun. dinner tonight.. dinner tomorrow.
i cannot wait to get work over with today. i really really don;t wanna work for 8 hours.

fare well

negative title... oh the contradiction

so today started out fine. went to the school with kylan hung around fixed the rest of the parcans. watched miked set some focus points for the IQ's. kidded so creepy guys out of the green room.
went shopping baught some awesome new shirts. went and saw spencer. went to timmy's and for a drive. visited matt for a bit. now i have a head ache and am tired
i've been tired lots lately... i find that being bored and doing nothign does that to me. and it;s just a cycle becuase i've been sleeping which makes me more sleepy, much less intersting and very much less enthusiastic to do things.. hopefully the build tomrorow with cheery me up. and dinner with people.
i guess i have stuff to look forward to , but i just don;t have the energy to care really. which to me is sad and depressing. i hate being that way. cuz it really isn;t me.

will someone fix me? snap me out of it if you can. i would be very greatful. 3 days of unhappy is not good for lisa.
i guess on a brighter note i really like this shirt i baught... it;s a very nice. anyways.. till i do this again

i"m lost

(btw this is a "lisa letting it out" so if you even read my blog feel free to skip it)

right now i am soo lost i dunno what to do. litterally i have nothign to do, but i cannot do nothing. i tired to draw but i cannot i have to much force working insode my body... do you ever feel that?
feel like at any moment you could rip your chest open just so you don;t have to feel that anymore.
crush whatever is making you like that. i'm in one of those places where you have nothign to look forward to but a row of lonley nights. i guess it matches what i am.. i shouldn't be, but i am. sometimes it goes away, but it always comes back.
if you don;t want to see me don;t make up excuses. just tell me it hurts less.
i've decided that there is somethign wrong with me. It always ends up the same. i'm not getting waht i need so i end up miserable. am i asking to much, do i just have high standars for happyness??? what the fuck is it cuz i sure don;t know. i fell like a mother looking after and cleaning up after children. what pisses me off the most is that i've been here exaclty before. I hear the words you are saying, and there are many. but where is my proof. i dont ask for alot, hardly anthign but i want proof , i want to see but most of all i want to feel. I want to feel. cuz sometimes i don;t belive what i hear.
why do people stop figthing for what they want? Do you just get it and it;s yours? not in these cases. why does history have to repeat it;s self. WHY. i'm tearing my hair , trying to get rid of that feeling, trying to figure why i end up where i started. this is notwaht i wanted at first,i did it for you, all for you cuz i thought you would be as wonderful now as then. if only i trusted myself it isnt; in me rightnow. Why did you stop fighting. you got the prize so whats the point...
i dunno what to do so i will go on, and we will see if i survive. right now it's like i;m falling apart. i dunno how else to say it. i'm not trying to splay my troubles out to the world, i just need to get the ccrap thats in my head out. maybe the pounding, and twisting in my chest will stop. maybe i can focas. figure out what needs to be. something to make you want me again. not want me ... but give me waht i diserve... what i feel i diserve or throw me away cuz i am trouble. just something
like i said... i am lost. terribley dramatic i know but everyone deserves a low point now and then and i am in mine. i will waste tonigth, tomorrow, and the next day. cuz i just don;t have what it takes for anythign. and i doubt that you will come running.

" beneith the stains of time the feelings dissapear, you are someone eles, i am still right here"
*sigh*

me thinks it is time

FOR AN UPDATE>> yay update... woooo.. woo.. ho.. yea....

today was an all around ok day.. some parts where better than others however none excellent or horrible.. did some work op stuff, worked on theatre history... *sigh* gentle frusterations... things do not have to be as complicated as people make them. i think there are some really fun things in it. i think geoff has some nice moments as the evil dude. my set shall come together and it will go up and yea. i shall give my direction then the actors, hopefully takeing what i have said into account will do the rest of the work. becuase i am tired of it. moving on

i had spaghetti for dinner it was very good becuase i was very hungry. now i plan to read the nez books i baught. mayhaps have a bath cua they are nice

TOMORROW.. we get to watch the firsties movement pieces, yay ..
friday i mioght have some of the girls over after reahearsals for a bit of a night...
and monday my mom said icould make a turkey! mmmmm turkey .. mght have afew people over... or somethign

the past little while.did afew things
- theatre one bite of nanaimo
- last market
- the song party was fun funfun for the most part anyways.. everyone check out the picture
umm yea.. thats all i got i guess.. things are going pretty alright.
btw i am excited to start the set.. there is going to be lots of scenic painting

LoVE

welcome to the cocktail party

so i'm having a cocktail party. the gist of it is on the satyr player forum. i don;t feel like explaining since i actauly wrote a post about it last night but bloger was all fucked up and lame

anyways i was p at 7 30 again.. lame.. i just couldn;t sleep anymore... i guess it's guz i went to bed at like 10... my head hurt... 10 seems so early to me, but when ithink about it thats probable when alot of people go to bed. *shrug*

lots of meetings today.. first production meeting( that i am in at elast) for the 12th night
and a work op meeting.
got some auditions that i am not doing...
then playing DND*dances*

yesterday was a pretty good day . did some re-wiring in stagecraft. after which i feel smarter for doing. then meghan and i did some more and cleaned out the paint cubourd.

( goooo team awesome *clap*) hehehehe

i think thats all i got... blaoun

welcome to the cocktail party

so yea.. in a few weeks i am having one.. i shall keep people posted. i have a bigger blurb on the forum

today was .. hmm pretty fun. in stage craft meghan kylan and i ( team awesome *clap*) did soem re-wiring on lights. uber fun .. except for rivets but i showed them..
meghan and i also cleaned out and organized the painting cubourds...

OH this morning i finsihed our script for theatre history.. my work is almost donw.. HA
anyways it;s done and i am happy.

lazed around a bit.. had a bath... worked a bit on stage craft .. i am less worried.. i was all likeahhhhh .. but now i am not... haha watched beauty and the beast with my mom.
i got all choked up...*tears* .. i was beautiful..

OH i got my check from chemainus today .. yay i can buy things ... if i want to ... i mean .. i don;tneed to ...

umm my kitten loves me.. she caught me a snake today

lots of meeting tomrorow and soem DND woot.. yay

that all i got and or an remmber / have to say


LOve

The sunscreen song

hey guys do you remember this!.. hahaha it;s from like grade 5 for me .. i like it

Wear sunscreen.

If I could offer you only one tip for the future, sunscreen would be it. The long-term benefits of sunscreen have been proved by scientists, whereas the rest of my advice has no basis more reliable than my own meandering experience. I will dispense this advice now.

Enjoy the power and beauty of your youth. Oh, never mind. You will not understand the power and beauty of your youth until they've faded. But trust me, in 20 years, you'll look back at photos of yourself and recall in a way you can't grasp now how much possibility lay before you and how fabulous you really looked. You are not as fat as you imagine.

Don't worry about the future. Or worry, but know that worrying is as effective as trying to solve an algebra equation by chewing bubble gum. The real troubles in your life are apt to be things that never crossed your worried mind, the kind that blindside you at 4 p.m. on some idle Tuesday.

Do one thing every day that scares you.

Sing.

Don't be reckless with other people's hearts. Don't put up with people who are reckless with yours.

Floss.

Don't waste your time on jealousy. Sometimes you're ahead, sometimes you're behind. The race is long and, in the end, it's only with yourself.

Remember compliments you receive. Forget the insults. If you succeed in doing this, tell me how.

Keep your old love letters. Throw away your old bank statements.

Stretch.

Don't feel guilty if you don't know what you want to do with your life. The most interesting people I know didn't know at 22 what they wanted to do with their lives. Some of the most interesting 40-year-olds I know still don't.

Get plenty of calcium. Be kind to your knees. You'll miss them when they're gone.

Maybe you'll marry, maybe you won't. Maybe you'll have children, maybe you won't. Maybe you'll divorce at 40, maybe you'll dance the funky chicken on your 75th wedding anniversary. Whatever you do, don't congratulate yourself too much, or berate yourself either. Your choices are half chance. So are everybody else's.

Enjoy your body. Use it every way you can. Don't be afraid of it or of what other people think of it. It's the greatest instrument you'll ever own.

Dance, even if you have nowhere to do it but your living room.

Read the directions, even if you don't follow them.

Do not read beauty magazines. They will only make you feel ugly.

Get to know your parents. You never know when they'll be gone for good. Be nice to your siblings. They're your best link to your past and the people most likely to stick with you in the future.

Understand that friends come and go, but with a precious few you should hold on. Work hard to bridge the gaps in geography and lifestyle, because the older you get, the more you need the people who knew you when you were young.

Live in New York City once, but leave before it makes you hard. Live in Northern California once, but leave before it makes you soft.

Travel.

Accept certain inalienable truths: Prices will rise. Politicians will philander. You, too, will get old. And when you do, you'll fantasize that when you were young, prices were reasonable, politicians were noble and children respected their elders.

Respect your elders.

Don't expect anyone else to support you. Maybe you have a trust fund. Maybe you'll have a wealthy spouse. But you never know when either one might run out.

Don't mess too much with your hair or by the time you're 40 it will look 85.

Be careful whose advice you buy, but be patient with those who supply it. Advice is a form of nostalgia. Dispensing it is a way of fishing the past from the disposal, wiping it off, painting over the ugly parts and recycling it for more than it's worth.

But trust me on the sunscreen.

tea and kittens

tonight kylan and i went to barbs and brianna;s to have tea. it was nice. we watched the humpback of notredam.( which i am not fond of.. it; ssuch a downer) and stike which is kick as kewl... omg i haven;t said that in a while

also today i filmed a donar appriciatin thing for some people.. super easy.. hope i didn;t mess up.. haha wouldnt; that suck if i messed up recording.. i mean i only had to press 1 button... augh..
anyways long story short.. provided i did it succesfully, easy job for 50$ super

tomorrow i got lots to do ... maybe i;ll finish our script that so desperatly needs it.. or do my art projec tthat is due monday,.. it shouldn;t take to long.. but we all i know how i like to not do things or leave them till the last minut.. antways thats all i got i guess

maybe somethign interesting will happen tomorrow or somthign

forgiveme but i need to think

when...
will i see you again,
will you see me ?
will i be worth your time,
will i have your suport, attention, love?

when
will i be left out again,
will i be dissapointed,
wil i be able to figure this out.

thoughts go on cirlces in my mind. am i dreaming, or just living a nightmare. will you still be mine by tomorrows end? tomorrows' tomorrow, or the day after?

do you see what i see? do you understand?are our lives just a game and are we but pieces?

put me on pretty pedistil and watch the dust collect...

my rein has arrived

yes yes all bow down to me .....jk
what i really mean is.. yay it;s finally raining... i have been waiting for it.. i hate in between weather.. and if it isn;t smokin hot, it better be crisp and cold, or soggy outside...
i like misterable weather. it;s so nice to be inside all in a blanket and stuff. even if i am outside as long as i don;t have to stay out and i have a jacket it can rain all it want..

don;t you just love it when it pours?

anyways.. work today was ridiculously busy.. it;s like hey it;s raining and we can;t go outside... let go to PETSMART!!...woot*twirls finger*

the party at AKA was uber fun. hanging out with nikki and azusa was fun, walking to go get chips yay. i am saddened that the jello shooters took so long... i think mayhaps if they have alcohol they shoul dbe made like a day in advance. no worries.. kiddies... next party i will make more!!! muahaha.. crio-bears forever!!!! yes excellent
but yea... cannot wait for more party...
once i am done with the market.. so after september... there needs to be a party on a friday night becaseu then i will not have to work the next day. I hate being hung over for stuff,.. it;s fine if i can get up eat then go back to bed and sleep....
before i said i wanted to be a better partier... however i cannot beat down my responisbility. which makes me sad cuz i wish some times that i could just... do whatever, but there is alway this thing in the back of my mind( i think it;s call a consience or commmon sense or something ) says" umm yea , i'm just not sure about that right now".
i guess, i can;t help being lame.. i'll keep working on it though..

mdmdmdmdmd(<<<< thats my beat)*dances*


thats all i got

LOVe

i can see it on the horizon... it;s comming for me

i can feel it
so today was like many of my past fridays. driving around doing chores. got my check, went to the dollar store and got little tiny cups for jello shooters... jello alchoohol.... went to the telus store in the mall to see about my phone cancer.... there isn;t anythin they can do.. *tears* o well...
ummm tomororw market and then hanging around until the party. hope i have a good time. most likely i will face some dissapointment on a personal level but hopefully nothing alcohol with take care of or at least mask.

finished my book today it was uber good. i really like the terry pratchet series... it;s like exaclty what i like to read.

It's a funny thing... i;ve found that the older i get, the more of a girl i get .. at least in some respects.. take movies for example... i don;t like alot of action movies i find them very pointless and quite boring.. as well as gorey, martials arts type and sports movies... they are all the same and i hate watching them. i dunno.
i know there are other things aswell .. however i cannot put a finger on them.. o well i guess i can;t fight what i am .

i can;t wait till we start working on a the first show. i love working on shows so much. fun fun fun .. it almost feels like i have too much free time... like free time is good... but yea.. i duno.. yay for theatre...

so i realize soem of this is all chopy and non sence makinh... but i have a headache so i command you forgive me...

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so my worries of yesterday where correct. i am sick. my throat hurts crazy bad. for some reason i always get really sore throats... i imagine that eventually i will have to get my tonsils out. belch

yesterday i had a consultation with the oral surgeon about getting my wisdom teeth out. medical stuff is rediculously expensive eh... like a 10 minut meeting cost 45$.. like i can understand the surgery being pricey... but a meeting... lame anyways.

ok .. so my mom just asked me what classes i have today ...and i said stage craft. then she said " oh thats stressful" all sarcastic like.so i told her i'd go sign up for more classes right away. and the other day my dad was all don;t do to much you know you get all tired and stuff..
i'd say they should reach a general consensus on what to say or not sat stuff at all...

ok so my mom is always like work work work... you have to work lots to save money.. blah blah blah.. and so on sunday ... i get off working at petsmart a bit early and go down to chemainus and paint.. and as i am leaving she shows up and asks where i am going... i say to chemainus to work on a set, or to paint or somethign like that.. then she gets all grumpy cuz i am missing dinner?????

shouldn;t she be happy that i am working... shouldn;t she be happy that i am working in theatre!!! i just don;t get it asometimes... it;s like there is always somethineg that i should be doing or something... but i can;t do it to much...

whatever... i just don;t get it... hmm what eles is new. nothing really i guess i will get dressed...
hmm i hope the student union has those dumb forms i need... *shakes fist at student union*

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